Nancy Cole Silverman on Writing Herself – Or Not Herself

Nancy Cole Silverman impersonating Carol Childs (or is it the other way around)?

As somebody who otherwise leads a pretty boring life, it’s always amazed me when I run into novels written by folks who bear an uncanny resemblance to their characters. So when Nancy Cole Silverman, who has more than a little in common with her character Carol Childs, agreed to do a guest post for me, I had to ask about how and where she draws the line. And she did!

Anne Bannon believes my protagonist has been impersonating me.  Or maybe it’s the other way around, since on more than one occasion, Anne, and a number of friends, have referred to me as Carol Childs.

Allow me to set the record straight.  My name is Nancy Cole Silverman, and I created Carol Childs, she was a figment of my imagination.  A strong, take no prisoners type of now-gal, who believes, no matter what the situation, “Brains Beat Brawn, and a Mic is more Powerful than a Forty-five.” In short, as an investigative reporter for a Los Angeles talk radio station, Carol doesn’t carry a gun, she carries a microphone.


You bet. But then I spent twenty-five year in news and talk radio, and saw first hand where the power of the mic got the last word on more than one bad varmint in this town. OJ Simpson and Robert Blake may have not been found guilty of murder, but by the time their trial ended, the court of public opinion–the chatter on the airwaves–had cast a very different light on both the man and the crime.

The truth is, Carol Childs is my alter ego. And why not? I’ve taken my experiences, both those from inside some of Los Angeles’ busiest newsrooms, and those from my life as a single mom and bled them onto the page, in an attempt to make Carol feel real to the reader.

Similarities aside, however, Carol Childs is not me. Creating a character, particularly a powerful and believable protagonist requires a little distance and few rules; Writing What You Know, Research, and Romance or Writing From the Heart. I call them the three R’s.

Write what you know.  Everybody has experience in something and pulling from that can be an invaluable resource when writing.  Nora Ephron said, “Everything is copy.”  For me, that experience was working in a newsroom.  It helps when I sit down to write a scene to remember the world I came from; the non-stop deadlines, the constant chatter from the news desk to reporters and that adrenalin rush a reporter feels when uncovering a breaking news story. Along with all the facts and stats of the newsroom, I also pull from my own experiences as a single, working mom. Like I was then, Carol Childs is a single mom, struggling to establish herself in a tough competitive field and the clock is always ticking.

Research. I certainly haven’t had any first-hand experience with any of the crimes involved in my books.  Like most mystery writers I may write about murder, but poisons, sex trafficking, international jewelry theft or vigilante killings, like those I have exposed Carol to in my books, I’ve no first-hand knowledge.  Instead, I did a lot of research. Admittedly, research can lead a writer down a lot of rabbit holes, but in the end, when well-researched information is blended with real-life scenarios we get a ripped-from-the-headlines type of feel to the story.  I love when readers ask me if I really encountered such things while working in radio.  It’s my gotcha moment, my reward for a job well done.

Romance or Writing From the Heart: I believe it’s important for a writer to take note of their emotions.  Psychologist have categorized six basic emotions; happiness, sadness, fear, anger, surprise, and disgust, but writers know telling isn’t showing.  It’s important for a writer to note if a character is surprised to be able to recall their own physical and psychological reactions to such an emotion.  Equating that to the character’s feeling on the page in a way the reader can relate to helps to make the character real and memorable.

If readers recognize me on the page, I suppose I’ve nobody to blame but myself. Sometimes writers put more of themselves into their work then they know.  Hemmingway was accused of it in his Nick Adams short stories. Some literary critics suspect that Charlotte Bronte may have lived vicariously through her characterization of Jane Eyre, and I’ve often wondered if Janet Evanovich is more Stephanie Plum than she lets on.  Whatever the case, my name is Nancy Cole Silverman, I’m the voice behind The Carol Childs Mysteries, as for any similarities, I’ll leave that for you to decide.

Nancy’s latest book, Room for Doubt, is now available at Barnes and Noble and Amazon. You can find out more about her and the other Carol Childs mysteries at her site,

Chapter Nine

September 23, 1983


Friday morning, Sid decided he wanted a change of pace, so we ran up the road towards town, instead of south towards Meyers. Motley tagged along as usual.

“The hard part will be dismantling those bugs,” said Sid. “We’ll have to do that before anything else. The problem is that Lehrer is wondering about us.”

“Why?” I grumbled, still not awake.

“I would imagine the missing coke. He’s got a point about that, and there was the tape in your purse.”

“It’s not that strange a thing to carry.”

“But you’d question someone who had it, wouldn’t you?”

I just yawned. Sid sighed.

“What’s the matter?” I asked.

“Nothing much,” he said forlornly. “Just the usual. Last night, when you mentioned the possibly of your stripping and running naked, I naturally began thinking about it, and remembered that Tuesday was the last time I got any.”

“So go out tonight.”

Sid winced. “It’ll be a little awkward with your family around. I was thinking I could make it through the weekend, but…”

His voice trailed off as his gaze settled on a young woman jogging towards us on the other side of the road. She wasn’t wearing a bra. Sid’s eyes weren’t exactly going up and down, but you could tell what they were focused on.

“She’s doing horrible things to her chest,” I said.

Sid wrenched his eyes away. “I keep thinking what I’d like to be doing to it.”

“We could run to the lake and I could dump you in.”

“No thanks. I think I’ll just run some errands by myself this morning.”

“How are you going to do that at this time of day without buying it?”

Sid sighed. “That could be somewhat problematic. But don’t worry. I will not be patronizing any brothels or hookers.”

I shook my head. I didn’t doubt it.

We had just turned around when two more women, both rather plump and wearing pastel running suits turned the corner and jogged towards us.

“Oh my,” gasped one. “Sarah, look. It’s Lisa Wycherly. Hi, Lisa!”

I smiled, but inside I groaned. I wasn’t quite sure who they were, the two having gained some since high school. Sarah had to be Sarah Jefferson, and her partner looked a lot like Rhonda Stadtler. I wasn’t too thrilled to see either of them.

The girls I went to high school with tended to run to extremes. Either they went all the way with their boyfriends or they believed that you didn’t kiss a boy until you were engaged to him. Rhonda and Sarah were from the latter extreme. In fact, their big hobby had been planning different ways to avoid sleeping in the same bed as their husbands on their wedding nights. I noticed they both wore wedding bands.

It would have been rude not to stop, and I have to admit I didn’t mind that part of it.

“Hello, Lisa, it’s so good to see you,” crowed Sarah.

Rhonda was giving Sid the once over. Actually, so was Sarah, but there was something different about the way Rhonda ogled. She was almost hungry.

“Hi, you guys,” I said. “It’s nice to see you. Um, this is my boss, Sid. I’m sorry, I don’t know your married names.”

Rhonda smiled at Sid. “I’m Rhonda Jefferson, and this is Sarah Carter.”

“Nice to meet you,” said Sid, his gaze lingering on Rhonda.

Sarah didn’t notice. “You haven’t changed a bit, Lisa, except for that perm. It looks great. I wish I could say the same.” She giggled. “I put on so much weight with my last baby.”

Apparently, she’d resigned herself to sleeping with her husband somewhere along the line.

“How many do you have?” I asked politely.

“Five.” She giggled proudly.

“When did you get married?” I gasped.

“August after we graduated. You knew I was engaged to Fred Carter, didn’t you?”

“Oh, that’s right.” It had been the ideal engagement for Sarah. Fred had been in the army the whole time, and they had courted each other through the mail. “Is Fred out of the army?”

“Oh, yeah. We bought his parents motel, and Fred’s talking about expanding.”

“How nice.”

“You look like you’re doing really well.”

“Pretty good.”

Sarah giggled again. “I’ve heard all the rumors. Lynn Fremont, you know, she used to be Lynn Raines, met me in the supermarket the other day. Her husband works at that hotel, so she heard everything first hand. She said she couldn’t believe that you, of all people, would be involved like that.”

I sighed. Lynn was from the other extreme and had always put me down because I wasn’t.

I smiled weakly. “I guess I still get the last laugh. There’s nothing going on.”

Sarah glanced over at Sid, who was talking quietly with Rhonda.

“There isn’t?” She giggled.

“There isn’t.” The frost crept into my voice.

Motley whined.

“We’d better get going,” said Sid suddenly.

We said good-bye and resumed our run.

“What were you and Rhonda talking about?”

Sid chuckled. “I don’t think you want to know.”

“You don’t mean you and her..?”

“It was her idea, and it is pretty convenient.”

“You’re kidding. I mean, I saw her looking at you, but it just doesn’t make sense. Rhonda’s always been one of the most uptight prudes I’ve ever met.”

“She’s changed a lot since you knew her.”

“She’s married.”

“So she said, to Sarah’s brother, as a matter of fact.”

“Doesn’t that bother you?”

“That she’s married?” Sid shrugged. “You know I believe marriage is a lie, and if she agrees, why should it bother me?

“What about her husband?”

“According to Rhonda, he doesn’t care, and there was just enough bitterness in her tone to tell me he doesn’t. If my guess is right, he’s probably running around himself.”

“Possibly because he can’t get it at home.”

Sid laughed. “I stand warned. But I’m not worried.”

“Well, I hope he doesn’t catch you. You’ve already got one black eye.”

“That’s why I usually avoid married women. Violence is so messy.”

I glanced at Sid, suddenly very glad he had no interest in marriage. I could see the two of us trapped in a loveless union, taking lovers to get back at each other. Or I tried to see us that way. Somehow, I just couldn’t. [Probably because neither of us really wanted to be married at that point. The cold, hard truth about Rhonda was that she was raised to look to men for validation, and married the first man she could find to get away from her parents. Pete Jefferson had been fooling around on her almost from the start. Rhonda got into it shortly after when one of the managers at the store where she worked seduced her. It was technically sexual harassment, but he ended up making her feel so good, she kept it up and found other lovers, too – SEH]

When we got back to the house, Sid went straight for the shower. The kids were up and dressed and playing outside with Richmond and Murbles. Motley and I played with them for a while, then I wandered into the kitchen. Mama and Mae were also up and dressed and cutting up fruit for breakfast.

“Oh, you’re back,” said Mama. “How you doing this morning?”

“Fine.” I went over and kissed her cheek. “How are you?”

“Real good, honey,” she replied without her usual enthusiasm.

“And how are you, sister the elder?” I hugged Mae from behind. “Sleep okay?”

Mae yawned. “Uh-huh.”

I grabbed a chunk of cantaloupe and popped it in my mouth.

“Lisa Jane,” scolded Mama. “You keep your hands out of that bowl.”

“Yes, Mama.” I grabbed the last banana and peeled it part way down. Taking a bite, I flopped into a chair.

“Why don’t you get a knife and help us?” Mama asked.

“I’ve been helping all week. It’s Mae’s turn.”

“Young lady, that is so childish. Landsakes. Mae works hard all the time, feeding all those kids. You just have yourself to feed.”

“Which is a monumental task in itself,” said Sid, grinning. He’d come in while Mama was talking, wearing a suit and tie.

“All dressed up again, Sid?” Mama said with a disappointed sigh.

“I’m afraid I’ve got some business to attend to. I just came in to tell Lisa I’m through in the bathroom.”

“Well, you’re not leaving on an empty stomach. Here.” Mama dished fruit into a bowl. “I’ve got toast in the oven. I’ll get it.”

“Thanks.” Sid found the last spot at the table.

“Lisle, why don’t you hurry and get dressed so you don’t hold up Sid,” said Mama, laying a placemat in front of Sid.

“She’s not coming with me.” Sid spread his napkin on his lap while Mama put a plate of toast next to the bowl of fruit.

“She’s not?”

“Nope.” I finished my banana.

Mae snickered at Sid. “What are you up to?”

Sid grinned. “I’ll never tell.”

“Now you two stop it,” scolded Mama. “‘Tisn’t nice to talk like that. What if one of the kids heard you?”

“Mama, are you sure you’re okay?” I asked. “You seem a little snippy this morning.”

Mama glared. “Just never you mind about me. I’m fine.” She looked out the window, then strode over to the back door. “Darby! I told you to stay out of that wood pile.”

The screen door creaked and slammed as she went out, hollering at the kids.

“It’s the cops,” sighed Mae. “Daddy talked to Detective Frisch for a long time last night after that Lehrer guy left. I guess South Lake Tahoe P.D. didn’t know anything about any drugs connected to Murray’s death until Lehrer showed up with the warrant, so Daddy called Douglas County Sheriff’s this morning. They don’t know anything about any drug shipments, either. I overheard Mama hollering at Daddy about sticking his nose in where it doesn’t belong, and that he should let the DEA handle it.”

“They’re involved?” I asked casually, avoiding Sid’s eyes. “What’s going on?”

Mae shrugged. “I don’t know. Mama won’t say.”

The screen door creaked and slammed.

“Well, that’s enough of that,” grumbled Mama.

“Althea, I’m inclined to agree,” said Sid, wiping his mouth. “And so I really must be off.”

“Are you sure can’t take care of your business here?” Mama asked as Sid got up.

“I’m very sure.” Sid brought his dishes over to the sink.

“Well, Sid, you’re perfectly welcome to bring a guest here, if you like.”

“Mama, why don’t you just let him go?” I said quickly before Sid could reply.

“I’ll be back by lunch.” Sid grinned and left.

“He’s sure starting early,” Mae whispered to me.

“He figures it’ll be too awkward to go out tonight,” I whispered back.

“But how’s he going to pick up somebody at this hour of the day?”

“He’s got it all arranged.” I sighed. “I’m glad he’s going, frankly. He’s a terrible grouch when he gets horny, and it’s been a while.”

Mae snickered. “That’s not what I’ve been hearing.”

“He hasn’t been out since Tuesday, and for him, that’s a while.”

Mae giggled.

“What are you two whispering about?”

“Nothing, Mama,” said Mae. “‘Tisn’t nice.”

“Well, I’m going to get dressed,” I announced, grabbing another piece of cantaloupe and getting a piece of toast from the oven. “Save me some breakfast, will you?”

I showered and changed in record time into jeans and a shirt. I pulled my Shetland wool sweater on as I headed for the kitchen. I paused outside the door, pulling my collar out.

“I know what you mean about them,” Mama was saying on the other side.

“But you’re not going to get them to admit it,” said Mae. “Even to themselves.”

“Well, the way things stand right now, I think it’s just as well.”

[Were they talking about us, by any chance? – SEH]

I pushed open the door. “What’s just as well?”

They both colored up and looked at each other with guilty starts.

“Nothing,” said Mae, too quickly.

[I guess they were. It’s interesting how they picked up on our feelings for each other so early. Too bad we hadn’t – SEH]

I was puzzled but decided not to pursue it.

“Where’s the food?” I asked instead.

“I’m sorry, Lisle,” groaned Mama. “They went and ate up everything before I could save you some.”

“You probably wouldn’t have saved enough anyway.” I grinned. “Besides, I happen to know there’s something in the cupboard that I like and now that the boss is safely occupied elsewhere…”

I all but danced to the cupboard and opened it.

Mae groaned. “Lisa, I hope that’s not what I think that is.”

“Oh, yes it is, Mae.” I hugged the fuschia colored box. “Lucky Charms in all its sugar-coated glory. Fortified with artificial preservatives and colors.”

I grabbed a medium-sized mixing bowl out of the other cupboard, a soup spoon, and the milk. I put the bowl at my spot at the table and emptied the box into the bowl.

“Are you going to eat all that?” asked Mae, utterly disgusted.

“You bet I am.” I picked a coupon and a plastic wrapped toy out of the cereal and poured on the milk. “And I am going to enjoy every bite, without lectures on what it’s doing to my insides. You wouldn’t believe what a time Mama and I had getting this past Sid. Frankly, Mama, I think Sid went to the grocery store with us just to keep an eye on me. He’s such a control freak.”

“He’s just looking out for your own well-being,” said Mae.

“Mae, shut up.” I shoveled it in.

“Lisa Jane, you don’t talk to your sister like that,” said Mama. “She’s just concerned.”

“I know. But there’s nothing to be concerned about. Really.” I went back to my cereal.

I didn’t see it, but I could tell Mama and Mae were shaking their heads. There wasn’t anything I could do about it, so I went on eating my cereal.

When I finished, I washed my bowl and put it away and wandered back towards my room. I was in the front entry when the phone rang. Mama got it, then hollered for Daddy.

“In the living room,” he hollered back.

“It’s that DEA guy again,” called Mama.

“I’ll take it in the bedroom.”

My parents’ bedroom is right next to mine, and mine was bugged. I beat it out of the hall and to my room, where I turned on the radio and tuned it to a rock and roll station. Then I slid into the hallway to the closed door to my parents’ bedroom. I had no idea why Daddy was talking to someone from the Drug Enforcement Agency, but I was going to find out.

“Aunt Lisa!” Janey hissed. She tugged on my arm. “This way.”


I glanced at the door, then took a chance and followed her back to the hall phone. Mama and Mae had the extension off the hook and their ears pressed to the receiver. Mama quickly put a finger to her lips. I shoved my way in, dislodging Mae, who glared at me furiously. I didn’t care. She didn’t have priority need to know, and I did, even if I couldn’t tell her that.

“Douglas County said they didn’t know squat about it,” said Daddy’s voice. “It just seems kind of fishy to me, and Lehrer was awful anxious about finding it.”

“You think he knows something?” asked the DEA guy. His voice sounded familiar but I couldn’t place it.

Mae squeezed in. I held my ground and put my finger in my free ear.

“He’d almost have to,” said Daddy. “Neither of us said a word about the stuff from the store, even with Murray dead, and Lehrer was very clear. There were two missing shipments.”

“If we could just figure out where the one Riordan had went to.”

“Lehrer sure as hell doesn’t know, and he wants to, bad.”

“And he’s looking for a second shipment. The question is, did it come in before or after Murray died?”

“Well, the police say he died Friday night.”

“Hm.” The DEA guy thought for a moment. “Do you know if you got anything from Sunland on Friday?”

“I don’t think so. But they ain’t sending it through the stock. We got the winter order in this past Tuesday and there wasn’t anything there that shouldn’t have been, or anything missing, either.”

“Who unpacked it?”

“My daughter and that boss of hers. She would have said something if she found it.”

“I agree, but there’s her boss. He was humping Riordan when the stuff she had disappeared.”

“I don’t think he’s messing with drugs. He’s too busy chasing tail.”

“I’ve heard he’s got money. You know where it comes from?”

“Well now, they’ve never said.” Daddy mused. “Nah. Lisa’s been with him for a year. She’d have noticed by now if he was up to something funny.”

“What if he’s got some kind of hold on her. Is she scared of him at all?”

Daddy snorted. “I sure wish she were. Look, the stuff’s got to be coming in through some kind of courier. We’ve been over and over that stock thing, and there’s no way Murray could have kept finding it faster than we could, not without radar.”

[Or a good dog – SEH]

“All I know is that Riordan told me she was to deliver a back order to the store. It’s possible it was a code to someone else in the store, maybe that Martin kid.”

“I’m inclined to think not. I think she knows something about what’s going on, but she just ain’t that bright.”

“Well, Bill, I don’t know what to tell you. I guess we’ll have to try checking out Lehrer. Tell you what. He’s on duty tonight. We’ll go over to his place after he’s on and check it out.”

“Ain’t that illegal?”

“There’s ways around it. That’s why I need you there.”

Daddy cleared his throat. “If I’m under oath, I’m going to say what really happened.”

The DEA guy laughed. “I just need you to set Lehrer up. It’s not going to blow the court case, and you probably won’t have to testify, let alone perjure yourself. Even then, chances are, we’ll get him to name names, and plea bargain it. Let’s see. Lehrer’s night shift. I think those guys have roll call at eleven. Why don’t you meet me at the store at eleven thirty and we’ll go over from there.”

“Eleven thirty, alright. I’ll meet you in the back.”

“Hey, with luck, Lehrer’ll be able to tell us who killed Murray, and maybe even Riordan. Talk to you later.”

They hung up. Mama all but slammed the phone down and pressed her lips together.

“I don’t like it,” she hissed, hurrying into the kitchen. “I just don’t like it.”

“What’s Daddy been doing with the DEA?” I demanded, right on her heels.

“And what did you think you were doing pushing me out?” snapped Mae, grabbing my shoulder and spinning me around.

“I needed to hear,” I said.

“I was there first.”

“Well, nobody’s trying to pin a bum drug rap on you.”

“Everyone knows that’s just hot air. You were just being selfish again.”

“Girls!” snapped Mama. “Landsakes, you’re both grown women. It’s about time you stopped bickering with each other.”

“Mama, I was there first and she pushed me off,” groaned Mae.

“What’s Daddy doing with the DEA?” I pressed. “Come on, Mama. I need to know.”

Mama sank down into a chair and leaned against the table with her head in her hand.

“Somebody’s been smuggling drugs through your daddy’s store,” she said softly. “We don’t know who. The only reason they think it’s Murray is ’cause he got killed. The fellow from the DEA said it’s through Sunland Products, and that’s why it’s Daddy’s store. It’s the closest place to the state line that carries sporting goods, and it carries Sunland year-round.”

I sat down next to her. “How long has this been going on?”

“Don’t know about the smuggling. Daddy and the guy from the DEA have been talking for about a month now.” Mama shook her head. “I’m just so afraid he’s going to get his neck in too deep.”

So was I, knowing that espionage was involved, too.

“Oh, Mama,” said Mae, sitting down on her other side. “Daddy’s not stupid, and he knows how to handle himself. He’ll be fine.”

Daddy walked in. “Lisle, what are you doing in here? I thought you were in your room. And why are you playing that damn radio so loud?”

“I just had it on.” I shrugged with a guilty smile. “And then, well…”

Daddy’s eyes narrowed. “You girls were listening in. Don’t think I didn’t know.”

“Well, Bill, I think we needed to.” Mama got up, spitting mad. “With that DEA guy and his midnight meetings. You’re going to get yourself killed if you’re not careful. These drug dealers don’t play nice. Landsakes, you read in the papers every darned day about one of them fellows getting themselves murdered, or what have you.”

“I know what I’m doing, Althea.”

“Oh, you do. Since when did you join the DEA?”

“If the man needs help and I can do it, it’s the least I can do. He won’t let me do anything dangerous anyway.” Daddy sighed and held Mama. “Honey, I’m going to be careful and stay out of the way. I know my limitations.”

“Oh, Bill, I just don’t want to see you hurt.” She looked up at him. “I know you can handle yourself, but you be careful now.”

Daddy gave her a squeeze and released her. “Well, it’s getting on for time. Where’s Neil? We need to fire up the barbecue.”

There were steaks and chicken, grilled, and Mama’s special potato salad and green salad, and potatoes roasted in the coals, and vegetable kebobs. The only thing missing was the corn on the cob, but it was too late in the year for that. Sid showed up just in time to change into jeans and sweater and eat. I did manage to signal him that we needed to talk as soon as possible and slipped off into the woods the minute I was done eating. Sid found me in a nearby clearing some minutes later.

“Well?” he asked.

I told him about the phone call. He was, as I expected, thrilled.

“Jesus,” he swore.


He rolled his eyes. “I’m sorry. But this is one complication we can’t afford.”

“No kidding.” I picked up a twig and started peeling its bark off.

“We’ll have to work around it. The first priority will be to dismantle those bugs.”

“There’s always the radio. I think mine is still on.”

“Someone’s bound to turn it off at just the wrong moment.” He shook his head. “We’ll find a way. We just have to think about it. I did get a good look at the one in my room last night. It’s more Company equipment.”

“It is?” I frowned. “At least, we know who got the stolen equipment.”

Sid nodded.

“Now what?” I asked.

“Another excellent question.”

“So we’re stuck.”

“For the moment.” He smiled at me. “I hear you’ve got sugar on your breath.”

“Mae ratted on me, didn’t she?” I viciously tossed away a piece of bark.


“Well, I don’t want to hear any more about it. For once, will you just leave me alone?”

“What’s the matter, Lisa?” His gentle eyes gazed at me.

“It’s my dad.” Trying not to cry, I turned away. “He doesn’t know what he’s getting into, with the spy stuff and all. And I can’t tell him. And I couldn’t tell Mae why I had to hog the phone this morning. And she’s been on my case about being withdrawn. She’s really worried about it. Okay, I never was that open, but I could at least say things if I wanted to. Now, it’s like there’s a barrier between me and my family and it hurts. You know, I really like this business most of the time. But there are days when I wonder if it’s worth the sacrifices.”

“Sometimes I wonder, too.”

“Yeah, but it’s easier for you, Sid. You don’t have a family. You keep telling me you prefer being a loner.”

“True. But I have my moments. Frankly, Lisa, I envy you. If something happens to you, there are people who will notice you’ve gone. Me, I’ll fade away and no one will know the difference.”

“Sid, that’s not true.”

He smiled. “Well, not anymore. I’m very grateful for your friendship, and for the way your sister’s family adopted me. But in the circle of people I generally move in, one only exists for the moment you’re there. And I don’t want you feeling sorry for me. I like it that way. However, it has its drawbacks, just like having a family does. I do understand how you feel, Lisa. The business is a barrier, but a necessary one, and if you don’t make the sacrifice, who will?”

“That’s sort of what Father John keeps telling me. I’m in this situation because I can handle it better than anyone else. It just gets hard sometimes.”

“Well, I’m here, and we have no excuse for a barrier.”

I smiled softly. “No, we don’t.”

“By the way, I ran a couple errands while I was out.”

“Either they were real quick ones, or Rhonda was.”

Sid chuckled. “Somewhere in between.” He sighed and shook his head. “Actually, she’s involved in one sordid mess.”

I went back to picking at my stick. “That’s too bad.”

“What is it about her that has you so bugged?”

“I wonder what could have happened to make her change so drastically, and I wonder if it could happen to me.” I looked at him nervously. “It seems sometimes like I’ve got the perfect opportunity.”

Sid smiled and shook his head. “If by that, you mean giving in to me, then no. Rhonda’s problem has a lot more to do with an insensitive husband who made a promise he wasn’t about to keep. I keep my promises, and I do my damnedest to be sensitive.”

“And you’re very successful. Still…”

“Lisa, it won’t happen to you. You’re much too strong. I can’t think of anything that could happen to you that you couldn’t rise above. You and Rhonda have very little in common that way.”


“Anyway, regarding those two errands. The first was a brief meeting with Tom Collins to see if he could confirm if our bugs were the stolen ones.”


“Assuming I described them accurately, they’re pretty standard equipment.”

“Oh, goody. A generic listening device.”

Motley chose that moment to come trotting into the clearing. He barked once, then whined softly as I bent to pet him. I suddenly smiled.

“Sid, why don’t we let Motley find those bugs for us?”

“What do you mean?”

“Well, last night, when I was looking for them with the bug finder, Motley found them before I did. I pretended not to notice. But we could set it up to look like we finally did.”

“Hm. That’s a possible, but it might be a little tricky.” He smiled down at Motley. “It would appear the mutt has his uses. Which brings me to my second errand. You may not have heard, but I found out that Murray’s ex is in town with the children for the funeral tomorrow. Anyway, I sought her out, told her we had the dog, and she made it quite clear that the last thing she wanted was another dog around.” He pulled a folded paper from his shirt pocket. “Anyway, here are Motley’s papers. I do believe you have to sign and mail them in.”

“Oh, Sid, thank you. How much do I owe you?”

“You don’t.”


“I didn’t have to pay for him. The former Mrs. Waters decided that between the hassle of paying for an ad and getting a vet to look at him, she was better off giving him away. It’s hard enough to sell puppies. A year-old dog is almost impossible.”

“But you don’t want a dog.”

“Don’t you?”

“Yes, but I thought I was going to have to twist your arm or something.”

He shrugged. “I thought I’d save you the trouble. He’s all yours, Lisa. I’ve even called the fencing people to put in a kennel for him.”

“Oh, Sid, that’s wonderful. Thank you!”

I flung my arms around him and squeezed. He squeezed back.

“I’m so glad I’ve got you, Sid,” I whispered.

“I’m so glad I’ve got you, Lisa.”

We pulled apart. Gently, he laid his hand on my cheek. We gazed into each other’s eyes for a minute, then softly, so softly, he laid a kiss on my lips.

Motley’s barking brought us back down to earth. We could hear the children calling him, and he bounded off back to the house. Sid and I followed separately.

After lunch was cleaned up, the kids talked Sid into playing the piano for them. Darby had his guitar and played along, keeping up pretty well for someone who had only been playing since January.

“We’re getting an orchestra together at school this year,” he told Sid during a tuning break. “Only I won’t get to be in it unless I learn to play something else. Mrs. Gomez says she already has a pianist and that she needs someone who’s been playing a lot longer than I have. She thinks I ought to try violin.”

Sid chuckled. “Boy, do I know how that feels. Almost the exact same thing happened to me when I started high school. Fortunately, my piano skills were already advanced by that point.”

Darby shrugged. “I don’t know. Violin sounds kind of neat, really. I just don’t want to be called a sissy.”

“That can be rough,” said Sid. “But you know, the only real sissies are the ones who have to call others sissies.”

Darby looked over at his grandfather. “What do you think, Grandpa?”

I knew why he asked. Darby and my father have kind of a strange relationship. Daddy was really ecstatic when he found he had a grandson. Even though I’d played substitute son for him, I was still his daughter, and after two of them, Daddy was looking forward to a real he-man to he-man relationship. Only Darby turned out to be anything but interested. Daddy was disappointed but equally determined that Darby should be what he is. Darby is onto him and makes a point of being a he-man whenever he can.

“Well, now…” Daddy struggled. “Darby, I’ve always said you’ve got to follow your heart. If you want to play violin, then you play violin. Sid’s right, and I think it takes a damned sight more guts to do something you want even though you might get called names than it does to do the name calling.”

Darby didn’t get a chance to answer. One of the twins started screaming from the back of the house.

“What now?” sighed Mae as the other twin joined in. Ellen wandered in. “Ellen, why are your brothers upset?”

She shrugged. “Janey’s being mean to them. Motley found something neat in Uncle Sid’s room and she took it away.”

I glanced over at Sid.

He turned around on the piano bench. “What did they find, Ellen?”

She shrugged again. “Motley found another one in Aunt Lisa’s room.”

“Another what?” asked Mae.

Ellen shrugged. “It’s neat.”

“Janey!” called Neil. “Martin, Mitchell!”

“Daddy,” bellowed Janey as she pushed her little brothers into the living room. “I told them to leave the things alone.”

“What did they find, Janey?” asked Sid.

She held out her hand to display the two small round micro-transmitters. Neil picked them up.

“What the heck are these?” he asked. He looked at Janey. “Ellen said one was in Uncle Sid’s room and the other was in Aunt Lisa’s.”

Janey nodded. “Yes.”

Neil looked the bugs over closely. “I wonder if these are listening devices. Look at this wire mesh here.”

“Are you sure one was in my room?” I said, letting my voice shake. Janey nodded. “Oh Lord, somebody’s been listening to me?”

Neil started to show the bugs to Mae, but Daddy snatched them.

“If they are, I know who put them there,” he growled, looking the bugs over himself. “I’ve got a phone call to make.”

“What if they’re broadcasting, Daddy?” I asked, letting my voice go panicky.

Daddy stopped and looked at me. “You got a point.”

“Is there an off switch?” I asked. I knew it was a dumb question, which is precisely why I asked.

“I wonder if I have that magnifying glass in the car,” muttered Neil.

“Not the science kit,” groaned Darby. Janey and Ellen looked at each other guiltily.

Neil’s attempts to get the kids hooked on science are the family joke. The kids like science, especially Ellen. It’s just that Neil thinks he is taking good advantage of serendipitous occasions, and the kids think he’s a total bore. To be honest, Neil’s lectures are a little on the dry side. [Dry doesn’t begin to describe them. Sawdust has more flavor – SEH]

Neil sent Janey after the magnifying glass, which meant he knew darned well she and Ellen had hidden the science kit again. Meanwhile, I went to my room and checked my bug finder. Those adorable little brats had done their work well. Nothing was transmitting.

I went back to the living room. Neil had the eyeglass kit out, with the tiny screwdriver and pliers. Janey brought in the magnifying glass and everyone except the kids and me converged on the coffee table. Sid looked up and saw me standing in the doorway. Surreptitiously, I made a slicing motion across my neck. He nodded and slipped out of the pack.

We went back to his room.

“It’s a pity we can’t hire those kids to do our work for us more often,” he said, shutting the door.

I stood next to it, listening for anyone coming.

“No kidding. Does this mean we go check out Lehrer tonight?”

“With your father and his friend from the DEA out to do the same? You’d better believe it. We’ll just run a basic search and switch. I’ll call Tom Collins and see if he can get us some less sensitive evidence.”

“Maybe we ought to check out Donny Severn’s place, too.”

“Why? He couldn’t have killed Murray. He was in Reno, remember?”

“Oh yeah.” I felt deflated, then… “Sid, didn’t Officer Burke say Stripkin said Donny was with him at the critical time?”

“That’s why Donny’s out of the running for Murray’s murder.”

“Except that Alice called Donny’s friend Mike Friday night, and Mike said Donny wasn’t there, that he was staying there but was out all the time.”

Sid sat down on the bed and mused. “And that was before we said word one about Murray, which gives her even less reason to be lying about it.” He looked at me. “Donny was supposedly in Reno since the previous Wednesday.”

“Which was when Lehrer took Donny with him to do a job for him.”

Sid snorted. “The problem is, with the gun that killed Della turning up the way it did, there’s no way of proving that Donny did it.”

“Unless that room service waiter identifies him.”

Sid shook his head. “We have to get Donny arrested first. Actually, we need to get Lehrer arrested.”

“Too bad we can’t do it.”

“Technically, we can.” Sid got up and paced.

“A citizen’s arrest, but anyone can do that.”

“No. We have the authority to make a regular arrest for any crime under FBI jurisdiction. We just don’t use it because it would blow our cover.” He stopped pacing and gazed at the closet without seeing it. “Now, are you sure this DEA character plans to bust Lehrer tonight?”

“He said he needed Daddy to set Lehrer up, and the plan is to meet tonight.”

An almost evil grin spread across Sid’s face. “How about if we help the set up along?”


“I still have Della’s cocaine in the trunk of my car, and I seem to remember suggesting some drug charges might help things along.”

“But don’t we want him busted for espionage?”

“Yeah.” Sid went back to pacing. “That would be preferable since they won’t set him free quite as easily. But at the moment, I’ll take any charges I can get. Did I give you the code nine phone number?”

“Yeah.” Calling in a code nine brought out the nearest FBI agents who would make any arrests we needed made.

“Good. I’ll put them on alert. With the DEA hanging around, it could get sticky if they butt heads. Now for the rest of the details.”

It wasn’t easy. We had to pull together all our equipment without anyone seeing us. We had to formulate a good excuse for being out that night without everyone else. I had to get Mama and Daddy to let me drive the jeep since Sid’s car was a little too recognizable.

Sid got the stuff in from his car just as soon as it got dark, by hiding it under his ski jacket. It was also right on top of dinner, which is why there was no one around to see. I helped with the cleanup, then Mama sent me to get ready to go with Sid to a local nightclub that he was going to review for his article, which he also wanted my opinion on. Mae tagged along.

“Why aren’t you staying here?” she asked softly. “You know Daddy has that meeting tonight.”

“I know.” I glanced at her bedroom, where Sid was checking over the guns and lockpicks and masks and gloves. “But, um, Sid didn’t know anything about it when he set up the interview at the nightclub, and you know how Mama is. This past Wednesday, Sid told me to take off and she was really mad that I went riding instead of sticking around to help him. She doesn’t need to worry about me losing my job on top of Daddy playing cops and robbers.”

“I suppose. What are you going to wear?”

I squirmed. “Mae, I’d really rather get dressed by myself. Okay?”

Mae gave me the kind of look that said it wasn’t but left me alone. I dressed quickly in a light pink handkerchief linen shirt I’d pressed and starched that afternoon, and my black break in pants. They were still pretty new, and the fabric hadn’t faded yet, so they looked casual but nice. I also put on my armored running shoes. They were black, so I still looked a little dressed up. I pinned my hair up, then folded up the collar on my shirt to look stylish. I picked up a gray herringbone twill bomber jacket and with a deep breath, left the room.

I made sure the hall was empty and slid into Sid’s room. He looked up from the bed where he was loading one of the S and W model thirteen three fifty-seven revolvers.

“You look good,” he said.

He was wearing a white dress shirt, his shoulder holster and revolver, tight, dark jeans and his armored running shoes. A tweed sports jacket sat next to him on the bed.


Sid rolled the clip, then clicked it in place and handed the gun and its holster to me. I slid it on. Sid slid into his sports coat.

“I’m almost tempted to put the model thirteen in my purse,” I said, wriggling the holster around to where it was almost comfortable.

I pulled up the right leg of my pants and strapped on my twenty-two automatic.

Sid shrugged. “Anyplace you’ll be carrying your purse, you won’t be able to use it. You can’t carry that monster with you on the break in, and I don’t want to leave it out in an open car. We can’t afford to lose it.” He looked at me as I slid into my bomber jacket. “That’s different. Where did you get it?”

“International Fabrics on Beverly.” I zipped up the front just high enough so I could get at the gun and still keep it hidden.

“It looks nice.” Sid tried not to sigh.

He knows one of the reasons I sew most of my own clothes is because I’m basically cheap, which bothers him. It’s not like he’s underpaying me, and there’s also my salary from Quickline. He can’t understand why I won’t spend one penny more than I have to. Neither can I, really. I’ve always been that way. [On the other hand, you do very good work, and I concede the therapeutic benefits are considerable – SEH]

I finished distributing lockpicks, miniature flashlights, glass cutters, wire cutters, screwdrivers, duct tape (a fresh roll I’d filched from the barn), and the box of cocaine among the many pockets in my pants.

“Are we ready?” Sid asked.

I took a deep breath. “Yeah.”

We announced our departure and left quickly before anyone decided they wanted a hug. I’d seen to putting our ski jackets in the jeep earlier. I looked at Sid, then started the engine.

Not that we were really on our way yet. It was only eight o’clock, and we couldn’t go near Lehrer’s place until eleven. We did stop by a bar up the road in Stateline, just to back up what we’d told my family, and decided pretty quickly it didn’t have anything to offer. We went back to the big casinos next to the state line, itself.

I made the pickup in the Keno Lounge. Tom Collins hid the microdots in a cocktail napkin which I slid into my pants. Then Sid and I hit the blackjack tables.

“I hope we have better luck tonight,” he muttered as he busted again, and with twenty-two.

I crossed myself. I was doing okay, pretty much staying just a little bit ahead. I hit a blackjack the next hand.

By ten thirty, Sid was ahead fifty bucks, which wasn’t much when you consider he’d been playing with twenty-five dollar chips. I was ahead twenty dollars, which was pretty darned good since I only bet the two dollar minimum. We cashed in and took off.

Lehrer’s cabin was in Tahoe Village, off by itself at the end of a longish street. We drove by, then I parked the jeep in a real estate office’s parking lot, behind some trees at the bottom of the hill. Sid and I slid out of our jackets and into our ski jackets and walked up the hill to Lehrer’s place.

The cabin was dark, without even an outside light. In the trees next to the place, Sid and I put on our gloves and masks. We slipped onto the deck and over to the front door.

It was ajar. I glanced at Sid. He already had his revolver out. I drew mine. He backed up against the open side of the doorway. I backed up against the door side. We could hear nothing inside.

Sid nodded. I pushed the door open a little further. Sid slid in and braced. I rolled around and went in. The cabin was dark. Braced and ready, we waited. The only sound was the whisper of the wind in the trees outside.

Sid glanced at me, then shut the door. I holstered my gun and got out the flashlights. In the tiny circles of light they produced, we could see that someone had gotten in first and started trashing the place. Several cushions from a Herculon couch were scattered over the floor, and about two desk drawers had been emptied. But the rest of the room was intact.

I checked the kitchen. It was fine. A stairway led to a loft over the kitchen and living room. Sid was going through the desk. I went up the stairs.

A dark, wiry form leaped out at me. I dropped the flashlight and tried to dodge, but the stairs were too narrow. I stepped back, my foot hit air then slammed onto the next step. I was twisting to the side at the time, so I didn’t go down. The form did.

Sid was waiting for him at the bottom, but the young man was quick and bounced up. He jumped at Sid, who dodged. The man clasped his hands and swung.

I was still trying to get my balance and over-corrected myself right into the banister. My side ached with the impact, but I didn’t have time to worry about it because I was going over. I caught the railing just in time, then dropped safely to the ground.

Sid took a punch to the stomach, then landed two good ones in the young man’s jaw. It didn’t faze him. He came back, swinging wildly. Sid ducked, then worked in close and got the man in the stomach. I charged, and Sid and I caught the young man in a squeeze play. He struggled and almost broke loose.

We had a heck of a time wrestling him to the ground. I fumbled for the duct tape and tossed it to Sid, who had his knee in the young man’s back. I got one arm. Sid got the other, and between the two of us, we forced them together. There was a ripping sound as Sid whipped the duct tape around the young man’s wrists. I had to sit on his legs while Sid wrapped his ankles. I taped the mouth, while Sid found the flashlight I’d dropped.

He rolled the young man over and shone the flashlight in his eyes. Sid nodded at me and rolled the young man back onto his stomach. I took the flashlight, and as I did, I realized that the young man was wearing a blue and black flannel shirt, and near the bottom, a piece had been torn off.

Sid pulled me over to the desk.

“That’s Donny Severn,” Sid whispered.

“What’s he doing here?”

We looked over the cushions and empty drawers.

“Looking for something,” said Sid.

“Remember that scrap I found in my clearing?” I asked.


“He’s wearing the same fabric shirt and there’s a piece missing.”

“Hm.” Sid glanced over at Donny. “We’d better hustle. Your dad and the DEA will be here any minute.”

I hurried up the stairs. I found a couple hidey holes in the wall next to the bed, and after a quick search brought the contents down to Sid. There were about three microdots and a three by five looseleaf notebook, and a heavy metal briefcase. I opened the briefcase and found a black box with dials on it and strapped to the case’s lid, a disk.

“The transponder, I think,” I whispered.

“I guess,” Sid whispered back. “Let’s take it anyway.”

I showed him the notebook

“Records,” he hissed, pulling a small camera from the pocket of his ski jacket. “You hide the box next to the cushions on the sofa, while I get this.”

I set the box on the bottom of the sofa where the seat cushions should have been, then exchanged the microdots with three of the ones we’d gotten earlier. Sid snapped photos of the loose leaf notebook. I thought I heard a twig snap. I slipped to the front of the cabin and looked out a window. My father’s large form slid onto the deck, next to another, equally tall, but slighter fellow.

I tagged Sid’s arm as he took the last photo, and, grabbing the briefcase, we ran up the stairs. A second later, the front door opened and the lights went on. We dove for the floor.

“Hell,” cursed the DEA guy.

“What happened?” grumbled Daddy.

“Somebody was looking for something.”

With the lights on, Sid and I didn’t dare look. We just hugged the floor as close to the edge of the loft as we could get.

The DEA guy cursed.

“That’s Donny Severn,” said Daddy. “What the hell’s he doing here?”

“Leave him,” ordered the DEA guy.


“Obviously, another agency wants him. Look at this. Lehrer wouldn’t leave a shipment out where anyone could find…”

“What you looking at there?”

“This box. It’s the one Riordan was bringing up. She marked it. See, here’s the serial number she put on it.”

“I don’t get it.”

“She was supposed to drop it off at the store Thursday night or Friday morning after making contact with me, so I could tail whoever it went to. I had her mark the box to make it easier to trace.”

Daddy cleared his throat. “Then how, pray tell, did it get here?”

“Della’s room was searched. I checked that out Friday night. Damn it. There’s counter-espionage people involved in this somehow.”

“In drugs? How can you be so sure about that?”

“The tape. Lehrer didn’t wrap Donny up like that. He’d use handcuffs. They’re harder to get out of, and Lehrer has a legitimate reason for carrying them. Most undercover operatives can’t get away with cuffs, but a roll of tape isn’t going to raise too many questions.”

“Huh.” Daddy mulled that over. “So that’s what Lehrer was talking about.”


“Last night, when he was putting in those bugs. He found a roll of strapping tape in my daughter’s purse and asked if she knew what it was for.”

“You mean Lisa?”

“Yes.” Daddy’s voice cooled considerably.

“That’s… Yes.” I could all but see the wheels turning in that guy’s head. “It’s about the only thing that really makes sense.”

“What are you getting on about?”

“The tape in your daughter’s purse.” He laughed. “Bill, I think you’ve got a spy right under your nose.”

“What? Lisa?” It was Daddy’s turn to laugh. “You’re talking nonsense. The girl couldn’t even look at the body bag when they brought Murray out.”

I felt Sid shaking with laughter, and jabbed him with my elbow.

“Trust me,” Daddy continued. “She ain’t got the nerve. The girl’s a mouse. Her boss, maybe, but nah. She’d have noticed.”

“He’s got his hands up too many skirts, anyway. Playing James Bond is a good way to get killed.”

I shook and got jabbed.

“So what now?” Daddy asked.

“We make tracks. They’re obviously busting Lehrer tonight. Damn, I wanted his butt. Wait. I think we’ll still get it. Here’s what I want you to do. We’ll go down to the Sheriff’s station. You tell Lehrer you want to talk to him someplace quiet, and you want to do it tonight. Above all, you let him set up where it’s going to be. I’ll let you come with me to the meeting, but only to draw him out. I’ll draw the attack. Come on.”

A second later, they were gone. Sid and I got up. I headed down the stairs. Sid grabbed the briefcase and caught me at the bottom.

“Where are you going?” he hissed.

I wrenched my arm free. “After them.”

Sid signaled me to wait, gave me the briefcase, then picked up the phone and dialed.

“Code nine,” he hissed, and gave the address, and hung up. “Alright. We’re done here.”

He waited until I had dumped the transponder in the back of the jeep and got it going before saying anything.

“What the hell do you think you’re doing?” he demanded.

“Saving my dad’s butt.”

“Get a grip on yourself, woman. We can’t do a damned thing. If he sees either one of us, we’re blown.”

I thought. “Not necessarily. They’re going to my spot. I’ll just say you and I got in a fight and I was upset. I’ll put the model thirteen in my jacket pocket. It should fit, and I’ll be able to ditch it if I have to.”

“Why don’t we just let the DEA handle it?”

“Because it’s my father!” I yelped.

“You don’t even know if that’s where they’re headed.”

“It is.” I glanced over at him. “That piece of shirt. Motley knew it. Murray was the one who showed me that place. I’ll bet anything, he had Lehrer meeting him up there, and that’s where Donny got roughed up, and alright, I’m guessing, but I’d say it’s pretty safe that it was Lehrer roughing him up one way or other, possibly over Murray’s death.”

Sid sighed and leaned back in the seat. “Alright. It makes sense. And we haven’t got anything else.”

We parked off the road at the foot of the drop. The jeep blended in with the lighter colored rock, although it was screened from the road by pines. As we put on our other jackets, Sid kept watch.

It was cold. I shivered and folded my arms across myself. Down on the road, an engine thrummed and a set of high beams whitened the sky above the trees. Sid and I sat up, waiting. The car didn’t stop.

Another car, coming from Nevada, went by. In the still following its wake, Sid gazed up at the sky.

“Look at all those stars,” he whispered. “When I was a kid, I used to think that was where the other side was.”

“What other side?”


“You believe in life after death?”

He shrugged. “The first law of thermodynamics. Energy is neither created nor destroyed. There’s been some interesting stuff coming out on out of body experiences. On the other hand, who knows for sure?”

Behind us, a small rock tumbled. We both swung around, Sid’s hand reaching inside his jacket, mine for my jacket pocket. Another car hummed its way down the road from Nevada and kept on going.


“He’s not coming,” said Sid, after we’d been sitting about ten minutes.

“Lehrer or Godot?” I asked.

Sid chuckled. Something rustled ahead. Sid tensed.

“I thought the mountains were supposed to be quiet,” he grumbled.

“That doesn’t mean silent.”

The bushes ahead rustled again. I caught a bouncing flash of white and sat back.

“What do you think that was?” Sid asked.

“A deer. Must be pretty confused to be this far down. It happens.”

Sid pondered the skies again. I shivered.

“It’s so clear,” he said.

“No clouds. That’s why it’s so cold.” I shivered again and pulled my jacket tighter around me.

Below us, a car slowed. Its lights went out as its tires crackled against the rocks and dirt next to the pavement. The sedan parked next to the trail leading to the clearing. Starlight glinted off the light bar on top.

“You win your bet,” hissed Sid.

He was already out of the jeep. I jumped out after him and tagged his arm.

“This way.” I nodded at the other side of the rock.

We heard the sedan’s door open and close. Sid put his finger to his lips. I nodded. He took the lead, keeping me close enough to direct him and showing me how to get through the brush without making too much noise. I felt a little miffed. After all, I was on my home turf and he wasn’t. [But you had never walked night patrols in a Vietnamese jungle, and I had – SEH]  However, with Lehrer out there somewhere, there was no way I could argue.

The clearing was empty when we got to the edge. Sid’s lips brushed against my ear. Thinking it was one stupid time to get romantic, I tried brushing him away.

“I’m going to the other side,” he whispered so softly I could barely make out the words. “You watch from here.”

Shaking, I put my hand on my model thirteen. Sid disappeared into the shadows. I waited for what seemed like an eternity. The clearing remained empty.

The brush to my right erupted in crackling and rustling, and I heard an “ooph.” It was a fight, and someone had connected. Fearing the worst, I drew my gun and ran for the noise.

I saw the barrel flash almost before I heard the crack of the shot. Bark from the tree next to me exploded in a shower of slivers. I dove to the ground, aiming for the flash point, but before I could squeeze off my shot, the other gun flared three more times, with the shots getting closer and closer. I rolled, then lay still.

Wheezing, the stout heavy form crashed through the brush. I tried to get a fix on the shadow, but the next thing I knew, a rubber soled foot came down on my right hand. I swallowed the yell, then swallowed another as Lehrer fell on top of me.

I wriggled around, trying to get a grip on him. I caught polyester double knit and little else. I hung on and pulled myself along it. White light blinded me. Lehrer’s hand clamped onto my sore right wrist. I gasped as he yanked me up.

“Well, what do you know?” he sneered. “I come up here trolling for Bill Wycherly, and what do I get in the net instead, but his kid.”

I cried and struggled, but Lehrer’s grip was like iron, and the flashlight felt like iron as it clipped my head. I sank to my knees. Laughing, Lehrer jammed the light under his arm and roughly cuffed my hands behind me.

“Don’t hurt me,” I sobbed, playing into my fear.

He backhanded me. “Shut up. You want to stay alive, you stay quiet.”

He yanked me to my feet and all but dragged me to the clearing, keeping me at his side. He had a pump action shotgun under his arm with the flashlight. He dropped me on the boulder, then sat down next to me. The flashlight he propped up on his other side. Chuckling, he opened the gun and popped three shells in.

“Your dad should be here any time now. I was going to waste him from the brush, but now that I’ve got you, I might not have to.”

The flashlight suddenly flew down the drop, and Lehrer was under Sid. [The dope had blinded himself with that flashlight right next to him – SEH]  They rolled, then Lehrer landed on top of Sid, with his hands around Sid’s neck. Sid popped Lehrer’s triceps with his knuckles, then bucked and sent Lehrer flying over him.

In a second, Sid was on his feet. He dove at Lehrer, grabbing Lehrer’s collar, then rabbit punching him. Lehrer went limp. Sid dropped him.

I staggered to my feet.

“You okay?” Sid whispered, pulling me off the boulder and leading me to the edge of the clearing.

“I think I’ve got a goose egg on my head,” I whispered back. “Lehrer hit me with that flashlight. I feel kind of woozy.”

Sid got one of the mini flashlights from my pants and waved the light in my eyes.

“Well, your eyes are dilating. You’re probably fine.” He put the flashlight back, then felt around behind me. “Oh, goody. Cuffs. Let’s get sat down and I’ll get you out of these.”

He helped me to the ground, then popped open the sole of his left shoe and got out a tube of spring steel. A minute later, I felt the metal give around my left wrist. I started to wriggle my hand free, then Sid cursed and clamped it back.

“What?” I hissed.

“Your dad. I spring you now, and we’re for sure pegged as operatives.”

A light flashed on us.

“Lisle!” gasped Daddy’s voice.

I couldn’t quite make out the tall, slender form bending over Lehrer’s body. All of a sudden, it dodged back and tripped as Lehrer roared to life.

Lehrer scrambled around, his hands landing on the shotgun. I got knocked flat under Sid as the gun blasted.

“Daddy!” I screamed.

The gun blasted two more times.

“Had enough?” snarled Lehrer. “Hackbirn, get off your girlfriend. Now! Move it!”

Sid slowly moved off of me. Lehrer came over, pointing the shotgun right at me. I howled as he grabbed my hair and pulled me up. He jammed the shotgun muzzle, still hot, under my chin.

“That hurts,” I whimpered.

“It’s not going to hurt at all when I blow your head off,” snarled Lehrer. “Okay, Wycherly, what do you got on me?”

“I don’t,” said Daddy, struggling to keep his voice calm. “I just wanted to talk to you. Find a way to make peace.”

Lehrer swore. “Say goodbye to your girl.”

“Holy Jesus, have mercy,” I gasped.

The gun went click.

I looked up. I was still under the stars, not among them. But before I could breathe to confirm it, I found myself under Sid, falling on top of Lehrer. Somehow, I scrambled free. But Sid and Lehrer were rolling on top of the boulder.

Lehrer pulled free first and got a hold of the shotgun. He swung it like a club. Sid danced back, then realized if he danced back any further, he’d be dancing on thin air. Catching his balance, he swung sideways. The DEA guy, whom I still couldn’t see clearly, caught Sid, while Daddy jumped Lehrer. The shotgun clattered on the rock.

After that, all I could see was this pile of bodies heaving. It stopped slowly. The DEA guy got up first, then Sid, then Daddy. Lehrer struggled on the rock.

I sank to my knees, sobbing.

“Hey, it’s alright. You’re safe.” Arms enfolded me, but they weren’t Sid’s. Or Daddy’s. Nor was the voice.

The face slowly came clear in the starlight.

“Fletcher,” I gasped. “What? How?”

“I’m from the Drug Enforcement Administration. I’m sorry, Lisa. I couldn’t tell you.”

“What the hell do you think you’re doing?” snarled Daddy. His huge hand landed on Fletcher’s shoulder and he ripped Fletcher away from me. “It’s alright, Lisle baby. I got you.”

“Oh, Daddy,” I sobbed, laying my head on his shoulder.

“What’s wrong with your hands?”

“He put handcuffs on me. Will somebody get these off of me?”

Only they couldn’t. Fletcher searched Lehrer for the keys, but they’d been lost in the scuffle. They had to take me to the Sheriff’s station that way, which was none too comfortable. Then it seemed like forever before they got a universal key up from the jail.

In the meantime, I had to go into another crying fit, explaining about the fight Sid and I had, which had made me so miserable I just had to find my special spot. Sid had followed because he was worried about me and to make up. They bought it.

My arms were really stiff when they finally got me loose. Sid started to move in to massage my shoulders, but Daddy cut him off. In fact, Daddy wasn’t letting anyone near me, least of all, Fletcher.

There was quite a hullaballoo going on, too. Several FBI agents arrived with Donny Severn in custody. They were thrilled to find Lehrer already busted, but then a shouting match broke out between them and Fletcher and his cronies from the DEA over whose charges carried more weight. It was really kind of ridiculous because both the FBI and DEA are under the Department of Justice.

Once Donny saw that they had Lehrer, he kicked in, claiming that Lehrer set him up and Lehrer forced him to kill Della and Lehrer was behind Murray’s death. When things finally quieted down, and someone had gotten the room service waiter from the hotel, Donny was put in a lineup and was positively identified as the gunman fleeing Della’s room. He also confessed to killing Murray that Friday night because Murray didn’t have his coke. He said it was an accident, that he’d hit Murray with the gun to get him to shut up.

I also noticed Sid and Fletcher commiserating and glaring at my father. When I finally got Daddy to find me something to drink, Fletcher came over.

“I want to explain about Thursday night,” he said. “Della Riordan had contacted me about this back order she’d been asked to deliver to your father’s store. It was actually a box of cocaine. I was trying to make contact with her in the bar when she stumbled onto your boss.” He paused. “Yeah, I was trying to get into the suite, but more to get a hold of Della, than to make it with you.”

“Then why did you stick your tongue down my throat?” I grumbled.

“I wanted to make it believable, and well, most women I know like it.”

Sid smiled. “He’s got a point, Lisa.”

I glared at him. “You can stay out of this.”

Fletcher shrugged. “Anyway, I kept trying to stay in contact because the coke had disappeared, and I was afraid Della had dropped it on you or your boss.”

“Then who got it?” I asked. I’d already heard how it had been found at Lehrer’s.

“We don’t know,” said Fletcher. “There were some undercover operatives working the case also. All we can figure is that they found the coke and dumped it at Lehrer’s place. But with the code book that was found, it was more or less overkill.”

Sid rolled his eyes. Of course, when we’d planted the box, we’d had no idea how important the code book was.

“Anyway,” continued Fletcher. “I’d still like to stay in touch. I promise, no more tongues.” He smiled sheepishly. “I really am a nice guy, and I have to admit, you were a nice girl to check out.”

“Except she’s got Atilla the Hun guard dogging her,” said Sid. “And speaking of, here he comes.”

Daddy wandered up and glared at Fletcher. “Here’s a soda for you, Lisle.”

“Excuse me, Bill,” said Fletcher. “What are you so mad at me for? You’ve been raising hell with me since I said I’d met Lisa. I haven’t done anything.”

“You just stay away from my girl.”

“Daddy,” I groaned. “He doesn’t have to stay away. It’s my decision whether or not I want him around. And…” I looked over at Fletcher. Well, he was cute. Sid stood back, watching, with his arms folded and a bemused grin. “And I want him around. So there.”

Daddy growled and shook his head, but let it be.

We left shortly after. Fletcher made sure I had his phone number and I gave him mine. Back at my parents’ place, Mama, Mae, and Neil were still up and worried sick. So we had to tell them the whole tale. It was close to three thirty before my face hit my pillow, and by that point I was asleep.




Chapter Eight

September 22, 1983


“What are you two all dressed up for?” Mama asked as Sid and I came into the kitchen for breakfast that morning.

We were both in standard business wear. Before that we’d been running, as usual, in spite of the previous night’s wounds. Sid was pretty much recovered, except for a spectacular shiner on his left eye. He had wanted me to shower first, which is why we appeared together.

“We’ve got some research we’ve got to double check,” said Sid. “In fact, we may want to eat in the car.”

“But it’s so early,” Mama said.

It was almost seven thirty.

“That’s the way it goes sometimes,” said Sid.

I took the pile of toast and some paper towels and we were on our way. I thought Sid was being a bit over cautious regarding the time. But it’s true that as soon as you assume the precautions aren’t needed, that’s when you wish you’d taken them.

Sid parked the 450 SL across the street at the bottom of the driveway leading up the hill to South Lake Tahoe High School. Teenagers came from all directions, in packs, pairs and singly, laughing, solemn, all trudging up the hill.

“So, that’s the old alma mater,” said Sid gazing up at what could be seen of the school.

“Yep. Where I spent four of the most miserable years of my life.”
Sid looked over at me. “Were they really that bad?”

“I don’t know.” I shrugged. “There were high spots. I don’t think I was chronically unhappy, although it seemed like I cried my way through junior year. I just didn’t fit in the whole time I was there. I had friends, like Jimmy, but except for Leslie, they were never that close. It’s not a time of my life I’d like to re-live.”

“Adolescence can be difficult.” Sid gazed out at the students. “I used to think I had a rough time of it. Then they sent me to ‘Nam. Kind of put a new perspective on the whole thing. And as time goes by, the bad stuff seems to fade away, and all I can remember are the good times.” Sid looked over at me. “Maybe I’ll take you by the old school someday. You might like it, after all the fuss you made over my yearbooks.”

I snorted. “I only fussed because you made such a fuss about not showing them to me.”

“I do not make fusses. However, you get embarrassed easily and I didn’t think you’d appreciate some of the inscriptions the old gang left behind.”

“I didn’t even look at them. I knew what your friends were like.” I looked him over. “I know I’m sure to regret asking, but most likely to what?”

“Oh. You mean me and Liz Warner?”

“Yeah. You were voted most likely to, and it never said what.”

Sid laughed. “That was the idea. You supplied your own. It was my buddy, Tom Freeman’s idea. He was the yearbook editor.”

“Didn’t he beat you up when you were a freshman?”

“He got over it, especially when he realized being my friend made it a lot easier for him to get laid. Anyway, he decided that someone as notorious as I was deserved some sort of recognition, and since they couldn’t print my homecoming record.”

“Why not?”

Sid chuckled lecherously. “It was an underground thing. They even had it going long before I got there. We always had our Homecoming game on Friday and the dance on Saturday. After the game, the cheerleaders would throw this huge party, and the guys would see how many girls they could each lay in one night.”

“And you hold the record.”

“World champeen and still undefeated at sixteen females.”

“Must have been a small party. I would have thought you’d done it with twenty or twenty-five.”

Sid choked. “When I think of how I nearly killed myself that night.”

I flushed. “Is it that hard to do it that many times in one night?”

“It’s impossible. Males have to recharge, you know. Your average teenage male can get it up again faster than an adult, but even then, four times in six to eight hours is asking a lot. I once pushed it to five times in one eight-hour period, but that last time wasn’t easy.”

“Then how did you get sixteen?”

“Nobody said I had to complete the act. I just had to penetrate.” Sid chuckled. “Della and I did get a chance to gossip. She told me Tom is teaching there now. Apparently, he’s been there something like six years. She ran into him last June at some conference or other. Tom told her my old record still stands. When he first got there, it was considered a myth until Tom set them straight. But they have yet to figure out how I did it.”

“Didn’t Tom tell them?”

Sid laughed. “Tom’s lucky he can remember being there. He got exceptionally stoned that night, even for him.”

“There she is.” I pointed out the window.

The flow of students had slowed to a trickle. Alice Martin walked with two other girls, the three of them giggling and smoking cigarettes. Sid glanced at the dashboard clock and shook his head.

“Late, late, late,” he said. “And before you say you told me so, you told me so.”

“But like you said, it wasn’t worth taking the chance.” I put my hand on the door.

Sid held up his hand. We waited until they were almost past us before we got out of the car. We walked up behind the three girls.

“Good morning, Alice,” Sid said loudly.

She froze and her friends stopped. Sid wandered around and sandwiched her between himself and me.

“Oh, hi,” she said nervously.

Sid looked at her girlfriends. “Would you ladies mind if Alice and I had a private chat?”

The two girls took off running. Alice trembled.

“Please don’t kill me,” she cried. “I didn’t sic Donny on you, honest! It was, like, his idea. I totally tried to stop him.”

“You could have told him the truth,” said Sid.

“Well, I–  I tried. Honest. But he didn’t believe me, and… And he’s been running around on me. Like, I know it. He said he was in Reno, but I called his friend, Mike, Friday night and Mike said he wasn’t there, said Donny was staying with him but he was, like, out all the time. He was with some other girl. I know he was. And… And that’s why I said you and me did it.” Alice sniffed and got a grip on herself. “I told him it was totally hot, like we were all over the place, and screaming and everything.” She caved in. “I just, like, wanted to make him jealous. I didn’t think he’d go after you. I really didn’t.”

“I realize having an unfaithful lover can be a painful experience,” said Sid. “However, there are many more mature ways to deal with it. And right now, what I want to deal with is Murray.”

“Murray?” Alice looked at him, puzzled.

“Yeah. I’ve got reason to believe someone is about to pin a bum rap on me, and I want to make sure he doesn’t. What do you know about any side businesses Murray had?”

Alice almost backed into me. “Uh. Uh. Side businesses?”

“So there is one.” Sid moved in closer. “Why don’t you just tell me about it up front?”

“I don’t know anything about that.”

“You don’t?” Sid asked, oh so innocently. “I just can’t help wondering if it might have something to do with why Donny’s nose is so red. And why you’ve been so extraordinarily helpful in the stockroom this past week. What’s in the stock, Alice, that you don’t want Bill Wycherly to find? The books are okay, so it isn’t money. It’s got to be something illegal.”

“Like, why should I tell you?”

“Because if you don’t, I’m going to tell the police that you know what’s going on at Wycherly’s store. And then they’ll start looking, which will make whoever it is that doesn’t want anybody to know what’s going on very angry, and probably very angry at you for telling, and two people have already died over this.”

“Oh.” Alice trembled.

“You know,” I said. “If you tell us, we can tell the police that you cooperated, and they can protect you.”

“But I didn’t do anything,” Alice sobbed. “I just knew about it. It was Murray. He was, like, dealing coke. He said Lehrer made him do it. The coke came in the Sunland Products stuff. It was mostly back orders. Murray gave it to Lehrer. Only, like, last Friday, the stuff hadn’t come in. It was supposed to come in Thursday night, but it didn’t.”

I put my arm around her shoulders. “Are you afraid Lehrer killed Murray?”

“I don’t know what to think about that,” cried Alice. “Cause… Cause a week ago, last Wednesday night, Murray stayed late with me. He did that, you know. Anyway, Lehrer came in, and they went in the stockroom, but it was slow, so I could like listen, and Lehrer said he’d turn Murray in if Murray didn’t do a job for him, or get someone who could. And Donny came in and wanted his stuff, but Murray wouldn’t give it to him unless he did Lehrer’s job. So, Donny went off with Lehrer. But that’s all I know. I swear it, on a stack of bibles.”

I looked over at Sid. “What about another guy, a marketing guy from High Wilderness?”

Alice brightened. “Fletcher Haddock. He’s been around lots. Your dad really likes him.” She made a face. “Well, he used to like him. It’s like totally weird. Fletcher was in all afternoon yesterday with Les and your dad, only your dad was like totally teed off at Fletcher. Wouldn’t talk to him, and kept giving him these totally mean looks.”

Sid glanced at me. “Alright, Alice. Thanks for being straight with us. We’ll keep you out of it, and make sure you have protection. We promise.”

Alice nodded.

“Of course, if Lehrer or anyone else finds out you’ve been talking to us, all promises are off. You do understand that, don’t you?”

Terrified, Alice nodded. We sent her on her way and went back to the car. Sid waited before starting the engine.

“If Lehrer’s running coke,” I mused aloud. “Then did he kill Della?”

“I don’t think he did the actual killing,” said Sid. “Why, when he had Donny to do it for him?”

“And Donny fits the tall and skinny description.”

“Indeed, he does. But all we’ve got is the word of one scared teenager.” Sid started the engine.

“And what about Lehrer and Murray?”

“That, too, is a good question.”

We went to the South Lake Tahoe police station. Donny wasn’t there, or in the local jail, either.

“He made bail,” Officer Burke told us. “Though just between you and me and the lamppost, he would have been better off sticking around. That kid should have been in the hospital.”

“Was he that badly hurt?” I gasped.

“Not by that fight. A patrol unit caught him staggering around near the Heavenly ski lifts Tuesday night, actually, Wednesday morning by that point. Somebody had roughed him up, but he either didn’t know who or didn’t want to say. He refused treatment at the emergency room and we had to release him.”

“Too bad,” said Sid. “I was hoping to talk to him. Clear the air and all.”

“He’s probably back in Reno,” said Burke with a disgusted look.

“Family?” asked Sid.

“Nah. Friends. He was there all weekend according to them, since the Wednesday before. We were looking at him for the Waters killing. Found his prints all over this one shelf in the stockroom.” Burke glared at us. “Under all of yours, by the way.”

“We didn’t know,” I said.

Burke cracked a smile. “Figures. But he had reason to be around, with that Martin kid his girlfriend and all, and no telling when he put the prints there.”

“How tight was his alibi?” asked Sid casually.

“Tight enough. He was staying with a Mike Stripkin while he was there, and was in and out. Stripkin says he was there at the critical time. And there were other friends who vouched for him, just enough to be trustworthy.”

“Do they know what actually killed Murray?” I asked.

“A blow to the head. We’re not sure with what. Coroner said it could have been a gun butt, but why hit someone when you can shoot them?”

“True,” said Sid. “Well, thanks a lot for your time.”

I waited until we were outside. “There are a couple good reasons for hitting someone with a gun instead of shooting them.”

“Such as?” Sid held the door open for me.

I waited until he was in his seat. “You’re out of bullets, or you don’t want someone to hear the shot, or you weren’t trying to kill the person, just knock him out.”

Sid nodded. “Makes sense. But it doesn’t say whodunnit yet, and now that Donny has an alibi, he’s out of the running.”

“True. Not to mention we’re still in the dark regarding the location of the agent we’re looking for.” I sat back and frowned. “You know, Sid, if we assume the cocaine was the motive behind Della’s death, then what Tom Collins said about her death being related to the secrets is completely off, and we have nowhere to look for the secrets.”

“Except Sunland Products. Remember, the secrets were traced to them somehow.”

“I wonder if there’s been a mistake. Maybe someone thought what they saw were secrets when it was cocaine being smuggled. Then again, there’s the Company interest in Lehrer.”

Sid pulled out his pocket watch. “That is interesting, but since we know Lehrer is dealing, that could be just drug related.” The music tinkled out, then stopped. Sid started the engine. “We do have a second interview to conduct. Let’s go.”

The interview cleared up some points for the article but did nothing to illuminate the case. We got out of there by eleven.

“So where to now?” I asked as we got back in the car.

“Your folks’ place.” Sid started the engine and brightened. “Mae and Neil and company should be there by now.”

I grinned. “Wait. We’ve got to stop at the grocery store.”

“For what?”

“I’ve got to get some candy for the kids. I always have it for them. They’ll be disappointed.”

Sid glared at me briefly. “As much as I do not want to disappoint the children, you are not going to manipulate me into doing something that goes against my principles.”

“Please, Sid?” I blinked twice, only he wasn’t looking. [Are you kidding? I was not about to take a chance on getting suckered by those gorgeous cow eyes of yours. I kept my eyes glued to the road for my own well-being and that of the children – SEH]

Sure enough, as we pulled into the parking lot, Mae and Neil’s station wagon was there.

Now, Mae is six years older than me and short, like Mama, but with a little padding. She wears her brown hair short and curly and out of the way. Neil is about two years older than Mae, and her opposite in stature. Tall and spare, his hair is bright red and he wears wire-rimmed glasses with thick lenses. Nothing ever seems to phase him. He’s incredibly easy going, which is probably how he survives with five very bright, very active children.

The oldest is Darby, a red head and out and out skinny. He also has his father’s poor eyesight. He was ten and a half at the time and a pretty good guitarist.

Marty and Mitch, the twins, are the youngest. They were three, and though they don’t wear glasses yet, given how much they take after Darby and Neil, it’s a safe bet they’ll be wearing them. Given their hyperactive tendencies, Mae’s not looking forward to it.

Ellen was five at the time. A brunette with her father’s blue eyes, she’s the shy one of the group, happiest when left to herself. Unfortunately, that usually results in a large mess of some sort because Ellen is insatiably curious, too.

Then there’s Janey. She was seven at the time. Her hair is brown and she has big round hazel cow eyes. That’s only a small part of the reason she’s Sid’s favorite. She’s a very loving, sweet little girl with an incredible gift for character analysis. Her rating system is pretty simple: people are either good or bad. Sid is a good person. He just does bad things. But Janey loves him wholeheartedly nonetheless, and he is completely besotted with her. It’s almost a joke, but if the kids want something from Uncle Sid, they know all they have to do is get Janey to ask.

The kids came running out of the house as soon as Sid stopped the engine. It was one noisy melee, with the three dogs running around barking and the kids yelling. Darby shook Sid’s hand. Ellen attached herself to Sid’s leg. The twins demanded their hugs and kisses. Sid bent to their demands. Janey waited as Marty and Mitch quickly bussed Sid’s cheek and went running off, then she ran into his arms for her own special hug and kiss.

“How’s my best girlfriend?” Sid asked her fondly while I distributed hugs and kisses to the rest of the brood.

“Real good, Uncle Sid.” She looked at his shiner with a worried frown. “You got hurt.”

“It’s not bad at all.”

Janey gently kissed the black eye. “There. That’ll make it all better.”

“It just might.” Sid laughed and straightened.

Ellen tugged shyly on his sleeve and whispered.

“I’m sorry, Ellen, I didn’t hear you,” said Sid.

“Ellen, you got to talk louder,” said Janey.

Ellen hollered, “I lost my first tooth!”

“Let’s see,” said Sid. Ellen opened her fist. “That’s nice, but where did it come from?”

Laughing, Ellen opened her mouth and showed us the gap in her lower jaw.

“It’s been loose for weeks and weeks,” said Janey. “And Darby pulled it this morning in the car, but Daddy said it was s’posed to come out on its own, but Darby pulled it anyway.”

“I’m glad,” said Ellen emphatically. “I wanted it out.”

“I’m getting another loose tooth,” said Janey. She had gaps on either side of her permanent front teeth as it was, and she wiggled her right eye tooth.

“Tooth fairy’s coming tonight,” said Ellen softly, and she tugged on Sid’s sleeve again. “Uncle Sid, does she know I’m at Grandma’s?”

“I don’t see why not.” Sid glanced at me for help. “I’m sure she’s got excellent radar.”

“Lisa, Sid,” called Mama from the porch. “Hurry on in. Mae and Neil want to say hi and we just got the photo box out.”

The kids cheered and ran into the house with Mama following.

“Photo box?” Sid asked.

I grimaced. “All the family photos. Mama keeps them in this huge gift box. The first thing Mae does when she visits is get the darned thing out. If I didn’t have to go say hello.”

“Why do I sense more ambivalence than boredom from you?” Sid’s eyes twinkled.

“Maybe because that’s what I’m feeling.” I sighed. “I don’t know. My early pictures aren’t so bad, but sometime in junior high school, my face got long, and I just haven’t taken a decent photograph since.”

“That’s not true.” Sid gave my shoulders an affectionate squeeze. “It’ll be okay. I’m beginning to get interested.”

I glared. “My dearest reprobate, if you even think about laughing or making any snide comments, I promise you will regret it for the rest of your born days.”

Sid just laughed.

We hello’d and hugged and kissed everyone, and Sid got maneuvered to the sofa between Mama and Mae. While that was going on, I quickly pawed through the box, looking for a specific set of pictures that under no circumstances did I want Sid to see. They weren’t there, so I got a magazine and sulked in a chair across the room.

Sid smiled at all the pictures, although the rat seemed really interested in the ones of me. The kids wandered in and out. The twins were mostly out, supposedly playing in the kitchen. Janey suddenly tackled Daddy and away they went. Neil plopped down on the floor next to me.

“Your mom says things have been pretty rough for you up here,” he said with a grin.

I shrugged. “There’s not much we can do about it. I’d really rather not talk about it, if you don’t mind.”

Neil nodded at the group on the sofa. “Pretty boring, huh?”

“You said it.” I put down the magazine. “Why is Mae so hung up those stupid things? It’s not like she hasn’t seen them a thousand times already.”

“I don’t know.” Neil shook his head. “She’s just as bad about the kids’ baby pictures, and we’ve got them on the walls at home. She has got a new audience for a change.”

Sid was examining one of the older photos. I could tell because the edge was crinkle cut. He looked over at me.

“Good lord, you were small as a baby,” he said.

“Which one is that?” I asked.

He held it up. It’s a picture of me at one month old, fresh home from the hospital. Daddy’s sitting in a big armchair, with Mae hanging over the arm. Daddy’s holding me and they’re both looking at me, only it’s pretty hard to see me for the receiving blanket. Well, I couldn’t have been much bigger than six pounds at that point. Sid looked at it fondly and blushing, I turned back to my magazine.

Mama bounced up. “Oh, Lisle, I was cleaning out the closets before we went to Yellowstone, and look what I finally found.”

She got the four books from the cupboard next to the bookshelf.

“Uh, Mama, why don’t I take those?” I got up and snagged them. “It’s kind of silly for you to be keeping them for me, anyway.”

“Well, honey, I like looking at your yearbooks.”

Sid’s eyebrow lifted. “Yearbooks, huh?”

I glared at him. But I knew he’d be going through them sooner or later. Obviously losing them in the bottom of my former closet hadn’t worked.

“And would you believe, I finally found your prom pictures.” Mama handed the five by seven brown cover to Sid.

“No!” I yelped, diving for them.

I was too late. Sid held his laughter in like a gentleman, but I could see him shaking with the effort. He handed the folder back to me.

“What were you on?” he asked softly.

“I just blinked wrong.”

“And the dreamboat you were with..?”

“Now, Michael was very nice,” said Mama. “Lisa’s just fussed because I talked her into taking him to the Christmas Dance, and when he asked her to the prom, she felt she had to go with him.”

“They weren’t exactly lining up to take me,” I grumbled bitterly.

“I thought Michael was very sweet,” said Mama.

“Very, very sweet,” I said. “He took me to the prom because he wanted to go and couldn’t take his boyfriend.”

“Michael Tipton was gay?” asked Mae.

“Is gay,” I corrected.

“Now, Lisa, you don’t know that,” said Mama.

“I met him down at Cal State, Mama. We both went there. He was president of the Gay and Lesbian Student Union.” And I left the room before Mama could say anything else.

I found myself in the kitchen and got an apple out of the refrigerator. The windows over the back porch were open and I could hear Daddy and Janey talking.

“You just have to share,” she told him. “That’s all, Grandpa.”

He laughed softly. “It’s not that simple, sugarplum.”

“It is so. And Uncle Sid isn’t a bad person.”

“I never said he was.”

“You’ve been awful mean to him.”

“We’ve been talking.”

“You still don’t like him.”

“I worry about him, that’s all. About grown up stuff, and never you mind about it.”

“Oh, Grandpa. I’m not a little kid anymore. I know Uncle Sid has sex with his girlfriends. Can we go look at the horses?”

I was choking, first with laughter at Janey not being a little kid, and then over what she said about Sid. Mae came in.

“There you are,” she said.

“Janey’s on to Sid,” I whispered, although Janey and Daddy had long since left.

“What?” asked Mae.

I got up and threw away my apple core. “Janey knows what the bad things are that Sid does.”

“She does? What do you know? It doesn’t surprise me.”

“She knows about sex?”

Mae frowned. “I’m not sure if she knows what exactly it is, but she knows it involves men and women, and that you’re supposed to be married.” Mae shrugged. “I wouldn’t worry about it. If it were Darby or Ellen, maybe. But Janey seems to be beyond corruption. I don’t think she tells me half what she sees and you wouldn’t believe what she does tell me she knows, even about you.”

“What’s she said?” I gasped, terrified that Janey was onto Sid’s and my business.

Mae laughed. “Nothing bad. Just little things, like how you and Sid feel about each other.”

“We’re just friends. Very close friends, but that’s it.”

“Right.” With a knowing grin, Mae shook her head. “Don’t worry about Janey, Lisa. I’ve spent a lot of time talking with her and she’s got her head on straighter about moral issues than I do.”

“I guess.” Morosely, I opened the refrigerator door again.

“Lisa, I do want to talk to you.”

My heart froze, wondering if Janey had put Mae onto the business after all. My eyes were past seeing what there was to eat, but I kept my nose in the refrigerator anyway.

“What about?” I asked as casually as I could.

“I’m just concerned, that’s all. Lisa, you’ve never been that open and it seems like lately you’ve been even more withdrawn. I can’t help wondering if there’s something you’re hiding.”

Oh, there wasn’t much, just the fact that I’m a counter-espionage agent, risking my neck on a regular basis for the safety of the free world as we know it. But I’m not allowed to mention that little fact, even to my family, and even if I were, I’m not sure I would. I grabbed at the more obvious conclusion.

“You mean like Sid and me?” I grabbed a tub of yogurt and all but slammed the refrigerator door shut.

Mae sank into a chair at the table. “Lisa, please don’t get mad at me, but-”

“But nothing!” I slammed the silverware drawer open and grabbed a spoon. “This is incredible. Even my own sister doesn’t trust me. Mae, you know me better than that.”

“That’s just the point. I don’t know you. You don’t let me. You don’t let anybody know you. Good lord, look how long it took you just to tell me you were living at Sid’s house.”

“I just didn’t get around to it.” Leaning against the counter, I opened the yogurt and licked the lid. “And you’re the one who doesn’t want me telling Mama and Daddy.”

“I’m supposed to be the bad guy because I don’t want a fist fight to break out on a holiday?”

“If Daddy was going to get violent with Sid, he would have this week. Trust me, he’s had ample provocation. Both of them have, and nothing’s come of it.”

“Really? Daddy’s ribs are in bad shape again, and Sid has one heck of a shiner.”

I rolled my eyes. “That was Donny Severn and his gang. Sid and Daddy had patched things up, more or less. Daddy even said Sid had one hell of a punch.”

“That’s pretty good for Daddy. But what about you, Lisa?”

“What about me?”

“Why can’t you talk to me?”

I looked away. “I just can’t. And don’t ask why because that’s all the answer you’re going to get.”

Sid came in. “I should have known to look for you in here. Oh. Hi, Mae.”

Mae sighed. “Hi, Sid.”

“Well.” Sid looked at the two of us, trying to figure out what was going on. He took a deep breath and changed the subject. “It appears the children want to have lunch in the main lodge and your mother is insisting we indulge them. So, Lisa, you and I have to hurry and change into more casual clothes.”

“Sure.” I finished off my yogurt and dumped the tub in the trash and the spoon in the sink, then followed Sid out.

He stopped me in front of his room. “I don’t really want to bring up a sore spot, but I do want to apologize for laughing at your prom picture.”

“It’s wasn’t that big a deal,” I snorted.

“It wouldn’t have been, but for your date’s preference, and that little hassle you had last month.”

I’d gone out a couple times with a guy who turned out to be gay and was only going out with me because he was still in the closet and needed a woman around to look good. Rick felt pretty bad about misleading me, but I have to admit it had hurt. Somehow, in spite of it, we were getting to be friends.

I shrugged. “Well, now you know how it happened.”

“I wish I’d known before.” Sid gazed at me thoughtfully. “After you left, Mae started complained about how withdrawn you are and how you never tell anyone anything.”

“I tell you stuff.”

“Not everything.”

“I guess not.” I sighed. “I just don’t tell people things. The funny part is, I’ve told you more than I’ve ever told anyone, even Leslie Bowan.” I looked at him with a small smile. “I guess you and I have more in common than we thought.”

Sid chuckled. “I suppose I shall have to learn how to pull answers out of you like you do to me.”

“I’m sorry.” I blushed.

“No. I’m glad you do. It’s made all the difference. We’d better get going.” He looked over at the door to the bedroom and frowned. “I thought I left this closed.”

It was open just a crack, about an inch or two at the most. Cautiously, Sid pushed it open the rest of the way, then swore a blue streak.

His suitcase lay open in the middle of the floor and his clothes were strewn all over the place. My first thought was that some enemy had searched it, but there was another more likely source.

“Those twins,” I groaned. “They were supposed to stay in the kitchen. I should have known something was up when they weren’t there. I’m sorry, Sid.”

“It’s not your fault.” Disgusted, Sid started picking up. “If anything, I did it to myself. I should have locked the case and put it out of their reach.”

I picked up a shirt. “There’s no such thing. They’ve gotten stuff out of the top of Mae’s closet. Is anything missing?”

Sid went through the case, then again, and swore softly. He went through the case a third time, checking every pocket, then turning the case upside down.

“What’s gone?” I asked.

He got up and checked outside the room. “That second package of cocaine we found. I brought it in to verify it with my test kit and hid it in my suitcase, and it is coke, and only cut once.”

“Oh, my god.” I crossed myself. “You think Marty and Mitch got it?”

“Who else could have?” Sid searched the room, getting on his knees and looking under the bed. “Unless it’s in this room somewhere, they’ve got it. They wouldn’t try eating it, would they?”

I went through the closet. “I don’t think so. They’re very good about not putting stuff in their mouths. Sid, how are we going to ask them?”

“We’re going to have to somehow, and do it very carefully, or we could blow our whole cover.”

We combed the room. No little box or white powder. There was a knock on the door.

“Hey, you two,” Neil called from the other side. “By any lucky chance are you fooling around in there?”

“For crying out loud!” I stomped over to the door and whipped it open. “Neil, I have had it. There is nothing going on between Sid and me. He is not my boyfriend. We are not sleeping together. There is nothing, repeat nothing, romantically oriented going on between us!”

“Okay,” Neil replied, completely unperturbed.

I swallowed my anger down somewhat. “I am amazed that Mae did not bash your head in years ago.”

Neil shrugged. “Mom wants to know what’s taking so long.”

“Your sons, Martin and Mitchell.” I stepped back so he could see the mess. “They got into Sid’s stuff and threw it all over.”

“Oh.” Neil shook his head. “I’m sorry, Sid. Can I help you get it back together?”

“No thanks, Neil,” said Sid. “I’ve more or less got it under control.”

“Okay. I’ll take care of the twins. But you guys hurry. We’re all waiting on you.” Neil ambled off, presumably in search of his errant sons.

“What now?” I asked Sid when we were alone again.

“We change clothes and go to lunch.” Sid put his hand on my shoulder. “We can’t ask them outright with the adults around just in case they didn’t find it. If they don’t put stuff in their mouths, it should be okay.”

The twins were doing time out in the living room when we joined the others. We had to wait another three minutes for them, and then more minutes while they tearfully apologized to Sid. I watched them nervously. There weren’t any signs of the box, or worse, its contents on them, and they weren’t acting sick. I had a feeling if they’d eaten cocaine, something would have been happening by then. [They’d have been dead – SEH]

Mae and Neil didn’t say anything, and I know they would have if they’d found the box. Altogether, it was a very tense lunch, even if Sid and I didn’t let on that we were tense about anything. After lunch, I brought Motley into Sid’s room, but he didn’t find anything. I was going to take him around the house, but Sid stopped me, saying it would look too suspicious, and that we’d do it that night after everyone was asleep.

The afternoon dragged. Sid chatted comfortably, but I couldn’t. I never was any good at small talk. I did try to forget about the cocaine. The kids were fine and not acting funny, so I didn’t think they had it. I can usually tell when they’re hiding something. So I figured Marty and Mitch must have dropped the box somewhere. That relaxed me some, but it didn’t help the clock move any faster.

Just after dinner, the doorbell rang. Mama got it and was not happy. Sheriff’s Investigator Carl Lehrer had managed to convince a California judge that he had probable cause for a search warrant on Sid and me. He had with him from the South Lake Tahoe P.D. a detective named Frisch, two uniform officers, and a policewoman to pat me down.

Mae got a good grip on Murbles and Richmond, but they were pretty mellow. Motley growled low and mean at Lehrer, but I had a good grip him.

“And just what are you looking for, Carl Lehrer?” snarled Daddy.

Lehrer puffed himself up. “I have very good reason to believe that these two are hiding a missing drug shipment that was supposed to come to Murray Waters. This is the second time drugs have turned up missing and these two have been involved.”

I handed Motley to Neil, then rolled my eyes as the policewoman patted me down.

“She’s clean,” she said.

“That is the most ridiculous thing I have heard in my life,” snapped Daddy.

Mama glared. “Who do you think you are, Carl Lehrer? The Gestapo?”

Lehrer waived the warrant. “The court doesn’t think so. Where are these two staying?”

Mama showed him and the other officers back. The kids came running out and clung to their parents.

“Why are they picking on Sid and Lisa?” Mae asked, irritated. “As if either of them would have drugs on them.”

I glanced at Sid. His eyes briefly caught mine. Apparently, Mae hadn’t found the box. Sid and I were wondering if Lehrer would.

Some minutes later, he returned to the living room with my purse in his hands and Frisch on his tail.

“I know what I’m doing,” Lehrer was saying. He went over to the coffee table and emptied my purse onto it. “Well, look at this.” He picked up the roll of strapping tape and brought it over to me. “Tape.” He shoved the roll in my face. “You know what this is used for.”

It’s used by undercover espionage agents to bind prisoners because carrying handcuffs looks funny. It took every ounce of self-control that I had to contort my face into a puzzled frown, instead of letting out the panic I felt.

“Mailing packages?” I asked.

Lehrer looked over at Sid, who shrugged.

“Lehrer, what the hell are you doing?” asked Frisch, who had been completely disgusted with the whole venture from the start. “Just because she has tape doesn’t mean she used it to ship coke.” He went through the stuff on the coffee table. “So she keeps the kitchen sink in her purse. That’s not illegal, and I don’t see anything here that is.”

Snarling, Lehrer dropped the roll on the coffee table and went to check on the other officers. Frisch sighed and shook his head.

“I’m sorry about this, Bill,” he said to my father.

Daddy shrugged.

“Well, damn it, it’s got to be around here someplace,” Lehrer yelled from the back. “I know they have it.” He eventually stomped back into the living room, followed by the other three officers. “Alright, damn it, you’re clean.” He stomped over to Sid and me. “I don’t know how you did it, but you’re clean. But I know it’s around here someplace, and I am going to watch you two like a hawk until I find it. Get that?”

“Lehrer, you’re overstepping your bounds,” said Frisch. “You didn’t find anything. Let’s get out of here.”

Daddy showed the officers out and stayed outside. As they left, I gathered together the stuff from my purse, surreptitiously switching on my bug finder. The flash was weak, but definitely there.

“What kind of trouble are you two in?” Mae asked, letting the two big dogs go. They joined Motley in barking at the front door.

“I don’t want to talk about it,” I said, sweeping my pens, a hair pick, and several dirty Lifesavers into my purse. “I’m going to my room.”

The flash on the bug finder grew bright and steady as I went in. Motley pushed in past me and started sniffing. Before I could get the bug finder to zero in, he’d found the bug. It was stuck under my bookshelf. I took Motley into Sid’s room just to be on the safe side. Motley found the bug under a bookshelf in there. I left quickly to find Sid.

He was right outside the door.

“I thought you might be upset,” he said.

“I guess,” I said out loud, then mouthed the word “wired” and pointed to his room.

Sid pointed at my room. “Look, it’s his problem.”

“Wired,” I mouthed, then said aloud, “I know.”

“This is the second time he has searched us and found nothing. There is never going to be anything for him to find, so sooner or later he is going to completely lose credibility, assuming he hasn’t already.”

“You’re right.”

“Come on. Let’s go relax on the porch.”

I brought the bug finder with me. It was chilly out on the back porch, which meant the windows were closed, and the bedrooms are on the side of the house, so there was no one to hear us. I checked anyway.

“Nothing transmitting,” I muttered. “But what about those mikes that pick up everything from five hundred feet away?”

Sid laughed. “They have a very limited usefulness precisely because they can pick up everything. It’s much too noisy here with all those cabins with people in them.” He looked over at me. “We’ve been bugged.”

“And he knows what tape is for.”

Sid nodded. “That does not speak well of him. But it is possible he is on our side.”

“That is not a comforting thought.”

“Not in the least. But until we know where the secrets are, we can’t say for sure he’s a bad guy. I just wish I knew where the cocaine is. It must be out on the grounds somewhere.”

The door behind us opened and the screen door creaked. Given what Janey had for us, you could say she was right on cue.

“Uncle Sid, Aunt Lisa,” she said nervously. “I think I know what those policemen were looking for.” She pulled the remains of a small cardboard box from her sweatshirt pocket.

Jolted, Sid and I looked at each other.

“Where did you get this?” I asked, taking it from her.

“The twins were tearing it apart this morning,” Janey said. “There was a white powder in it.”

“Where is the powder?” Sid asked.

Janey shrugged and pointed. “All over the place, but mostly over by those trees next to the parking lot.” She looked over at Sid, her big eyes full of fear. “Is it yours, Uncle Sid?”

“No,” he said softly and pulled her into his lap. “Your aunt and I found it, and we kept it because we were trying to find who brought it here. We just didn’t want the police to find it because we knew Investigator Lehrer would not believe us when we told him it wasn’t ours.”

“He’s a very bad man,” said Janey. She sighed. “I guess I shouldn’t say that.”

“Why not, Janey?” I asked.

“My teacher at school, Mrs. Fenner? I told her that Bobby Drexel was bad, ’cause I figured if Mrs. Fenner and I were really nice to him, he’d stop being bad. Only she got really mad at me.” Janey sighed. “Bobby doesn’t do anything bad, but I can tell he is, and I wanted him to be okay. Mrs. Fenner didn’t understand.”

I sighed. “I know that feeling.”

Morose, I played with the shred of cardboard. It was the longer, wider side of the box, with the end flap still attached and covered with packing tape.

“It’s alright,” said Janey. “I like talking with you, Aunt Lisa. You understand.”

I smiled. “I do my best.”

She kissed Sid’s cheek, then scrambled free. “I’m going to bed now.”

“Uh, Janey,” said Sid cautiously. “I’m not big on secrets, but I think it would be better if we kept that little box business just between us.”

“I know.” Janey opened the screen door. “I wasn’t going to tell.”

The kitchen door slammed behind her.

“She knows a lot more than she talks about,” I said, picking at the tape on the box.

“Just like someone else I know.” Sid grinned at me.

“She could very easily be onto our business.”

“To be honest, I’ve been wondering if she is. However, in the first place, I doubt she’ll say anything, and in the second, there’s not a damned thing we can do about it if she is.”

I lifted the tape from the end flap. Something funny flashed in the porch light.

“What?” I muttered.

“You find something?” Sid leaned over.

“You’re blocking the light.” I wriggled around. “It’s a piece of film.” I pulled it out. “A microdot.”

Sid took it. “Great, and your viewer’s inside.”

“I’ll go get it.” I was inside in a flash.

I got the viewer from my purse without fussing about the bug. Lehrer would have no way of knowing what I’d gone in there for. I got back out to the porch without getting stopped by the rest of my family.

Sid put the dot in the viewer while I watched the door.

“I’ll be damned,” he muttered.

“Why don’t I get to see,” I complained. “I found it.”

Sid handed me the viewer. It was filled with schematics. I turned it off.

“Why smuggle secrets in with drugs?” I asked.

“Just hazarding a guess, who’s going to look for them once the drugs are found?” Sid sat back down on the steps. “And keep in mind, smuggling secrets will get you in a lot more trouble than smuggling drugs will. You get caught smuggling cocaine and you’ve got a whole cartel behind you with suitcases of cash for bail money. Get caught with secrets and nobody’s going to acknowledge you, not even the government you’re spying for. You’re on your own.”

“Does Lehrer know about this?”

Sid shrugged. “He’s pretty anxious to get a hold of the shipment. We’re mostly sure he’s dealing coke. It’s not unlikely he was behind Della’s death. I’d say there’s pretty good odds he’s our mole. The trick now will be proving it.”

“Maybe we ought to try a break in tonight while he’s on duty.”

Sid shook his head. “Not while we’re wired. We can’t leave until after everyone else is in bed, and after that, Lehrer will hear us and wonder.”

“Or won’t hear you and wonder.”

“What do you mean?”

I chuckled. “You talk in your sleep, remember?”

“Oh. That.”

“Don’t you ever worry about revealing secrets?”

“I have yet to.” Sid gazed up at the sky. “At least, I have reason to believe I haven’t. I suspect it’s because even my subconscious knows I can’t, nor do I want to. It’s sort of like hypnosis, in that even in a trance you’re not going to do anything you really don’t want to do.”

“Like if I got hypnotized, I wouldn’t strip and run naked.”

Sid got up and stretched. “Look at all those stars.” [And yes, I was deliberately changing the subject. I was having too much fun imagining you hypnotized and open to suggestion – SEH]

“You poor, deprived urbanite.” I smiled. “There are only two things I really miss when I’m not in the mountains, clean air and stars at night.”

“Them’s the breaks. Come on. We’d better get back inside before I find myself explaining things to your father.”

“There’s nothing to explain.”

Sid’s hot little smile made me catch my breath.

“‘Tis a pity,” he said softly.


Author Shannon Muir on Writing in Multiple Genres

Shannon Muir (Guy Viau Photography)

Author and screenwriter Shannon Muir is best known for her pulp mystery suspense stories that appear in a variety of anthologies. However, she’s not one to stop there. She’s got a whole host of fantasy stories out, too. Here she is on why she doesn’t stick to one single genre (which sounds more than a little familiar to me).

In my youth, I grew up with a mother who watched soap operas, a father devoted to science fiction and fantasy, discovering a love of mysteries on my own, and in college getting an English degree emphasizing literary prose and poetry. Looking back, it doesn’t surprise me that I’ve tried writing a variety of genres trying to find my niche. Early effort strove to be of the soap-opera-in-book-form variety, but I’ve come to learn I’m my own worst enemy in that regard. One thing I really want to focus on is character psychology and why characters behave as they do. It took a while to learn that the traditional romance book, while not without complications, doesn’t really venture down these paths. This required me to take a step back and figure out what I really wanted to be writing.

I realized that what I wanted to be doing were stories that had discovery and mystery at the core, with a focus on character. Early opportunities opened up with niche genre publisher Pro Se Press, who – especially at that time – emphasized fiction written in a pulp style. For me, it became easier to write more of an action piece if I latched on to a character in a period tale; that is a big reason that my early short stories with Pro Se Press are set in 1950 or earlier. I didn’t see them as mystery or crime stories at first, but more pulp-style action stories.

Not long after that, I began to find out about a handful of female writers who wrote for Pro Se Press that also happened to be members of Sisters in Crime. That’s how I began to make the connection that I might fit into some bigger picture with the stories I told. I still remember the day not long after I started regularly networking with mystery and crime authors that I realized a short story I’d previously done, “Ghost of the Airwaves,” was a female amateur sleuth mystery as much as a suspense tale since the lead character actively works to find her husband’s killer. With more recent published stories like “Hidden History” in the anthology Explorer Pulp, and “Tropical Terror” in the anthology Crime Down Island, multiple genre influences are also a bit more apparent. With “Hidden History,” though the thrust of the anthology call was for action stories with explorers, I have a strong interest in how people think and motivation. Therefore, I developed that story with a character mystery first which ended up being a tale of suspense and crime. “Tropical Terror” really clearly shows the cross-genre as the former Marine that gets tied up in the local mystery also uncovers a soap-opera like plot in which his girlfriend is a central player.

So, at the heart, what I want to write is a good character story, that contains some mystery or discovery, that I’ve call “the mystery of character” and use it as part of my branding. Then, I seek out the genre that best fits the way to tell that character’s story. It might be hard action, it could be cozy and romantic; it could take place in the past or present, or maybe not even on Earth. I’ve actually started to discover some interesting and classic mysteries with investigators who utilize fantastical elements, such as the Lord Darcy series by Randall Garrett, the Garrett, P.I.  series by Glen Cook, and the more recent Dresden Files series by Jim Butcher (who counts Cook among his influences). While it will require a lot of research, bringing my personal genre passions together in this manner is something I hope to experiment with in the future.

Admittedly, not sticking to one genre makes any form of marketing a challenge, as I can’t be easily “typecast” or “pigeon-holed” into a set of expectations. Fortunately, while sales are a nice thing to have, that wasn’t what motivated me to want to write; that motivation comes from a strong desire to be a storyteller. In the end, I’m telling the stories I want to tell, and willing to take those risks. That’s better than not even taking the chance and finding out what you can do as a writer.

You can find out more about Shannon Muir and her work at her website,

Chapter Seven

September 21, 1983


The morning was cold. Sid and I wore down vests over our warm-ups suits as we ran. Motley trotted along next to us as he had the day before, keeping pace perfectly. Little clouds of fogged breath followed us all the way.

It was a good thing Sid showered first. I was so chilled, I stayed in the shower until the hot water ran out, and was late to breakfast.

Daddy took off as I came in, but only because he had to show Les Stevens how to run the store.

“You want me to help?” I asked.

“Naw,” said Daddy. “Why don’t you stay here and visit.”


Mama shook her head as Daddy left. “He sure picked a fine time to leave you here. It’s my morning to help at the library. I’d cancel it, but the school kids are coming in and Patty’s short-handed as it is.”

I shrugged. “I haven’t been riding since I got up here.”

“Well, what about Sid?”

“I’ve got some notes to organize and some calls to make,” he said smiling.

“There you go.” Mama gave me a meaningful glance. “I’d better get going myself. Can you clean up, Lisle?”

“Sure, Mama.” I sulked as she gathered her purse and left.

Sid looked at me, puzzled. “I’ll help you clean up.”

“You don’t have to.” I finished the last of the toast and got up.

“It’s the least I can do.” Sid gathered plates.

“Sid, you’re a guest. You’re supposed to let us do it.”

“Aren’t you a guest, too?”

I sighed. “I’m family.” I smiled. “I really don’t mind cleaning up.”

“Then what do you mind? You’re not happy about something.”

I shrugged. “I was kind of looking forward to riding.”

“Then why aren’t you going?”

“Well, you’ve got work to do.”

“Yes, I’ve got work to do. What does that have to do with you?”

I put the dishes in the sink and sighed. “I work for you, Sid. If you’ve got notes to organize, then I’d better be here to help you with them.”

“I didn’t ask you to.” Sid leaned against the sink with his arms folded.

“You don’t get it, do you?” With a bitter smile, I turned on the water and waited for it to get hot. “You’re the boss and a man to boot. I’m supposed to cater to your needs.”

Sid thought. “I missed something.”

“Oh. It figures.” I squirted dish soap over the dishes and turned the faucet on them. “It’s Mama. She wants me taking care of you instead of gallivanting all over the place on a horse. It really bugs her that you’re her guest and you’ve been working at the store for us. Not that she’s saying anything, of course. You just don’t do that. But you sure catch hell if you don’t pick up the code.”

“I see.” Sid finished clearing the table and picked up a towel. “I do want to get our interview notes outlined for the casino piece, maybe even go over the tape, but to be honest, I’d just as soon do it by myself. Not that you wouldn’t be a help, but you hate that phase anyway.”

“So I organize differently.”

“Lisa, with all due respect, you are an excellent writer, but organizing it is not your strong suit.”

“This is true. There’s a typewriter in the living room. I could start transcribing that tape.”

“Why don’t you go riding? You don’t want to listen to an interview you’ve already done any more than I do. I’ll get the notes organized, and then we can decide what we want to pull off the tape.”

I smiled. “It’s strange. I still feel guilty.”

“I’ve been given to understand that’s a common occurrence among people with parents.” He smirked.

Once the kitchen was clean, I assuaged my conscience by getting Sid set up in the living room, then went in search of my riding boots.

Motley tagged along with me to the stables. Neff told me about this chestnut mare that Daddy had bought earlier that summer. She was a good, spirited mount, but not skittish. Motley barely got a nicker out of her. I was saddled up and trotting down a trail in no time.

I took the back way around to my by myself place. The mare was surefooted in the hills and Motley eagerly kept pace. He ran ahead as we neared the clearing, barking joyfully. I dismounted and led the mare through the trees.

Motley was busy sniffing out the whole clearing. Finally, he looked up and yipped disconsolately, as if he had expected to find something and hadn’t. He put his nose to the ground and went over the clearing again.

I tethered my mount to a tree branch, stretched and went over to the boulder. The whole clearing was like a little promontory, with a sharp drop on all sides except where the trees backed into the hill. The valley sparkled below in the gray sunlight of a misty morning. White specks of light danced in the waves of the lake. Somewhere in the trees behind me, a blue jay raised cain.

Motley barked anxiously. I turned. The mare nickered and tossed her head, but stayed calm. Motley was barking at a bush near the edge of the clearing. Or, as I got a closer look, what had been a bush. Something or someone had squashed it flat. A little piece of fabric was caught in the thorns. I pulled it free. It was a piece of cotton flannel plaid in royal blue and black, part of one of a thousand shirts worn by locals and tourists alike.

But Motley was excited about it. I put the scrap in my pocket and made a mental note to ask Sid what Murray had been wearing when he was found. Taking one more look around, I went back to the horse and took her home by way of a good soft horse trail. It didn’t take much to nudge her into a good spirited gallop, which Motley thoroughly enjoyed, too. I galloped her again on the cleared trail behind my parents’ place, then cooled her down to a walk before I stabled her.

When I got back to the house, Sid had put the typewriter on the coffee table and was rattling away at lightning speed.

“Good lord,” I gasped.

“Hm?” Sid looked up, then stopped the cassette player and removed the headphones. “Oh, you’re back.”

“May I ask why you are paying me to do your typing for you? You’re a thousand times faster than I am.”

“It is also one of my least favorite chores.” Sid stretched. “Phew! You smell like horse. Why don’t you clean up and we can get some work done? It’ll save me from transcribing.”

I laughed. “Then why are you doing it?”

“Nothing else to do,” he said shrugging and replacing the headphones.

A second later, he was rattling away again. I took my time cleaning up mostly because I didn’t want to get stuck transcribing. That has got to be the most mind-numbing job on the face of this earth. I had just finished changing when Mama knocked on my door.

“Sid told me he sent you riding this morning,” she said coming in.

I towel dried my hair and fluffed it. “Yep.”

“Did you have a good time?”

“Uh-huh. Took the new mare out. She’s wonderful. Where’d you guys find her?”

Mama laughed. “It’s a long story. I’m glad you had a nice time.”

“Yeah.” I got my notebook out of my purse. “Did you want to chat?”

“Oh, no. You got work to do, honey. Here, let me take that towel and I’ll put it in the hamper.”

“Thanks.” I hurried out to the living room.

“Lisle?” called Mama behind me. “Did you put your tack away?”

“Yes, Mama.” I sighed as Sid shook his head. “I’ll be seventy and she’ll still be checking up on me.”

Sid chuckled. “Which is precisely why I’m glad I got disowned. I can’t imagine anything worse than perpetual childhood.”

“Something tells me you were never a child.”

Sid just grinned and continued typing, all the while humming “All Day, All Night Marianne.” It’s just about the only thing I’ve ever heard him sing and the only time he sings it is after he’s been… [Doing it, humping, making the beast with two backs, getting it on, getting laid, screwing, fucking… Any others? – SEH]

“You’ve been here all morning, haven’t you?” I whispered.


“You haven’t been up to something, or should I say someone on the staff, have you?”

“No.” He hadn’t been.

I watched him type and hum some more.

“Must have been some night last night.”

“Yeah.” He sighed happily.

“You are so depraved.”

“Ain’t I, though.” He typed another minute more, then removed the headphones. “Would you believe I got it all done?”

“You’re kidding. There were three hours of interviews.”

“That’s about how long you were gone.”

“I was not.”

“Well, I scanned some of the unrelated stuff.” He rolled the paper out of the typewriter and leaned back on the sofa. “Did you have a nice time?”

“I had a great time. Will we need this typewriter anymore? I’d like to put it away before somebody trips on the cord.”

“Here, let me.” Sid got up and grabbed it.


“I got it out. I can put it away.” Which he did.

I shook my head. “It’s my turn to be confused. Why are you being so helpful?”

“Aren’t I normally?”

“Very helpful. It’s just… You didn’t have to help out at the store. Why did you?”

“I haven’t the faintest idea, really.” Sid looked at me and smiled. “It seemed better than sitting around watching you work, and there really wasn’t anything else to do.” He shrugged.

“I want you to know how much I appreciate it, and the transcribing, too.”

“You’re welcome. Shall we get some work done?”

I checked the front hallway. My mother was busy in the kitchen.

“I’ve got some other work for us to ponder.” I pulled the scrap of cloth from my pocket.


“Motley found it in this clearing I like. He was really excited about being there, and it suddenly dawned on me that Murray showed me the place originally. It’s not a bad place for a secret rendezvous, even at night. It looks out over the valley. The trees screen any noise, and people can’t see you from the trail. And it’s only about a ten-minute walk from the nearest road.”

Sid mused. “Less if you’re driving.”

“Not really. The trail’s not wide enough for a four by four. You might make it on a dirt bike, but they’re awful noisy for a secret meeting, and there are too many people around who would raise cain. I found the scrap in a bush that had been flattened, possibly by a fight. Things looked a little scuffed up there. The question is, does that scrap match what Murray was wearing when you found him?”

“Nope. He had red and black on.” Sid looked the scrap over. “This is not an unusual pattern.”

“You said it.” I took it back. “I would have written it off as a clumsy hiker except Motley was so wild about it. And it still doesn’t answer anything about Della’s killer.”

“Somebody tall.” Sid sat down in the easy chair and leaned back.

“Fletcher Haddock.”

“That’s right. He is.” Sid mulled that over. “And if what you told me is true, he was very anxious to get into that suite.”

I flopped onto the sofa. “That had nothing to do with Della.”

“Maybe. Maybe not.” Sid got up and prowled. “Young Lothario seems to be oddly persistent in his chase.”

“I don’t think it’s so odd,” I said, playing miffed. “Don’t you think my own particular charm warrants that kind of fascination?”

“It does indeed.” Sid smiled his little smile that never fails to stir me up. “But even I know when to quit trying.”

I snorted. “If you’ve quit, I haven’t noticed.”

“You haven’t given me the brush off. You did give it to Mr. Haddock in no uncertain terms, at least that’s the impression I got.”

“You got the right one.” I noticed Sid watching me. “What are you looking at?”

“I have just now remembered that you do owe me something.”

“Where did that come from?”

“Absolutely nowhere.”

The next thing I knew, and I have no idea how he did it, I was on my back, pinned underneath him.

“Sid,” I yelped. I started to tuck my feet under my seat, but Sid’s hand gently pushed them back down.

“No need for that,” he said, mischief gleaming in his eyes.

“What are you doing?”

“Well, you were concerned about all the uncompensated work I did at your father’s store, and there was a little something you more or less promised me Friday afternoon.”


His lips found mine in a sweet, warm, luscious, comfortable kiss. All too soon it was over.

“Oh, that,” I whispered. I gazed into his eyes. “Is this your idea of getting even?”

His grin turned sly. “No. This is.”

He moved fast, and before I could get my teeth closed, I was all but choking on his tongue. He knows I hate French kissing. It wasn’t that bad, but I tucked my feet up under my seat to let him know he was going over if he kept it up any longer than I was willing to let him.

“What the hell is going on here?” Daddy’s voice, thick with anger, split my ears.

I bucked. Sid went head first into the arm of the sofa, and as I tried to get as far away from him as possible, we both went over into the coffee table. Papers went flying. Sid got untangled first. I scrambled up, wiping my mouth, and faced my father.

“Nothing, Daddy,” I said quickly.

“Nothing, my ass!” Daddy started towards Sid. “If I ever catch you-”

That did it.

“It doesn’t make a damn bit of difference what you catch me doing,” I yelled at Daddy, stepping in front of him. “In case you haven’t noticed, I am over age. I am a full-grown woman, and I will do what I please, including work for Sid. It’s my decision, not yours. And while I’m at it, will you get it through your thick skull that he is not going to rape or seduce me, and I am not sleeping with him, nor will I be sleeping with him unless we are married, which is pretty darned unlikely. I might also add that if I do decide to sleep with him, that is my decision, not yours. In fact, none of what I do with Sid is any of your business, so butt out!”

Daddy stood there, his mouth hanging open like a twenty-pound trout that couldn’t believe it had gotten caught. I had never, ever, in my entire life, yelled at him like that. Unable to speak, he stumbled out of the living room. I fumed in the silence that followed.

“Thanks for defending me,” said Sid finally.

I turned on him. “If you ever embarrass me like that in front of my family again, so help me, I’ll-”

“Wait just one minute here.” Sid glared at me. “Just because you’re mad at your father is no reason to take it out on me.”

“But I am mad at you, Sid. You should know better than to pull a stupid stunt like that.”

“Aw, for crying out loud. We both knew it wasn’t going anywhere. I thought we were past that nonsense.”

“That nonsense has nothing to do with it. We are in my parents’ house and my parents are here. Daddy doesn’t like you as it is. Do you have to make it worse?”

“We were just rough housing.”

“You know darned well what was going on on that sofa would not look like roughhousing to an uninformed spectator.”

“I kissed you and he caught us. Big deal. As you pointed out, we are not horny teenagers. We are adults, and if he can’t accept the fact that there’s nothing going on between us, then it’s his problem. Even if there was something going on, it’s his problem.”

“But, Sid…”

“Lisa, I have dealt with many, many irate fathers in my time. There isn’t a thing you can do about them.”

“You’re not even trying.”

“There is no point in trying. Don’t you understand? As far as he’s concerned, I am moving in on his little girl, and he’s got to protect you. Men like that do not see reason.”

“You don’t have to write him off so quickly,” I sobbed. “Can’t you see how much your problem with him is hurting me?”

“Why? It has nothing to do with you, per se. It’s between him and me.”

“Didn’t it ever occur to you that it tears me apart to see the two men I care about most in the world at each other’s throats?”

Sid did the trout bit himself for a moment. I sniffed as the tears rolled down my cheeks.

“Do you really have that much invested in me?” he asked softly.

“Yes,” I whispered, flushing.
He sighed and looked around the room with darting glances. His gaze finally fell on me, full of tenderness. He came over.

“Sid…” I backed up.

“I seriously doubt your father will come back in here any too soon.”

“Probably not.” I sniffed and laughed at the same time.

Sid pulled me into his arms and we held each other. He kissed my hair.

“Lisa, I am trying. But I can’t change who I am, and that is the larger part of what your father finds fault with.”

“Not really,” I said and squeezed him. “He’s never liked any male I’ve gotten close to. If you could just talk to him.”

“I doubt he’d listen.”

“He will. I asked him last night to talk to you. He said he would.”

“Alright. I’ll talk to him. But I’m not making any promises.”

“Lisa, Sid. Oh!” Mama stopped in the doorway.

I pulled away quickly. “No, Mama. It’s not what you think.”

Sid bent and picked up the coffee table and the papers.

“I heard some yelling.” Mama smiled, completely flustered. “And after what your Daddy said, Lisle, I…”

“We were just joking around,” I said. “And Daddy took it wrong.”

“Lisle, we’ll talk about that later. Lunch is ready.”

“Oh, good.” Sid straightened.

We followed her into the kitchen.

“There’s sandwiches on the table,” said Mama.

“Thanks,” said Sid, calm as ever.

Mama sighed. “Are you two alright?”

“Fear not, Althea. All is resolved.” Sid sat down at a place setting and served himself.

“I just hope Lisa isn’t in any trouble.”

Sid laughed. “No, but I was for a few minutes there.”

Mama did the trout bit.

“That was hardly the first fight we’ve had, Mama,” I said, getting the milk out of the refrigerator.

“We fight all the time,” said Sid. “And speaking of, that’s not whole milk, is it?”

“Low fat,” I shot back. “Think you can compromise for a change?”

Sid rolled his eyes. “I suppose I’ll have to.”

“Lisle,” hissed my mother.

Sid caught it and grinned. “Relax, Althea. I am not going to fire your daughter for insubordination. Rather, I encourage it and the ongoing, if occasionally intense, open communication we enjoy.”

“Where’s Daddy?” I asked, trying to change the subject.

“He went back to the store after he ate.” Mama glanced at Sid. “Like I said, Lisle, I want to talk to you about that later.”

“Don’t let me stop you,” said Sid. “There’s not much about your little girl I don’t already know.”

Mama laughed weakly. “I’m sure that’s true, Sid, but I’d still prefer to talk to Lisa privately.”

“Can I eat first?” I asked plaintively.

“Of course, honey.” Mama smiled and shook her head as I sat down and helped myself. “I know better than to keep you from your food. I swear, between you and your daddy, my food bill’s been miserable. You know, Sid, when Mae moved out, the food bill stayed the same. When Lisa moved out, it dropped a full third.”

“The dear girl has the appetite of a locust,” Sid replied, smiling.

“She most certainly does.” Mama gazed at the refrigerator. “She and her daddy have darned near emptied that already, and I filled it Monday. With Mae and Neil and the kids coming tomorrow, I’m going to have to go shopping this afternoon, and I’ve got cookies to bake for the kids.”

“You want me to help, Mama?” I asked.

“Do I detect an ulterior motive?” Sid sniggered.

“Not originally,” I replied. “But now that you mention it, I could see myself noshing on a little cookie dough. Maybe I’ll go ahead and make my famous chocolate chip cookies.”

“Ugh,” said Sid.

“You might like these. I make them with whole wheat.”

Sid shook his head. “No thanks. I never did like sweets.”

“Lisle, if you don’t mind coming to the grocery store with me, I’d like the company,” said Mama. “That is, if Sid doesn’t need you here.”

“I don’t know,” said Sid thoughtfully. “Think you could handle my company also?”

“Oh, Sid, you don’t have to,” Mama said, glowing.

“Of course not. That’s part of what makes it such a pleasure.” He got up and picked up his empty plate and glass. “The other part is the pure joy of spending the afternoon under the influence of your maternal charm.”

Mama laughed. “Young man, you and your snake oil. Now, here, let me take those.”

“Nah. Got to pay my room and board somehow.”

I hurried up and finished eating, and between the three of us, we had everything cleaned up in record time. In the meantime, Sid and Mama got into an extended discussion about menu planning. While food is one of my preferred topics, I much prefer eating it to talking about it. So as Sid and Mama put together the grocery list, I sat out on the back porch trying to piece things together. I didn’t get very far.

The trip to the store was a lot of fun. Poor Mama is on Sid’s side when it comes to healthy food, but she also likes indulging me when I’m home, so she made a point of distracting Sid several times while I stashed a few goodies in the basket. It was all but overflowing when we got to the check out counter.

“Well, hello, Althea.” The blonde checker was overly made up and closer to my mother’s age and had probably been at the store since she graduated from high school.

Sid perused the magazine rack at the end of the aisle.

“Howdy, Shireen. How are you?” Mama helped me empty the contents of the cart onto the conveyor.

Shireen looked at all the groceries. “Good heavens, Althea, what’s all this for?” She noticed me and laughed. “Well, I’d heard Lisa was in town.”

I flushed. Mama’s smile grew tight.

“Mae and her family will be here, too,” she said pleasantly. “They’re coming for the weekend.”

“How nice. Too bad about all that trouble you people are having.” Shireen’s fingers danced across the keys of the register. “All that business in Nevada, and now Murray. It sure is funny how Lisa’s boss seems to be in the middle of it all.” She glanced over at Sid, then lowered her voice. “Is that him?”

“Yes,” said Mama.

“He is something.” Shireen paused to look up the code for a bunch of kale, then gave me a meaningful look. “Almost makes you believe all the rumors.”

“Shireen, he has been a perfect gentleman,” said Mama, sounding cross. “It’s all just jealous talk, and nothing more. And the police say the two murders might be connected, so it’s no surprise Sid and Lisa have something to do with both of them.”

Sid ambled up, reaching for his back pocket. “Althea, can-”

My foot put gentle, but obvious pressure on his. He looked at me funny for a second, but shut up. While Mama paid for the groceries, he dropped a ladies magazine on the conveyor belt. Shireen gave him a puzzled look.

“What’s in that one?” I asked.

“The mutual funds how to.” Sid got out his wallet. “I could use an extra set of tear sheets of that one.”

“Is that one of the articles you wrote?” Mama asked.

“Yeah,” said Sid.

“You really are a writer?” asked Shireen. “That’ll be two dollars and seven cents.”

Sid handed her a twenty. “Yep.”

Shireen handed him his change with less lust and more admiration. Sid basically ignored her.

Mama was steaming by the time we all got back in the jeep. But Sid pulled out the magazine, which as he expected, got her interested in the article. It turned out she had the magazine at home and had even read the article and hadn’t noticed who wrote it. Sid ribbed her gently about not reading by-lines, then confessed he didn’t always pay attention either.

He also ribbed us about poisoning innocent children as we made cookies and refused to lift a finger to help.

“It goes against my morals,” he explained.

“Since when do you have any?” I teased back.

“Lisle!” hissed Mama.

“Mama, I know Sid has morals,” I said. “I was just teasing him because they’re so different.”

Mama sighed. “It doesn’t make any difference to me what Sid’s morals are. Some things you just don’t talk about in mixed company. ‘Tisn’t nice.”

Sid let out an exaggerated sigh. “Well, if we can’t talk about that, what will we talk about?”

Mama gasped, then laughed. “You are just terrible. I’m beginning to understand why Lisa yells at you.”

Sid laughed himself and got the lettuce out of the refrigerator.

“May as well get the jump on dinner,” he said. “What do you think about capers in the salad, too, Althea?”

Between the two of them, all I had to do was watch, which was fine with me. Daddy came in just after six. By that time dinner was ready, so he didn’t notice that Sid had done as much of the cooking as Mama. The last thing we needed was for him to call Sid a sissy.

I was really nervous about Daddy, but he acted as if nothing had happened. He talked about the store and Les Stevens.

“Alice came in early, too,” Daddy said as we finished eating.

“I wonder why,” I said.

“Just trying to be helpful, I expect,” said Daddy. “Practically took over the stock. Unpacked that whole shipment from yesterday and went through it extra careful.”

“No kidding,” said Sid. Our eyes met.

“Well, that was very nice of her,” said Mama. “It’s a good thing she’s trying to get started right with Les. You know how fond she was of Murray. Of course, Murray was always good with teens. But Alice and him were real good friends.”

“Really now,” I said.

Sid and I glanced at each other. We both had a pretty good idea of what Alice had really been doing.

“So what all are we going to do tonight?” Mama asked, changing the subject.

Sid glanced at me. “Well, if it’s alright with you, Bill, I’d like to leave the ladies to themselves and have a quiet chat with you.”

Daddy looked at me, then Sid. “McKinley’s bar alright?”

“Sounds fine to me,” said Sid. “Tell you what. I’ll buy the beer.”

“Sounds like a plan.”

They left right after dinner in the pickup truck.

“I hope it works,” said Mama, stacking dirty dishes next to the sink.

“So do I.” I grabbed the dishrag and wiped off the table.

“He was pretty upset by what you said to him this afternoon.” Mama ran hot water into the sink. “I can’t say he didn’t deserve it, but I do wish you’d found another way to say it.”

“He made me mad. I wish he could get it into his head that Sid and I are friends and that’s all.” I moodily tossed the rag into the sink. “I wish a lot of people would.”

“Like Shireen.” Mama set to washing the dishes.

“Yeah. Like Shireen. It was so obvious she thought Sid and I are…  You know.”

“Doing what married people do.”

“Yeah.” I got a towel and started drying. “They just can’t believe that Sid and I are friends and that we don’t have that kind of relationship. Maybe it’s because we’re so close. I can talk to Sid and just be myself in a way that I’ve never been able to before. It means a lot to me and it hurts when people insist on jumping to the wrong conclusion.”

“Well, honey, people just don’t understand that a man and a woman can have a real relationship without all that. It’s a powerful urge.”

“Believe me, I know, Mama.” I dried a plate thoughtfully. “Mama? Do you and Daddy still..?”

“Still what, honey?”

“Still do what married people do?” I flushed. I don’t know why I wanted to know. I guess it was all the snide comments Sid had made about my father, and I wasn’t sure even if I did want to know.

Mama just smiled and glowed warmly. “Oh, of course. I don’t think we’ll ever stop. It just keeps getting better and better. That’s because your daddy and I keep falling more and more in love with each other. I tell you, Lisle, when I first married your daddy, I didn’t think I could love him any more than I did then. Now I know all I can do is love him more.” She paused, then looked at me. “And I want to tell you, Lisle. I know of no greater pleasure than making love to your daddy.”

“Oh.” I quickly dried the plate again.

Mama laughed softly. “I didn’t mean to embarrass you, honey. But I wanted you to know that. Married love is a very beautiful thing and I want you to have an idea of how beautiful it is for those times when you get tempted. And I know you do. It’s only natural. Sid is a very attractive man. Lord knows, he even tempts me sometimes.”

“He hasn’t tried to…”

“No!” Mama went back to the dishes. “He’s been a perfect gentleman.”

“He’d better be.”

“Of course, that’s probably part of the attraction.”

I did the trout bit. “Mama!”

We looked at each other, then burst into laughter.

We had finished cleaning up and were playing gin in the living room when the phone rang. Mama got up for it. The phone is in the hall next to the kitchen, so I couldn’t hear anything. I leaned back on the sofa and scratched Motley. Murbles and Richmond came up for their share of the affection.

“Lisle,” called Mama, hurrying in. “We’ve got to run. Sid and your daddy are in the middle of the biggest fight in years!”

“Oh my god!” I ran to my room and got my purse.

Mama had our coats in the front hallway. I dug for my keys as we ran out to the garage.

“I’ll drive,” I said, climbing behind the jeep’s steering wheel. I had it started before Mama was settled in her seat.

“I just can’t figure out what went wrong,” groaned Mama as I backed down the driveway.

“I have no idea. Sid just isn’t going to get violent unless he’s attacked.”

“Your daddy’s not going start anything unless he really lost his temper. I hope he’s not hurting Sid too badly.”

“I doubt it.” I shuddered. “Sid’s probably hurting him. He’s a lot tougher than he looks. Oh no. Maybe Daddy called him gay. Sid really doesn’t like it when a straight calls him gay.”

“Well, he knows Sid isn’t. Landsakes, with the way people have been talking, it’s only obvious.
“I don’t know what else could have started it unless Sid got crass and that’s what made Daddy mad.”

“I don’t know, honey.”

[I will now interject my recollection of what occurred at the bar. Neither the talk, or what happened afterwards, will soon be forgotten.

“Bottle or draft?” I asked Bill as we went in.

There was an awkward pause as Bill looked me over. We hadn’t really said anything on the way over beyond the usual trite observations on the weather. The bartender settled it.

“Howdy, Bill,” he called and waved. “Guinness Stout?”


“What’s your friend having?” The bartender gave me a shrewd once over. “Corona with lime?”

The regulars sitting at the bar watched. In fact, almost everyone in the room had their eyes on me one way or another. It wasn’t all that bad a guess, but I was not in a yuppy mood that night.

I shook my head. “You got Harp?”

The bartender looked surprised. “Afraid not.”

“Guinness Stout, then.”

“It’s bottled.”

“What’s on tap?”


I stifled the gag. “Stout, please. I’m buying for the two of us.”

Bill went off and found us a table in a quiet corner. The bartender got out the two bottles and a pair of mugs then took my money. I left a good tip in consolation. The regulars shook their heads and muttered amongst themselves. One young fellow went straight for the phone.

“Where’d you pick up a taste for Guinness?” I asked Bill as I sat down.

“Malcolm O’Malley.” Bill poured along the side of the glass. “Neil’s daddy. We were friends in college. Malcolm’s got family in England.”

I nodded. I poured my stout trying to find the right words to say. Strangely enough, I wasn’t getting much from Bill. (What’s strange about that? Daddy never was one to volunteer anything – ljw)

“Look, Bill,” I said slowly. “I realize there are a few differences in our respective philosophies and values. But I’d like to come to some sort of an understanding, seeing as though it looks like we’re going to be thrown together periodically. For Lisa’s sake.”

He glared at me. I went back over my words, wondering what the hell I’d said. He noticed.

“I guess you don’t realize, I had a talk like this with Neil some years back,” he growled. “And he started it just about the same way. Two days later, he and Mae were engaged.”

I laughed. “That is not going to happen, Bill. Lisa was telling the truth. There is nothing going on between us, at least nothing she doesn’t think should be.”

“What about you?”

I chose my words carefully. “Well, you have to understand, I was raised very differently than most people. I was taught that there’s nothing wrong with sex, or that it should be limited to any special context beyond free consent. I was also taught that marriage is a lie. Now I know you and Lisa don’t agree. I respect that. I just ask that you give me the same respect.”

“I’ll admit I’m a little worried about yours, but it ain’t values.” Bill sighed. “I don’t suppose you know much about being a father.”

“I, uh, made a point of surgically preventing that possibility some years ago.”

Bill nodded. “That would be the smart thing to do. What do you see when you look at Lisa?”

“I see a remarkable, talented, beautiful woman. She’s very caring, very efficient. I don’t mind admitting I’m very fond of her.”

“But you see her as a woman.”

“She is.”

Bill sighed. “She is at that, and a fine one, too. But when I look at her, I see a whole lot more than you ever could. I see a sixteen-year-old girl crying because she just missed getting on the pep squad. I see her heartbroken when some boyfriend of hers would break up with her and forget to tell her. I see a twelve-year-old girl who was up half the night working on a composition, making it the very best she could to impress her English teacher. He told her it weren’t worth bothering with in front of the whole class. I remember a little six-year-old girl who didn’t understand why she couldn’t go out and play with the other children because she was still pretty sick and we couldn’t let her catch cold. Then there was the double pneumonia when she was seven. And when she was born, I’d wanted a boy. Told all my friends and relatives I was going to have a son. But when I saw her in that incubator, she was so tiny, only four and a half pounds, she was premature, you know. She weren’t supposed to make it. I tell you, Sid, there’s no worse feeling than watching your child suffer and knowing there ain’t a damn thing you can do to stop it.” Bill took a deep pull on his stout. “She’s been hurt so many times by boys that only wanted her body.”

“I value her for far, far more than that.”

“I suppose.” He glared at me again. “But you got the best shot at hurting her.”

“I’d never do that, at least not consciously.”

“It’s the unconscious part that bothers me. Believe me, I know how it could happen. You get close. You get the itch and catch her off guard.”

I chuckled to cover my discomfort. “We are very aware of that possibility. Nothing’s happened, and I don’t think it will. I won’t lie to you, Bill. I would very much like to make love to her, and if the time ever comes when she can freely give herself to me without any guilt feelings, I will not refuse her. But the key word is freely. She can’t now and maybe never will, and that’s fine with me. I’m very happy with the way things stand right now. That may surprise you. It sure as hell surprises me.”

“You ever think about marrying her?”

“Not really. She has told me that’s the only acceptable way for us to make love, but I can’t make that kind of commitment to her. She expects fidelity, which is fine for her, but I feel is a little unrealistic. Like I said, I was raised with the idea that marriage is a lie. And to be honest, I don’t think she really wants to make that commitment to me or anybody. She’s very content as a single person. She values her independence.”

Bill laughed quietly. “She always was her own woman, just like her mama.”

“And like her father?”

“Nah.” He shook his head. “I’m just bull-headed.” He sighed then looked at me. “I can’t say that I’ll ever stop worrying about you.”

I nodded. “That’s fair, I suppose, since I’m not about to marry Lisa.”

“Who said I stopped worrying about Neil?”

“You two get along really well.”

He shrugged. “I just got used to him.”

I had to laugh and lifted my mug. “Here’s to getting used to each other, no matter how long it takes.”

We clinked glasses and drank. Bill finished his off. There was some commotion at the door as six young toughs came in. Bill ignored them.

“What say I buy the next round,” he said.

“Sure. Thanks.”

However, before he could get up, the toughs came over, led by a punk in his early twenties, if that old. He was scrawny, with bushy brown hair, a red nose that ran, and an anxious look in his eyes. Antsy is the only way to describe his movements, his whole demeanor.

“You Sid Hackbirn?” he demanded, his voice just barely in control.

“Yes,” I replied, regretting Bill’s presence. I had my twenty-two on my shin, but using it would raise too many questions.

“What do you want, Donny Severn?” Bill asked, also on guard.

“He’s been fucking my girl!” Donny’s voice cracked.

“Have you?” Bill watched me, wondering.

I shrugged. “It’s possible. I’ve gotten quite a few offers, and if a woman is offering herself to me, then I assume it’s her responsibility if she’s in a relationship with someone else, and I don’t ask if she is.”

“I knew it!” Donny lunged at me.

Bill put his hand up and stopped him, then glared at me.

“Do you ask how old she is?” he asked.

“If there’s any doubt, I’ll card her.” I looked at Donny, wondering. “What’s your girlfriend’s name?”

“I don’t have to tell you shit, fuckface.”

I looked at Bill. “I did card Alice Martin.”

“You fuck!” Donny lunged again. “You did it! Admit it. You did it!”

Donny’s friends held him back that time.

I laughed. “If you think I fell for that phony ID, think again.”

“You lie. She said you did. She said you raped her in the back room.”

“I never touched her. Sorry, Donny, but it wasn’t me.”

Donny burst forward and got a hold of my shirt, swearing with a remarkably limited vocabulary. I rose as he pulled me up, then grabbed his wrists and pulled them from my shirt. He was taller than me by at least six inches, and also had the reach to go with it. Even if he wasn’t all there mentally, that antsy, almost manic, mood of his made him exceptionally dangerous.

“I am not a violent man,” I said, giving him a small shove backwards. “But do not do that again.”

Stevie Wonder could have seen Donny’s swing coming. I wondered if I should deck him, then decided to catch his hand instead. I dug my fingers into the tendons on top of his wrist. Donny winced and yanked himself free.

“You prick!” he yelled, backing into his friends. “Next time stick to fucking Lisa Wycherly. Or isn’t her cunt good enough? Is that why you fuck everyone else?”

Bill started out of his seat.

“Bill, I’ll take care of this.” I walked over to Donny, got my fingers in his hair, and slowly pulled his face down to mine. “If you want to pick a fight with me, then so be it. But leave Miss Wycherly out. Is that clear?”

Donny trembled and nodded. I shoved him into his friends and turned my back. I heard Donny coming. It was always possible he had a knife, so I swung around and put my elbow into his jaw. The knife dropped from his hand and slid under a table. Anger rippled through the five other toughs like a fire through brush. As Donny staggered back, they rushed me only to find that Bill was there, too. The fight was on – SEH]

A crowd had gathered at the door of the bar. Mama and I pushed our way through. All of a sudden, everyone backed away from the center of the fight.

“He’s got a knife!” someone screamed.

“Where’d that come from?” yelped someone else.

“Under the table,” replied a calmer voice.

I nearly landed on my face when I finally got through to the front. Donny Severn slashed at Sid, who dodged. The two circled each other. Sid’s eyes were fixed on Donny’s shoulders, watching for the next lunge. Donny feinted, then slashed the other way. Sid rolled, then bounced back as Donny recovered. I crossed myself on reflex.

Moisture shone on Sid’s forehead, but it was nothing compared to the sweat Donny had broken. Drops of perspiration flew as Donny lunged again, just barely missing. Another drop wiggled from the end of Donny’s red nose. Donny charged and the drop broke loose. Sid rolled away. They squared off again.

Donny feinted then slashed. Sid was ready and waiting. He rolled, then caught Donny’s knife hand. But Donny was wild and struggled hard. Sid clamped his other hand around Donny’s wrist, trying to force the knife free. He backed into Donny, who dropped his free arm around Sid’s neck and forced the point of the knife towards Sid’s belly. The two strained until Sid slammed his foot onto Donny’s.

Donny howled. Within seconds, Sid had forced the knife free. He whipped around and put Donny out for the count with a strong left in Donny’s ear.

“Bill!” Mama cried.

She ran over to where Daddy stood gasping. He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, and I just barely noticed the dark stain. Sid, gasping, leaned his head back for a moment, then staggered towards Daddy. Blood dripped from his nose. Behind me, I could hear the police fighting their way through the crowd.

Daddy met Sid in the center of the room and shook his hand. Then he leaned on Sid’s shoulder and doubled over, hugging his aching ribs.

Daddy is not a brawler, but this wasn’t the first time he’d been caught in a fight. With him being so large and keeping himself up like he does, there are those who think it’s fun to take him on. The police officers knew Daddy, and there were plenty of witnesses happily swearing that Donny and his friends had started all the trouble and that Daddy and Sid were only fighting in self-defense. Not that witnesses were needed. The officers were perfectly happy to bust Severn and company.

Mama got Daddy into the truck, while I took Sid back in the jeep. We put them in the kitchen and tended to the wounds there.

“You boys ought to be ashamed of yourselves,” said Mama, as she wrapped Daddy’s chest with an ace bandage. “I don’t care what everyone was saying, there had to be a peaceful way of settling things.”

“And I tried every one,” said Sid.

He winced as I cleaned around his rapidly swelling left eye.

“Did you lose your contact lens?” I asked.


“That Donny Severn’s just a hothead,” grumbled Daddy.

“He’s more than that,” said Sid. “Unless I miss my guess, he’s hooked on coke.”

“Coke?” asked Mama. “I suppose you could be, but soda pop sure seems like a funny thing to be addicted to.”

“Mama,” I groaned, dropping ice cubes into a plastic bag. “Cocaine.”

“Oh, landsakes! What was I thinking of?” Mama paused. “But Sid, what makes you think that?”

I tied the plastic bag shut and wrapped it in a towel.

“His nice red nose and chronic sinus condition,” Sid replied casually, as he let me lay the improvised ice bag on his eye.

“That could be just a cold,” said Mama.

“Not really,” said Sid. “He was too antsy and anxious for a fight.”

“Well, you fixed him,” Daddy chuckled. “Would you believe, Althea, the wimp throws one hell of a punch.”

He does, too, and I know from personal experience. We were working out together one morning at the martial arts dojo we go to and Sid accidentally clipped me in the head. It felt roughly like being hit by a truck.

“Feeling dizzy?” I asked him softly.

“Not at all.”

“You hurt anyplace else?”

“Nope. Got it all in my face.”

“Bill always gets it in the chest,” said Mama. “That’s because he’s so tall.”

Finished with Daddy, she began picking up. I helped Sid out of the chair, and put my arm around his shoulders.

“I’m alright,” he grumbled, trying to pull away. “I can walk by myself.”

“You don’t have to,” I snipped. “So don’t.”

He gave in and I helped him into his room and shut the door as he eased himself onto the bed.

“Your observation regarding Donny is pretty interesting,” I said quietly.

“Indeed, it is.” Sid nodded. “Especially when you consider he’s very close to Alice.”

“He is?”

“There’s apparently some sort of relationship. That’s what the whole brouhaha was about. Alice had told him I’d practically raped her in the back room of the store and he was there to avenge her honor.”

“Curiouser and curiouser.”

“You said it.”

“But where does Donny fit in?”

Sid shrugged as well as he could. “I wish I knew. I’d really like to talk to him.”

“Unless you’ve decided to blow our cover, that will not be easy.”

“We’ll see.” Sid mused. “There are ways.”

I nodded. “I’ll bet. By the way, did you and Daddy get a chance to talk?”

“We even achieved a truce of sorts.” He smiled at me. “Your father is naturally worried because he can’t keep you safe in the fold, and as far as I’m concerned, he’s fully aware of the potential for disaster. In a way, I know how he feels.”

“What do you mean?”

“How many times have I had to come to your rescue when your date got fresh and you ditched him?”

I blushed. “Not that many.”

“But, Lisa, you are very good at getting yourself in over your head.” He smiled and reached out for my hand. I gave it to him and he squeezed it gently.

“You know me,” I said awkwardly. “I trust people, that’s all.”

“I know.” Sid sighed. “In some ways, I’d rather you didn’t. But you trusted me, and it’s made all the difference.” He looked away sadly.

“What’s wrong?”

His gaze settled on me. “I was just thinking about the fight.”

I nodded. “I thought I heard Daddy mumble something Severn talking dirty and you defending my honor. What was that all about?”

“That.” Grunting, Sid got up. “Severn just had a few nasty things to say and I let him know I was not going to tolerate it.”

“Is that when you hit him?”

“No. I waited until he attacked me.”

“Oh.” I sighed and looked away.

“What’s the matter?”

“Nothing. I just… I was wondering if you were standing up for me to impress Daddy.”

Sid smiled and put his hands on my shoulders. “For all I want to make peace, I’m not going to start a barroom brawl to impress your father. Severn’s remarks were grossly inaccurate, and while I did not want to fight him, I was not about to let them pass.” He looked into my eyes, his own bright blue ones full of warmth. “Lisa, I have a lot invested in you, too.”

I smiled, my heart pounding. “Thanks. I needed to hear that.”

He gave me a quick hug and released me. “Goodnight, Lisa.”

“Goodnight, Sid.”


Chapter Six

September 20, 1983


Sid came with me to the store that morning. He didn’t say so, but I got the feeling that he didn’t want to be around my father any more than he had to, and certainly not at all without me around. Motley came too.

Sid came dressed to work in a light blue chambray work shirt and his tight jeans. Mama and I had both told him not to worry about it, but he insisted. A big shipment had come in on Monday and I hadn’t gotten that much done on the stockroom shelves.

As I unlocked the back door, Motley squeezed past me and went straight to the rough cellar door. I turned on the lights as he whined and scratched at it.

“What’s that all about?” Sid asked.

“Beats me.” I dropped my purse on the desk and dug out the bug finder. “He did that several times yesterday, too.”

“What’s behind the door?” Sid walked over to the door.

“Desperation storage. It’s basically just a hole in the ground lined with boards.” I turned the bug finder on. Nothing.

“Phew!” Sid wrinkled his nose. “Smells like something died down there.”

“Probably a rat. It’s happened before.” I aimed the bug finder into the main store. Still nothing. “We’re clean.” I looked around the room. “We got the summer stuff down yesterday. Why don’t you unpack those boxes from yesterday and pack the summer stuff in there? Wait. We’ve got to check it against the packing slip and then the order.”

Sid pulled a plastic envelope off of one of the cases.

“Let me guess. You unpack something, find it on here and check it off.”

I grinned. “After counting to make sure you have as many as you’re supposed to unless there’s a back order, which should be noted on the packing slip.” I checked my watch. “I’d better get the money in the register and go open. I can do the balance up front.”

Sid went to work. At ten thirty, UPS came and delivered six more large cases. Sid shook his head.

“Where are you going to put all this stuff?” he asked as the brown van drove off.

“Why don’t you put the summer stuff in the cellar when you’re done packing it? That will get it out of the way at least until we can get the rest of this squared away.”

Sid folded his arms and grinned. “Why do I get the feeling you’re trying to get me to take care of that rat?”

I shrugged. “Just because I don’t like corpses.”

I went out front and Sid went back to work.

Shortly before noon, Alice Martin wandered in.

“How’s it going?” she asked, smiling and leaning on the counter.

“Fine.” I smiled back. “What are you doing here today?”

“Just thought I’d say hi.”

“Don’t you have school?”

“I got a lunch pass.”


It puzzled me that Alice would suddenly be so friendly. But I didn’t get much time to think about it. Sid came in from the stockroom.

“You’d better call the police,” he said grimly.

“Why?” I asked.

“There is something dead in your cellar, but it’s not a rat. Personally, I’m betting it’s Murray.”

“Oh my god,” I gasped.

“What?” screeched Alice. “Are you sure?”

Sid shook his head. “I have no way of knowing.” Which wasn’t the truth, as I found out a minute later. “I’ve never seen the man. Lisa, maybe you-”

“No,” I snapped. “I’m sorry, Sid, but please don’t make me. I can’t.”

Alice bolted for the stockroom.

“It’s just a dead body,” said Sid, ignoring her. “It can’t do anything to you.”

“I know.” I swallowed. “You can’t handle plumbing. I can’t handle stiffs. We all have our little weaknesses.”

“Alright.” He lowered his voice. “He looks like he’s been dead long enough to have been killed Friday, which was the last time anyone saw him, I believe.”

“Any hints as to what killed him?”

“A nice bloody soft spot on the side of his head.”

“Oh, great.” I crossed myself as I sank onto the stool behind the register.

“And unless somebody switched wallets, that’s Murray down there.”

I gagged. “You searched him?”

“It wasn’t fun, but yes. We can’t count on getting stuff from the police and every little bit helps.”

“You’re right.” I picked up the phone and dialed. “You were lying for Alice about not recognizing him, weren’t you?”

“In a manner of speaking. We can’t afford to look too competent.”

Alice cursed loudly from the stockroom.

“I’d better check on her,” said Sid.

They came out as I was hanging up the phone. I picked it up again and dialed the front desk at my parents’ place. Alice looked a little pale and a little excited.

“It’s him,” she whispered. She was obviously shook but also looking forward to telling her friends all about it.

Mary answered at the desk and complained that Daddy was somewhere about the place, and couldn’t I call back, and what kind of emergency was it, and oh alright, she’d try to find him. It took less than a minute.

“Hello?” asked Daddy’s gravelly voice.

“Daddy, it’s me. You’d better come down to the store right away.” I paused. “We’ve found Murray.”

“That’s good. Where’s he been?”

“In the rough cellar. He’s dead, Daddy.”

There was a long pause. “I’ll be right down.”

The police and the ambulance arrived a minute or two later. Sid took them back. I had to stay up front. The detectives were very interested to find Sid involved but upon questioning him, decided that it was a coincidence. They were very nice about the whole thing really.

The morgue wagon showed up, then Daddy drove up just as the lab truck did. I was being questioned about how I found the store Saturday. Detective Simons was none too pleased when he found out Sid and I had rearranged everything.

“We had no way of knowing,” I said. “Everything looked like it normally does, except that one shelf was messed up. But there was nothing strange about it.”

“Alright.” Simons sighed and nodded at the woman from the lab. “We’ll have to get prints from you and your friend and anyone else who has a legitimate reason to be here.” He looked up. “Afternoon, Mr. Wycherly. You down here for any particular reason?”

“Same reason as you, I expect,” Daddy said. He wrinkled his nose. “It sure smells in here.”

“We’ve got the doors open, Daddy,” I said.

“Get on one of them down vests, Lisle. It’s pretty chilly in here.”

“All clear out there?” called someone from the back. “We’re bringing him through the front.”

“Why?” Simons called back.

“We can’t get the gurney around the shelves back here.”

I just saw the edge of it, gasped and, trembling, turned my back. Daddy came up and hugged me.

“Honey, y’all can’t see anything. He’s in a bag.”

“I don’t care,” I sniffed. “It’s just too… weird.”

Daddy held me close and patted my back.

“Mr. Wycherly, can I ask you a few questions?” asked Simons.

Daddy looked at me. “They got him in the wagon. You gonna be okay?”

I nodded.

Daddy went with Simons over to the other side of the register. I could see another detective questioning Alice next to the front door. She still looked excited and pleased by the attention, but I also got the feeling she didn’t like talking to the police. Passersby on the street stopped and stared. I’d closed the store as soon as the police had arrived, so no one came in. Sid slipped up to my side.

“What’s going on in the back?” I asked.

“The usual. Photos, dusting for prints.” He shook his head. “I hope they don’t send ours in.”


“Funny messages pop up when they do, and it will completely blow your cover as a nice local girl gone to work for the writer in the city.”

I swallowed. “They want to take ours.”

“Then we’d better hope they find prints that don’t belong, or it’s going to be pretty interesting.” His eyes landed on Alice. “I don’t know about her. I could have sworn I saw her searching Murray’s body.”


Sid shrugged. “It’s possible she wasn’t.”

“Today’s her day off, too. But she was pretty surprised when Murray turned up.”

“And I don’t think she faked it either.”

“Oh, my god. I’ve got to call Rita.” I picked up the phone and pulled it around the stockroom door to the phone list.

She answered in two rings.

“It’s Lisa, Rita. This is really weird. Murry turned up dead in the rough cellar.”

“Oh, the poor thing.”

“Yeah, well, the police are here now and it looks like they’ll be here for a while. Anyway, they said something about taking everybody’s fingerprints, so you may as well come on down. I don’t know if we’ll be open tonight.”

“I hope not.” Rita paused. “I’ll go ahead and leave now. Poor Murray. Do they know how he died yet?”

“I haven’t the faintest,” I lied. The last thing we needed was to hint to anyone that we might have some experience dealing with stiffs.

“Well, see you in a few.”

We all got fingerprinted shortly after I hung up, and then it was mostly just waiting around. Alice tried to stay.

“I can help put things away in the stockroom,” she said.

“The police aren’t going to want us messing around in there,” growled Daddy.  “Now, you get on back to school.”

“Yes, Mr. Wycherly.” Downcast, Alice left.

Rita watched her go. “She sure has been hanging around a lot. She came in last night, too. Said she wanted to know if we’d heard from Murray.”

“Hm.” My eyes met Sid’s briefly.

“I guess I’ll be taking off myself.” Rita adjusted her purse on her shoulder.

“Thanks for coming down, Rita,” said Daddy.

“Anytime, Bill.” Rita left quickly.

Sullen, Daddy stepped into the stockroom and looked around.

“Did you get those shelves straight, Lisle?”

“Sid did, Daddy. He’s been working really hard and got a lot done. We’re almost ahead of things back there.”

Daddy looked at Sid, then ambled to the front door.

“Sid did, Daddy.” Sid mimicked me in a sour voice. “Will you please quit trying to sell him on me? If the man doesn’t like me, there’s not much I can do.”

“But, Sid-”

“Never mind.”

My stomach growled loudly.

“Is that you?” asked Sid.

I checked my watch. “Yeah. It’s way past lunchtime.”

Motley whined from his corner by the register, where he’d stayed the whole time. I went over and cuddled him.

“Oh, you poor baby,” I crooned. “Your master’s dead. What are we going to do about you?”

“I probably shouldn’t,” sighed Sid. “But I’ll call Whiteman about him.”

Whiteman is Sid’s lawyer.

“You will?” I asked, smiling happily.

“I’m not saying we’re keeping him. I merely want to know our legal position, just in case.”

Daddy came up. “I’m going to see about getting some lunch from the deli. What y’all want?”

I got a cold cut sub. Sid opted for a six-inch turkey sub. While Daddy was gone, Sid called Whiteman. The lawyer said that since dogs are considered property who had rights to the dog all depended on whether or not Murray had left a will. In the meantime, we should inform the police that we had the dog and would continue caring for it until a decision could be made. I looked at Sid. We didn’t say anything, but we both had a strong feeling Motley would soon be residing with us.

A twelve-case shipment arrived from Sunland Products around two. The police worked around it. Motley sniffed at each of the boxes. I chuckled and nudged Sid.

“I know,” replied Sid. “He did that this morning to the UPS stuff.”

“He did that to the other cases, too.”

Motley scratched at a box and whined. Sid and I looked at each other. I called Motley off.

“He knew Murray was down in that cellar,” I muttered.

“I know. But we can’t do anything with all these cops around.”

So we waited. The police finally took off just after three. Daddy said he’d take off, too.

“We’ll try and get some of this straightened up,” I said.

“I’ll tell your Mama you’ll be home by six,” said Daddy. He left.

Sid already had the box knife out and ripped into the box Motley had scratched. It was filled with smaller boxes of trail food. Daddy stocks it year round for the snow packers, and he’s about the only one that does. Not that many people like to hike and camp out in eight feet of snow, but we get a lot of summer business from the ones that do and they bring their friends.

As Sid unpacked the boxes, he laid them out. Motley sniffed each one, then scratched at one that looked remarkably like the one Della had dropped in my purse. Sid opened it while I praised Motley.

“Well, what do you know,” said Sid, pulling out the plastic-wrapped white powder. “Old Motley here’s a coke sniffer.”

“Are you sure?”

Sid shrugged. “Well, I’ll have to run it through my kit, but I’d give good odds. It would appear there’s snow in Tahoe all year round.”

“Great. Now, what do we do?”

“Good question.” Sid tucked the plastic bag back into its box. “This could be a good motive for Murray’s murder.”

I grimaced. “It just doesn’t make sense. I’ve known him for years. The gambling I understood, but dealing coke?”

“His dog found the stuff and was obviously trained to do it. Who else in this store had more control over the stock?”

I sighed. “It’s from Sunland, too.”

“Wait a minute.” Sid got up from the floor and paced. “Maybe Della didn’t miss her connection, or rather she thought she’d made it.”

“What are you saying?”

“She connected you to this store almost immediately. And now that I think about it, she said she was surprised that I wasn’t doing drugs.”

“In other words, she dropped her package on me thinking I was the person she was to deliver it to.” I flopped into the desk chair. “So Murray must have been the connection. But why is he dead, too? And what does any of this have to do with stolen secrets?”

“Both excellent questions, my dear.” Sid thought. “However, the answers are beyond reach for the moment. We’d better get as much of this stuff put away as we can so your father doesn’t wonder why so little got done and jump to the wrong conclusion.”

I rolled my eyes. “Daddy knows I’m not going to do that.”

“Perhaps.” Sid looked me over with that hot little smile of his. “On the other hand, if there’s one thing your father and I have in common, it’s an acute awareness of just how much I want to make love to you.”

I looked away, flushing. “And he knows how much I don’t want to.”

“And how very much you do.”

He just being honest. But the words caught me funny. I was already getting hot and bothered as it was, and then to have to face it. I shoved through the cases looking for the packing slip.


“Sid, don’t.” I turned and looked at him with a weak smile. “We both know if I tried to compromise myself it wouldn’t work. There are times when I think I’m really being an uptight prude, and yet I know I have to accept you the way you are, and I do. It’s just that if we were sleeping together, it’d be awfully hard to accept your running around.”

“I wish I could understand that. It really wouldn’t mean anything.”

“Then why do it?”

“It’s a basic human need.”

“I seem to be doing fine without it.”

He smiled softly. “And I don’t understand that either. We’d better get to work.”

We made it home in plenty of time for dinner. Daddy was a little late.

“I was talking with Les Stevens,” he announced, sitting down.

“Oh, is that Darlene’s young man?” Mama asked happily. “Darlene is our new cook’s assistant, Sid. Her young man just graduated from Davis and wants to come live here in Tahoe to be near her, but hasn’t found a job yet.”

Sid nodded.

“So he’s going to take Murray’s place?” I asked.

“Yes.” Daddy smiled at me. “Unless you want to take the store yourself, Lisle.”

“Now, Bill, you shouldn’t joke like that,” said Mama with a quick smile although she knew as well as Sid and I did that Daddy wasn’t joking. “You know Lisle’s very happy working for Sid. Aren’t you, Lisle?”

“It’s great,” I said. “Sid’s a terrific guy to work for.”

Sid sent me a totally disgusted glance.

After dinner and clean up, I went out to the back porch where my father was on the wide steps. He looked briefly at me, then out again at the cabins and the starlit woods.

“Did the wimp take off again?” he asked.

“Daddy, do you have to?” I groaned.

“You’re not so old I’m gonna take back talk from you, young lady.”

“Sorry.” I plopped down next to him. “Sid went out.”

He hadn’t planned to, but apparently, our little discussion in the store about our mutual desires got him a little pent up.

“Where’d he go?”

“Beats me. I didn’t ask.”

There was a pause.

“When’s he coming back?”

“I don’t know. Probably late. I’ll wait up for him and lock up.”

Daddy snorted.

I took a deep breath. “Daddy, can I be honest with you?”

“Aw, Lisle, you know you can.”

“You haven’t been very nice to Sid.” I watched as he picked up a twig and shredded it. “I know you haven’t said anything to his face, but you do insinuate a lot, and you glare at him all the time. You’re really not being very fair to him.”

“Honey, you don’t understand.”

“I understand a lot, Daddy. Okay, his values are different than ours. You don’t have to agree with them or condone them. But you could try to come to some sort of an understanding with him.”

Daddy glared at his twig shreds. “What do you want me to do?”

“Talk. Just sit down and try to talk out your differences and be honest. I’m not saying you two should be buddies. I just hate all the tension when you two get together.”

Daddy tossed the shreds into the night. “If that’s what you want, I’ll see what I can do.”

“Thanks, Daddy.” I squeezed him and kissed his cheek. “I love you.”

“I love you, too, Lisle.” His squeeze was strong but warm. I enjoyed its comfort, then got up and went into the living room to read on the sofa.

My eyes were getting heavy when Mama and Daddy went to bed around eleven. I fought it and continued reading. Or tried to. The words had blurred on the page and my eyes had shut when I heard a soft, familiar, masculine voice in my ear.


“Mmm.” My eyes wouldn’t open.

“Time to go to bed.”

“Why don’t you go, Sid. I gotta lock up.” I snuggled deeper into the sofa.

“I already did.”

“Dogs inside?”

“Richmond and Murbles are in your parents’ room. Motley is here, ready to follow you.”

“Door locked and bolted?”


“Good.” I rolled over, facing the sofa back.

He chuckled softly and I felt myself being lifted. I snuggled close against the smooth silk broadcloth of his shirt and the firm chest underneath. Half a minute later, he laid me down on my bed, removed my shoes, and pulled my blankets over me.

“Goodnight, Lisa.”

“Night, Sid.”

His soft lips gently, briefly caressed my forehead.



Essays, general essay

Post Re-Visit: Born on July 4

fireworks[This is actual a re-post I wrote two years ago, but since today actually is July 4 and trust me, nothing’s changed, I thought why not re-post it again. Enjoy and have a happy Independence Day.]

I’m a Yankee Doodle Dandy,

A Yankee Doodle, do or die;

A real live nephew niece of my Uncle Sam,

Born on the Fourth of July.

(George M. Cohan)

Yeah – that’s my theme song, at least this time of year. I actually hesitated to even mention my birthday because, frankly, I’ve already gotten my share of good wishes from the Facebook crowd. But then my mother said I needed to write about it.

Well, it is both a blessing and a curse to have a birthday on a major holiday. It can be kind of cool and distinctive to be born on July 4. I have never worked or gone to school on my birthday. People always grin when they hear what day my birthday is.

But there are also some significant downsides. Like, birthday parties. Ever try to do a princess party in red, white and blue? I did get the Cinderella cake when I turned 6 (or was if 5?), but the majority of the cakes and decorations were fireworks, flags and buntings. Mom said there wasn’t much else available.

Worse yet, while my school mates and friends could have their birthday parties on their actual birthdays, I never got to. Everyone was celebrating with their families. Even now, when most adults have to wait for the weekend to celebrate their birthdays, I seldom get a birthday party. When am I going to have it? Folks still celebrate holidays with their families. And if I do get invited to a party, it’s about the holiday. Which is fine. It just makes the few parties I’ve had that much more special.

I think the jokes are the worst, though. Any idea how many times I’ve been called a firecracker? By my parents? (Thanks for dropping that one this year, Mom.) One wise-ass even suggested my pigtails looked like fuses – so should have blown up on him. And, yes, it is true that I briefly thought the fireworks were for me, but I was four. That’s four years old, barely old enough to understand the concept of a birthday, let alone a whole nation. It’s been a few years. I’ve figured it out.

It could be a lot worse. I have a friend whose birthday is on December 25. Now that one seriously sucks, with all the two-for-one presents, and talk about your birthday getting lost in all the celebrating. She turned 50 before she got her own birthday party. Blech!

So, I’m not complaining. Just pointing out that having a distinctive birthday is not all sunshine and lollipops. Ultimately, being born on July 4 is more fun than not.

In fact, I’ve got a song about my birthday. Cool, huh? This is from the movie they made about composer and songwriter George M. Cohan, Yankee Doodle Dandy, starring James Cagney as Cohan. And I’ll leave you with the YouTube clip from the film:

Chapter Five

September 19, 1983


Sid, having gotten back fairly late from his party the night before, got up too late to go running. I was crushed. I managed to get up early enough to see him off, then headed for the store, getting there at eight thirty.

A liver spotted springer spaniel scratched at the back door and whined as I came up.

“Shoo! Go away!” I hissed at him.

He sat there and looked at me with big forlorn brown eyes and whined.

“You don’t belong here,” I told him as I unlocked the door.

He barked once, then squeezed past me into the stockroom.

“Hey,” I yelped. “Get out of here.”

I turned on the lights. The dog barked twice more then sniffed around, looking for something.

“Come on, get out,” I said. “You don’t belong.”

The dog barked again, then scratched at the door leading down to a little rough cellar that Murray sometimes used for extra storage.

“Come,” I commanded, getting irritated.

To my surprise, the dog trotted over to me and sat at attention at my feet just as the best obedience trained dog would. Almost automatically, I bent down and praised him.

“Good boy.” I scratched his neck. “You obviously belong to someone.” He wasn’t wearing a collar. “So what’s your name?” [I never could understand why people talk to animals as if they could answer – SEH]

The dog barked once.

“What am I going to do with you?” [How was he supposed to tell you? – SEH]

He whined softly. He looked full-grown, maybe a little younger. He whined again. I went over to the desk. Rita had left a note asking if the tuna sandwich in the refrigerator was being saved for any reason. I could have eaten it for lunch, but at that moment tuna didn’t do anything for me. The dog whined again.

“Why do I get the feeling you’re hungry?” I asked.

He barked.

“How does a tuna sandwich grab you?”

He barked again.

“Okay.” I went over to the refrigerator and got out the sandwich.

The dog ate it in seconds.

“You eat almost as fast as I do,” I said. I went to the back door and opened it. “Okay, outside with you now.”

The dog barked and ran outside. I went back to the desk. As I yawned and stretched, my eyes fell on the phone without really seeing it. But then something else came into focus.

It was innocent enough, one of those promo pen doohickeys that salespeople are always giving out in the hopes that you’ll push their product. This one, in red plastic, was stuck to the phone and had a round base, about the diameter of a quarter, and a half inch thick. It had a hole through the middle to hold the pen, which was attached to the base with a thin, tightly coiled cord.

Call me paranoid, but the fact that it advertised Sunland Products and that I was sure I hadn’t seen it on the phone Saturday gave me pause. I got my bug finder out of my purse. Sure enough, it flashed, and when I checked the dial, it registered the new pen holder. There really wasn’t much I could do about it just then, so I left it and went about getting the store opened.

The dog was sitting next to the front door when I unlocked it. He pushed the door open and ran in, trotting comfortably behind the counter and sitting down in a corner near the register, but out of the way.

“Now wait a minute, buster,” I said. “You don’t belong here.”

The dog just barked twice and stayed put.

He was still there at two o’clock when Rita came in.

“Hello, dog-dog,” she said, petting him.

“I take it he’s a regular,” I said.

“He’s Murray’s dog.” Rita put her purse under the counter. “It’s the only thing his wife left him. She took the rest of the dogs with her.”

“I thought they raised retrievers.”

“No. Springers.”

“Oh. Well, that explains a lot. What’s his name?”

Rita shrugged. “Murray just calls him dog. You know how he can be. Says he’ll name the dog when he sends the papers in to the Kennel Club.”

“That dog is at least a year old.”

“Just about. Murray’s been pretty messed up since the divorce.”

“Hm.” I looked the dog over again. “If he’s Murray’s, then he hasn’t eaten since Friday. I’m going on my break now anyway. I’ll get him some food, too.” I patted the dog. “You stay put.”

The dog barked but didn’t follow me.

I came back twenty minutes later with a can of dog food, a twelve-inch roast beef sub, with provolone, guacamole, and the works, a large bag of Cheetos, a quart of milk and a pint of Haagen Daz ice cream – I passed the freezer section while looking for the dog food. I found the can opener in the desk and retrieved an old pan for gold plate that someone had returned years ago.

I leaned out of the stockroom door into the store.

“Hey, dog, come.” He trotted over. “It’s chow time, you fool.”

The dog yipped and bounced, but did not jump up on me, as I opened the can. I dished up and he could barely contain himself, poor little baby. He whined and yipped. I put the plate on the floor next to the desk, then tucked into my own lunch. The dog gobbled contentedly. In between bites, I scratched his head.

“You need a name, you motley old fool, you.”

The dog licked his plate clean and looked at me.

“What do you want, you motley fool?” I ruffled his neck fur with both hands. “Are you a motley fool? Hmmm?”

The dog barked. Okay, he would have anyway, probably, but I took it for inspiration.

“Oh, is that what I’m supposed to call you? Are you the Fool’s Motley? How about if we call you Motley for short? You like Motley?”

What he liked was the attention, I guess, and I know he had designs on my Cheetos. So call me a sucker. I gave him a few.

As I finished, I noticed the bug on the phone. Inspiration was in the air. I went to the stockroom door.

“Rita, could you come here for a second?” I asked.

“What’s up?” she asked.

“This pen,” I said pointing it out. “I didn’t see it Saturday. Were the Sunland reps in yesterday?”

Rita shook her head. “I don’t think any of the sales reps came in. We were pretty busy yesterday.”

“Yeah, I noticed.” I’d balanced the register tape from the day before. “Did you stick this here?”

“No.” Rita snorted. “One of the reps must have come in and did it while I was helping customers. They are so nervy anymore.”

“I’ll say. Well, they’re not getting away with it this time.” I yanked and pulled the bug off the phone and slammed it onto the desk. “The gall of some people.”

“I agree.”

The bell jangled out front and Rita went to help the customer. I checked my bug finder. No flash. I’d killed it. I picked it up and looked it over. The microphone was in the base. It looked vaguely familiar. I decided to let Sid check it out.

He showed up a little before six. I was taking a break and playing tug of war with Motley over an old rag. Sid came in from the front.

“Oh hi,” I said when I finally noticed him standing in the doorway.

“Hello.” He looked at the dog with a puzzled frown. “Would you kindly satisfy my curiosity? A- Why is there a dog in a place of business? And B- Why are you playing with him?”

“He’s a total sweetheart,” I said. “Apparently, he’s Murray’s dog and has been abandoned. Rita said he doesn’t have a name, so I named him the Fool’s Motley, only I call him Motley for short.”

“Lovely. Have you considered your position legally with regards to Murray’s property?”

“He’s a dog, Sid. And besides, somebody has to take care of him until we find Murray.”

“I suppose. How was your day?”

I went to the desk. “Largely uneventful, except for my new buddy and this.”

I tossed the pen and holder at him. He caught it gracefully and looked it over.

“Uh-oh. Was this here Saturday?”

“Nope. Rita figures some sales rep stuck it on the phone when she was helping somebody yesterday.”

Sid examined it more closely. “Curiouser and curiouser. This is a Company bug.”

“You think Tom Collins planted it?”

“I think we should ask him, but I doubt it. Remember our target is supposed to have gotten some of their stuff.”

“We only have Tom Collins’ word on that. What if he went bad?”

Sid shook his head. “I called Henry while I was in the city. He says we can trust Collins. I picked up some other interesting tidbits, too. The DEA is very interested in Sunland Products.”

“DEA?” I frowned. “And CIA. How many other acronyms are we going to pull in on this?”

“Well, we’re sort of FBI, and there’s the IRS. They’re always looking for their cut. But the really interesting part is that Della had called the DEA in.”


“According to Henry’s friend over there, Della was asked to take a delivery to a client in the area. She was told it was just a back order but checked, and it was the coke. She called the police, and the officer she talked to arranged for her to connect with the DEA person here and told her to keep the lid on what she’d found. By the way, the DEA person is undercover and wants to stay that way, too.”

“Oh, goody. But why would Della drop the coke on me?”

“She must have panicked. Either she missed her connection or thought she was being tailed. I don’t suppose we’ll ever know.”

I plopped down in the desk chair. “Hm. How was the funeral?”

“Depressing. It was a funeral.” Sid leaned against the shelf. “Interesting tidbit number two, though, I picked up a tail at the cemetery. Unfortunately, I had to ditch it.”

I grimaced. Ditching a tail usually points up the ditcher as a professional.

“Maybe we’ll get lucky and it was the cops,” I said.

“It may have been. And speaking of the cops, tidbit number three, I talked to the Sunnyvale police to confirm what Henry told me and found out that they haven’t talked to anyone up here about anything, let alone deliveries.”

“But what about the guy that talked to Della?”

“He says he only talked to the DEA, and I talked to him as Ed Donaldson, FBI. He had no reason to lie to me.”

I shook my head. “Sid, when we’re working here as ourselves, wasn’t that taking a chance?”

“It might have been, but Henry pointed out that Detective Daly wouldn’t have any information on the murder, since he turned Della over to the DEA, and he was right.”

“But if it was a cop tailing you.”

“Probably someone from up here. Sunnyvale P.D. has nothing to do with this. Of course, it could also have been whoever the cocaine was intended for. Since Della missed her connection, there’s got to be some pretty antsy people around here wanting their fix.”

I thought it over. “Sid, why would Lehrer tell us Sunnyvale wanted to know about the package when they didn’t unless he was looking for it himself and needed an excuse for knowing about it?”

“I’ve been pondering that myself, as well as tidbit number four, which is that the CIA has got their eye on him.”

“Then why didn’t Tom Collins say anything?”

“I plan to ask him that very question, but it’s always possible he doesn’t know. Company people are notorious for not sharing information, and they have their eyes on a lot of people that have nothing to do with secrets.”

“But how did Lehrer know about the cocaine in the first place?”

“The obvious answer is that the DEA has stuck their noses in and asked about it.”

I looked down at Motley and petted him. “Yeah, that makes sense. He wouldn’t say anything about that to us, and he’s probably trying to recover it before the DEA does and make himself look good. He sure is working pretty hard to pin Della on me. Of course, that’s probably his feud with Daddy.”

Sid sighed. “And his animosity towards you seems to have spread to me.”

“Well, it’s about time I got a little of my own back,” I chuckled.

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

I got up. “Your reputation has sullied mine beyond repair. I am now a fallen woman, and I haven’t even had the fun to deserve it.”

Sid’s sexy little smile spread across his lips. “I could take care of that.”

I looked out at the front, trying to get my heart to stop its racing.

“Except that I don’t care to be a fallen woman in fact,” I said turning slowly. “The talk is bad enough, but I do have to live with myself.”

“Which is essentially why I’m not doing anything about it.” He straightened. “Are you going to stay here all night?”

“No, but I do think I will give Jimmy Roth a call. Maybe I can get some more information on Lehrer. In the meantime, we’d better get home. Mama said she’d hold dinner for us.”

“Okay. The car’s out front.”

I got my purse. “And I’ve got the jeep. I’ll see you over there. Motley, heel.”

“You’re taking him with you?” Sid was less than enthused.

“Yeah. Rita can’t, and somebody’s got to take care of him until we find Murray.”

“The likelihood of finding Murray is lessening every day. That is going to make things rather sticky legally.”

I shrugged. “I’ll call your lawyer.”

Sid frowned. “I’m not entirely sure I want a dog around.”

“But, Sid, we can’t just leave him at the pound. They’ll kill him. And besides, he’s really well trained. He fetches and even finds things I’ve dropped.”

“I’m impressed.” Sid sighed. “You’d better be careful about getting too attached to him. He is Murray’s dog and Murray could still be alive.”

“I hope so.”

“Not half as much as I do at the moment.”

Motley barked once and looked up at Sid, big eyes shining and tail thumping.

I’d called Mama about Motley, so she was expecting him. Richmond and Murbles weren’t too thrilled about a new dog on their turf, but they let Motley alone. Motley stuck close to me, which didn’t make Sid any too happy. He could see what was coming.

I called Jimmy right after supper. It was his night off and he told me to come right over. I took the jeep. Sid decided to join me, only he didn’t go to Jimmy’s. He had me drop him off at the hotel where we’d been staying.

“I’ll take a cab home,” he said. “It might be late. I’ve got a meeting to arrange.”

“Okay. I’ll leave the door unlocked for you again.”

Sid snickered. “Don’t bother.”

“I wouldn’t except Mama and Daddy would wonder how you got in.”

“True. Have a nice time.”

I pulled away and headed to Jimmy’s cabin in the hills above Stateline. It was a tiny three room affair, not counting the bathroom, which was little more than a closet as it was. Terri was a teacher at the local elementary school and had papers to grade.

“I should have done it over the weekend,” she said, laughing. “But I got lazy. I’ll just work in the kitchen. You two won’t bother me at all.”

At first, Jimmy and I just chatted about people we both knew, catching up. Most of the kids I’d known in high school either had gotten married or still lived in the area or both. Jimmy knew all about the people who’d stuck around. The only person I’d really kept contact with was Leslie Bowan, and that was sporadic, even if we were still pretty close.

“She’s been awfully busy since she got on with that radio station in Denver,” I said. “She’s already been promoted to news director, and it’s an all-news station.”

“Did she give up on her anchorwoman dream?” Jimmy asked.

I laughed. “Are you kidding? She’s talking a lot to the television people in her area. There just aren’t that many tv stations in that market. She wants to go to L.A. and get on a news radio station there, then weasel her way onto one of the independent tv stations and work up from there. She says her biggest handicap is that she’s not blonde or a minority.”

“That sounds like her.” Jimmy sighed. “At least she hasn’t changed.”

“Oh, she has.”

“Maybe. I don’t know, Lisa. It seems like everybody’s changed, and not a lot of it’s for the better. Remember Mike Tipton? He’s gone gay.”

“He always was,” I said sourly. “And that’s not necessarily a bad thing.”

“And John Leland. He graduated from medical school last May. He got his residency at UCLA. He was at his folks’ place all last June. He came over a couple times, but all he could talk about was med school.”

I laughed. “And you’re saying he’s changed? Good lord, John never talked about anything but what he was immediately involved in.”

“And what about you?” Jimmy looked at me, his face with a funny pained look.

“What about me?”

“First you turn up in that hotel room with a guy who’s sleeping with anything female within reach.”

“We’re not lovers,” I said crossly. “I just work for him.”

“I believe you. If you were lovers he wouldn’t be running around like that, and I don’t think even you would put up with it. It’s just you were always so religious.”

“I still am,” I said. “Sid has different values is all. I respect that and he respects mine. I’d like to think I’ve always been that way.”

Jimmy thought that over. “Yeah. You have. You always made friends with the weirdest people. But you were such a mouse. I mean in a nice way. And the way you told Lehrer off. Lisa, I would have never thought you could be that tough.”

I shrugged. “He got me mad. It’s Lehrer’s problem, as far as I’m concerned. I just can’t figure out why he was such a jerk.”

“Well, he doesn’t like your dad too much.”

“He was acting like a total jerk before he knew who I was.”

Jimmy shrugged. “That’s Lehrer. I hate to say it, but sometimes I think he gets his kicks pushing everybody’s buttons. He’s always getting yelled at for doing things he’s not supposed to, like crossing the state line while he’s on duty.”

“Why would he do that?”

“You didn’t know? Lehrer and Murray Waters are buddy-buddy. Lehrer’s always going over to see Murray, usually right around midnight.”

“Really? That’s weird. I mean what would they have in common?”

“Who knows? I sometimes get the feeling Murray doesn’t like Lehrer all that much, to hear him talk.”

I feigned interest in my fingernail. “You know Murray?”

“Well, to say hi and stuff. He and my older brother used to hang out until Steve got into Gambler’s Anonymous. Did you know Steve?”

“Not well. You do know Murray is missing, don’t you?”

“Yeah. I heard about it at roll call Saturday night. Tahoe P.D. asked us to keep an eye out, even though they couldn’t do anything officially. We didn’t figure it was any big deal because Lehrer said he knew where Murray was.”

“He did?”

“Well, something like he knew where to find Murray.”

“That’s really strange. Has Lehrer found him?”

“Beats me. Sunday and Monday, I’m off.”

“It must really stink working nights when your wife’s on days. What hours do you work?”

“Eleven to eight. I usually sleep when Terri’s at work and get up when she gets home. Days off are a little rough. I have to stay on my work schedule cause it’s just too hard to adjust for two days. I’m getting a lot of reading done. If I decide to go to law school, I’ll be ready for the LCAT.”

“You’re going to law school?”

“If and when I get the money.”

“Oh, I hope you do soon.”

Jimmy looked me over. “Weren’t you supposed to go to graduate school? I thought your mom said something about that a couple years ago.”

I shook my head. “I got my masters three years ago. I overloaded on credits and did my B.A. in three years and got the master’s in one.”

“How long have you been working for your boss?”

“Only a year. I was teaching before that. How long have you been with the Sheriff’s Department?”

“Since I got out of college. My uncle got me on.”

“Yeah, I saw him again yesterday.” I blushed. “Turning in evidence.”

Jimmy grimaced. “That was pretty weird. Uncle Larry called me right before you did. He was thinking maybe Lehrer planted the stuff until he got the report on the gun. It was the one that killed Riordan.”

“Are you serious?” I swallowed. “What is he thinking about it?”

“He’s thinking it’s too darned bad Lehrer didn’t plant it. He’s been wanting to bust Lehrer for years.” Jimmy noticed me biting my lip and laughed. “He also figures whoever killed Riordan planted it on you. He knows you didn’t do it and your boss isn’t tall enough to be the guy the waiter saw.”

“But the platform shoes.”

“They were ladies size six, and who could run in those suckers anyway?”

“Not I.” I shook my head. “That’s just too weird.”

I spent another half hour pumping Jimmy about Della and not answering questions about myself. Jimmy didn’t seem to know anything else. Terri looked like she wanted to go to bed, so I left.

I got home around eleven. The door was locked and I heard piano music coming from the living room. I slid in silently. Sure enough, Sid was at the keys playing one of Chopin’s twenty-four preludes, a sure sign that he was bugged.

I sat down on the couch and waited until he had worked his way through the last prelude. He looked over at me.

“I’m taking requests,” he said, gazing back at the keys. “However, since your folks are in bed, I’d recommend something soft.”

“What’s that Beethoven sonata you like? Pata…”

“Pathetique?” He started the first, sonorous chords.

“No, the middle part, the melody.” I sang it.

“Ah, the adagio.” He played the second movement.

A soft smile crept onto his lips as he concentrated. Whatever was bothering him before, he found some resolution in the dignified, rolling melody.

“Something got your goat tonight,” I said softly about halfway through.

He stopped playing. “Tom Collins said the bug wasn’t his, but that it’s definitely Company equipment.”

“In other words, it’s the stolen equipment.”

“It looks that way. Collins said he’s being transferred to a new division. In the meantime, he’ll stay on as bartender. Did you find anything out from your friend?”

I nodded and told him what Jimmy had said. He sighed.

“It just doesn’t add up,” he said.

“We don’t have that much information,” I pointed out. “We’ve probably got a few pieces missing yet.”

“To be sure.”

“When did you get here?”

“A little while ago.”

I looked him over. “Did you skip… I mean, I would have thought you’d take advantage of being out.”

“I did.” His fingers absently went up and down a scale a couple times.

“Did you have a run-in with Daddy?”

“No. We said a few polite words and basically ignored each other. I played a couple numbers for your mother and they went to bed. I kept playing and you came home.” He got up. “We’ll go running at the usual time tomorrow.”

“I can’t wait.”

He paused for a moment, then went on to his bedroom. I went to mine, wondering what the heck he was so bugged about. [It wasn’t the case. It was the woman, and I use the term loosely, that I took advantage of being out with. I believe you knew her in high school as Charlene Dempsey, the cheerleader with the hatchet face, and still as loose as she was then. Probably just as threatened as she was, too. Anyway, when she finally figured out I was the one who knew you, which took a while, she turned pretty bitchy. She made like she thought it was funny, but it really teed me off, enough that when we were cleaning up, I told her so and what I thought of her attitude, which ultimately unnerved me a great deal. I was not just standing up for a friend, but somebody I cared about far more than I wanted to admit at that time – SEH]


Chapter Four

September 18, 1983


Sid must have fainted when he found I’d gotten up early enough to make it to eight a.m. mass the next morning. [Damned near – SEH]  But I was hoping to avoid people I knew at my old church. I still ran into Neff and Mary. Mary tried to make me feel guilty and Neff told me something that had me speeding on the way back to the hotel. (Sid had told me to take the Mercedes the night before.)

I burst into the suite at quarter after nine and went straight into my bedroom.

“There you are,” said Sid, following me. “We may have to vacate. I haven’t checked with the desk yet, but I only reserved this suite through this morning.”

“I’m vacating anyway.” I opened my suitcase and threw the clothes I’d left out into it.

“You don’t have to yet. Check out’s not ‘til eleven, and if the hotel doesn’t need the room, we can stay.”

“You can stay where you like.” I hurried into the bathroom to collect my toiletries. “I’m changing.”

“What’s the matter?” Sid came to the bathroom door.

“My folks are back in town!” I quickly tightened the tops to my shampoo and conditioner before tossing them into the carry-on bag. “They got back last night.”


“Sid, Daddy can’t stand you as it is.” I grabbed the carry-on and pushed past Sid into the bedroom. “And you have never seen him really mad. When he catches me in this suite with you, he is going to be really mad.”

“We already live in the same house.” It’s Sid’s house really, and our bedrooms are on opposite ends.

“Well…” Flushing, I jammed my nightgown into the suitcase.

“Oh hell. Don’t tell me you still haven’t told them.”

I had kind of forgotten to tell my parents about living with Sid when he hired me.

“I just haven’t gotten around to it,” I said. “It’s not a simple thing to toss at them, especially since it’s been a year, and you know Mae won’t let me bring it up whenever they’re visiting, and I hate doing it over the phone. And of course, Neff and Mary told them all about the trouble here, and they’re worried, so if you don’t mind, I’m changing rooms, preferably on a different floor, maybe in another hotel, maybe I’ll even change states.”

I looked around for my deck shoes.

“Oh, come on, Lisa,” groaned Sid. “You’re overreacting. We’re in two separate rooms.”

“That’s not near far enough for Daddy.”

“He’s more reasonable than that.”

“Not when he’s mad. Where are they?”

I looked under the bed. The shoes were there, but beyond them was something else. I grabbed a towel that had fallen near the foot of the bed and covered my hand with it.

“Don’t tell me those deck shoes of yours finally started growing something,” said Sid. He hates my deck shoes.

“Real cute, Sid.” I reached and pulled the handgun out from under the bed. “Why do I get the feeling that someone didn’t just forget to pack this?”

Sid shook his head. “I knew I should have wired this place. Whoever visited us last night also dropped a pair of six-inch platform shoes in the coat closet, and while you were at church, I found an extra long pair of black slacks in your suitcase.”

“I’m being framed,” I whispered.

“It’s pretty sloppy except for that gun. What do you want to bet it’s the one that killed Della?”

“I don’t.” I sank onto my bed, feeling a little faint. “But who would want to frame me?”

“Della’s killer, or possibly our friendly neighborhood enemy operative, assuming that’s the gun that killed her.” He took the gun. “I’m taking this and the other stuff to the sheriff’s department this afternoon.”

The door buzzed.

“I’ll get it,” I said mechanically, then went. Sid slid quickly into his room.

I can’t say my father looked happy when I opened the door. Tall and broad shouldered, he has that rugged mountain man look about him, right down to the strong silent demeanor. Mama, on the other hand, was bubbling over. She’s small, with bright, flashing eyes. They’re both from southern Florida and still have fairly strong accents.

“Lisle, baby!” Mama crowed, throwing her arms around me. Lisle is my parents’ pet name for me.

“Hi, Mama,” I said, still nervous.

I hugged her, then Daddy.

“Hi, honey,” he said, then pulled back. “What the hell are you doing here? Why didn’t you call us?”

“William Wycherly, you can just stop that right now,” said Mama. “Lisa has a right to do as she pleases.” She looked at me. “But, honey, I really wish you would have called.”

“I did, Mama,” I said. “But you guys were out of town, and the assignment came up so fast and we couldn’t wait.”

“Oh, Sid, there you are.” He was coming out of his bedroom. Mama went over and gave him a warm hug. “How are you, honey?”

“Just fine, Althea.” Sid smiled back. He and Mama really like each other. “How are you?”

“Real well.” She wandered around the sitting room. “Bill, isn’t this nice? I been dying to see inside one of these suites for years. Lisle, no wonder you wanted to take advantage of us being gone. Isn’t this nice, Bill?”

“Nice enough,” grumbled my father. He shot a brief glare at Sid, who mercifully ignored it.

Daddy, unfortunately, is not very tolerant of effeminate males, and he considers Sid’s urban polish sissified. He is also convinced that Sid is going to turn me into a fallen woman. But the really weird thing is that Daddy is extremely jealous of Sid.

“Two bedrooms, too,” said Mama. “See? I told you, Bill, there wasn’t a thing to worry about. It was just people talking. Landsakes, can’t trust your own daughter.”

“Oh, I trust Lisle.” Daddy sent another quick glare Sid’s way.

“Well, Sid, how long y’all got this room paid up for?” asked Mama.

“We’re fine here, Althea,” said Sid.

“Uh-huh.” Mama gave him a shrewd once over. “I don’t want to hear any arguments. You two just pack yourselves up and head on over to the house. Lisle, put Sid in Mae’s old room.”

“I don’t want to impose,” said Sid.

“Landsakes! You’re not imposing.”

Sid looked over at Daddy.

“Won’t take no for an answer,” Daddy said, which surprised me. I mean Daddy wouldn’t have said no, but I got the feeling he really wanted Sid at the house. [He wanted me where he could keep an eye on me – SEH]

“Honey, I’d never forgive myself if I let y’all stay at this big expensive hotel, eating bad hotel food.” Mama smiled and took Daddy’s arm. “Now, Bill and I gotta get to mass. We’ll meet y’all back at the house.”

“Alright, Mama,” I sighed. “Oh, wait.” I looked at Sid for help, but he had no idea what I wanted. “Um, it might take a bit. We- we’ve got an errand to run.”

Sid shot me a puzzled glance, then played along. But Daddy caught him. Glaring at me, he folded his arms.

“Young lady, what the hell is going on here?”

“Nothing, Daddy.” I swallowed nervously.

“Oh, really now. Not when I been hearing all sorts of rumors, even people saying you went and killed somebody.”

Mama glared at Daddy. “Now, Bill, you know that’s hogwash.”

“I never said it wasn’t.” Daddy’s big, round, angry eyes fixed themselves on me. “But something is going on around here, and, Lisle, you’re acting just a hair too guilty not to owe me an explanation.”

“Well, I…” Frantic, I looked to Sid for help, which was pretty stupid given how sure Daddy was that Sid was the cause of it all.

Sid took a deep breath. “There’s very little to explain, really. It was just an unfortunate coincidence. Thursday night, I ran into an old acquaintance, who I entertained here in the suite. She left to her room and was, sadly, killed there. The sheriff’s investigator working the case has proven to be very ill-mannered and has not only accused me of being the killer but Lisa as well. The word has spread, and someone, either a prankster or perhaps even the killer, decided last night to leave some potential evidence in our suite, in order to frame us. And by the way, Lisa, we’d better get on over to the sheriff’s department pretty quickly before a search warrant arrives.”

Daddy’s eyes narrowed. “Which sheriff’s investigator?”

“Carl Lehrer,” I said.

Daddy swore. “I wouldn’t put it past him if he put the stuff in here himself.”

“What do you mean, Daddy?”

“Never mind.”

“Oh, that Lehrer has had it in for your daddy since he was a motorcycle cop,” said Mama. “Remember that deputy who tried to accuse him of taking a bribe?”

“That was Lehrer?” I asked.

“Oh, yes.” Mama turned to Sid. “It was about five or six years ago. We found out after it had all happened that Lehrer was short on his ticket quota. He pulled Bill over for an unsafe lane change, only Bill hadn’t changed lanes at all. So he took it to court, and of course Judge Davis knew Bill, and he knew Lehrer, and when it looked like Davis was going to find for Bill, Lehrer got all up in arms and accused Bill of offering him a bribe, which made him look even more ridiculous because everybody knew Bill was the last person to do that, and Lehrer’s had it in for Bill ever since. Well, y’all better get to the sheriff’s station, and we’re late for mass. Come on, Bill.”

She took Daddy’s arm and steered him out of the room.

“Let’s get going ourselves,” said Sid, heading into his room.

“What about packing?” I followed him to the door.

He picked up a laundry bag off of his bed. “You can worry about that when we get back. Come on.”

I grabbed my purse off the sofa and scrambled after him. The elevator opened just as we arrived, letting off a bellhop and an elderly couple.

“What do you mean I can worry about the packing?” I asked as the doors closed. “You’ve always preferred doing your own before.”

“I’m not packing,” he said quietly, then sighed. “I’m sorry, Lisa, but there is no way in hell I am going to stay at your parents’ house.”

“I knew this was going to happen,” I groaned. The elevator opened on the ground floor and we got off. “Sid, can’t you please? Just to keep the peace?”

“No.” His pace quickened as a sheriff deputy wandered up to the check in desk. We slid around him out to the parking lot and the car.

“Why not?” I asked, getting in.

Sid backed quickly out of the space and took off.

“It has nothing to do with you,” he said finally. “But there is no way I can have company at your folks’ place.”

Doing without was out of the question.

“Do you have to have your own place for that?” I asked.

“Of course not, but I hate presuming on the hospitality of others. The only time it doesn’t make things difficult is buying it.”

I groaned. “Please, Sid, whatever you do, don’t do that. I’ll… I’ll…”

“Provide services yourself?” Sid asked, with one eyebrow raised and this little smile he has that is about as arousing as a smile can get, and I know he’s mentally doing it with me, and I still get goose pimply and hot and bothered over it.

“That’s not fair,” I grumbled, flushing candy apple red. “It’s just that if you buy it, someone will find out, and that much talking, I’m not ready to deal with.”

“Lisa, you know I don’t unless I’m desperate, and with the offers I’ve been getting, it’s not likely I’ll be anywhere near desperate.”

“Well, you could rent a room for the evening.” I shrugged. “It sounds kind of tacky, but I’ve heard there are a couple places around that rent by the hour.”

Sid laughed. “That’s about as tacky as visiting a hooker, and will probably create just as much talk.” He shook his head. “I’ll just stay in the suite.”

“Oh, Sid, please? Mama won’t think anything if you just tell her you’re visiting someone, and I’ll keep Daddy off your back.”

“I don’t want to stay with your folks.”

“For my sake?”

He glanced my way. I blinked twice.

“Alright,” he grumbled. [Those beautiful cow eyes of yours strike again. Have I mentioned what a weakness I have for that routine? – SEH]  “But we do have a case we’re supposed to be investigating, not to mention your friend Murray’s disappearance, and remember we do not want your parents to suspect that we’re doing anything beyond visiting.”

“So that’s what we’ll tell Mama we’re doing,” I replied. “She’ll believe us, and Daddy will believe the worst no matter what, so if we just stay out of their way, we’ll be able to pull it off. There isn’t any overt investigating I can do without raising questions as it is.”

“True. But that doesn’t mean I’m happy about it.”

“Neither am I.”

Everyone was really nice at the sheriff’s station. We turned the gun into Lieutenant Larry Roth, my friend Jimmy’s uncle.

“It sure has been a long time, Lisa,” he asked going over the stuff. “You like it down there in Los Angeles?”

“Yeah, pretty much.”

Uncle Larry picked up the gun and shook his head.

“Where did you find this?” he asked.

“Under my bed at the hotel.”

He grinned and shook his head. “I’d almost say Lehrer is up to his old tricks, except this could be the real gun.”

“Why do you say that?” asked Sid.

Uncle Larry chuckled. “Lehrer’s so lazy he’d make up evidence sooner than work on finding it. Of course, no one can prove he actually has. That’s why he’s on night shift. He can manage a crime scene okay, but he’s not big on routine, just competent enough to keep his job. You can’t fire someone for being a jerk. It sure is nice seeing you again, Lisa.”

“Nice seeing you, Lieutenant.” I paused. “You wouldn’t happen to have Jimmy’s home phone number, would you? I only ran into him that once, and it wasn’t exactly a good time to sit down and chew the fat.”

“I’ll bet.” Chuckling, Uncle Larry scribbled onto a piece of scrap paper. “Here you go, but he’s usually sleeping during the day.”

“No problem. I’ve got work. Thanks.”

Sid waited until we were back on the road before he asked about Jimmy’s number.

“Are you hoping to reignite something?”

“Nothing had ever ignited, to begin with, and he’s married now.” I shrugged. “You just have your inside source. I have mine.”

“Not a bad idea.” Sid glanced over at me with a mischievous grin. “But how are you going to coax him into talking?”

I folded my arms and grinned. “If you’d ever turn that incredible imagination of yours over to something besides carnality, it might occur to you that there are other ways besides physical gratification to gather information.”

“You’re too cheap to bribe anyone.”

“So obvious, Sid. I’m referring to much more subtle tactics.”

Sid chuckled. “And I’ll bet you’ll manage to pull it off one way or another.”

By the time we were done packing and paying off the hotel and got out to my parents’ house, my parents were already back from mass. As Sid parked the Mercedes in the driveway, Murbles and Richmond came running up, barking their deep roaring barks. They’re so huge, they can be pretty intimidating. Sid at least had the sense not to let on if he was. He did hesitate before getting out of the car until he saw me getting out.

“Here, Murbles. Here, Richmond,” I called. They came running over and bounced and pranced around me. I cuddled each one. “How are my sweet puppies? Huh? How are my sweet little babies?”

“They are hardly babies,” said Sid, shutting the door.

Murbles whined a little as he went over and sniffed at Sid. Sid hesitated then gave Murbles a quick scratch behind the ears. Richmond came over to investigate and got the same perfunctory scratching. I looked at Sid, puzzled.

“You don’t seem to dislike dogs,” I said.

“I neither like nor dislike them,” he replied. “Dogs are dogs. I haven’t had that much contact with them, really.”

“You poor deprived urbanite.” I cuddled my sweeties some more. “I always figured you didn’t have any pets because you didn’t like animals.”

“I have no problem with house pets. It just never occurred to me to acquire any.”

“There you are,” called Mama, coming out onto the porch. “Bill! They’re here! Bill will help with the luggage, Sid.”

Sid opened the trunk. Daddy appeared from around the corner of the house.

“This all yours?” Daddy asked picking up the two suitcases.

“No. That one’s Lisa’s.” Sid pointed.

“Matching luggage.” Daddy glared at Sid.

It matched because Sid and I had had to travel as husband and wife on other Quickline business, but I was really going to tell my dad that.

“Daddy,” I groaned. “Sid just loaned me one of his because my stuff was so beat up. Just friend to friend, okay?”

Daddy looked at Sid. Sid smiled back, even if it was forced. Daddy went on into the house and we followed.

“Welcome to the Hotel California,” muttered Sid, and promptly received one of my elbows in his ribs. He nearly stumbled as Murbles brushed past him onto the porch and to the door. “Are the dogs allowed in?”

“Of course they are, Sid,” said Mama, petting Murbles. “They’re part of the family. Aren’t you, Murbles, baby?” Richmond nosed his way in for his share of the affection. “We’ve had Murbles since before Lisa got out of high school, and then she brought us Richmond four years ago. Poor little puppy had been abandoned. Lisle, why don’t you show Sid around the house, then y’all get settled in and we’ll go to lunch.”

“It’s very kind of you to put me up,” said Sid politely.

“Well now, it’s my pleasure, sweetheart, and Lord knows, we don’t get to see near enough of Lisa. You two take your time settling in, and for heaven sakes, Sid, get out of that suit and into something more comfortable. Landsakes, you look like you’re going to a funeral.”

“Funeral,” Sid groaned. “Bless it all. I’ve got to go to Della’s funeral tomorrow. How long does it take to drive to San Francisco from here?”

“Oh, not even five hours,” said Mama.

“Driving speed limit, of course,” I said.

“Well, of course, he does, Lisle,” said Mama.

Sid shook his head. “I’ll confess. I’ve been known to press my luck and the accelerator a bit.” He figured in his head. “Five hours at fifty-five, that would be… Let’s see, the funeral’s not til eleven. I should be able to make it if I leave by seven.”

“Oh, goody. No running,” I said.

“‘Fraid not,” said Sid with an evil grin. “We’ll just run at five thirty.”

I groaned. Mama laughed.

“Bill and I will be waiting for y’all in the kitchen.” She wandered off.

“Well,” I said, taking his arm. “Welcome to a bit of my personal history.”

We went into the living room first. Sid spotted the piano and went over to it.

“That’s from when Mae and I took lessons,” I explained. Mae is my older and only sister.

Sid played a major scale. He’s been playing since he was six, and he’s really good.

“Hm. Still in tune.”

“You can play later. I’m sure Mama will insist on it.”

“I’m sure she will.” Sid smiled and followed me into the dining room. I pointed out the kitchen, then led him back through the entry into the back of the house.

“This is our bathroom over here,” I said, pointing to the door at the end of the hall. “And my parents’ room is in here.”

We poked our heads in.

“One bed,” Sid observed dryly. “What a surprise. Of course, that doesn’t mean he still does.”

“Sid! That is out and out insulting.”

“I’m sorry.”

“No, you’re not. Things aren’t going to get any better between you two if you insist on keeping that kind of attitude.”

“Things aren’t going to get better as long as I’m around you.”

“You’re not helping, and you might at least make an effort.”

“What about him making an effort?”

“I’ll talk to him, but it goes two ways, remember.”

He sighed. “I’ll try. What’s next?”

“My room.” I led him down the hall. “Mama’s changed the curtains and bedspread and repainted, but it’s still my old furniture, and some of my old Shakespeare posters are still on the walls. She had them framed.”

The phone rang, but I ignored it. Sid nodded, then followed me to Mae’s room.

“It’s technically the guest room,” I said. “Mae’s been gone for over ten years, but we still call it her room. There’s a trick to the closet door. You have to lift it onto the track like this or it sticks.” I demonstrated. “It’s been like that since I was eight. Mae caught me pasting ape pictures from National Geographic all over her Tiger Beat Magazine. You know, the one that had all the teen heartthrobs in it? She got so mad she knocked me right into the closet. I got five stitches right here.” I pulled up my hair and showed Sid the spot. “And Mae got grounded for a week.”

“Didn’t you get punished? After all, you were the instigator.”

“I had to buy her all new magazines. I was hurt so bad, Daddy said it was punishment enough and I deserved what I got, even if Mae had no right to do it. Daddy’s tried time and again to fix the door, but it just won’t stay fixed.”

Mama came in.

“I hope you two can stay through the end of the week,” she said. “That was Mae on the phone just now. Darby and Janey have off Thursday for a teacher in-service day, and Neil decided they might as well skip Friday, too, and come on up for the weekend. They’ll stay Wednesday night with Neil’s aunt in Sacramento, then be up Thursday.”

Neil is Mae’s husband. Besides Darby and Janey, they also have Ellen, Marty, and Mitch.

“Will there be room?” Sid asked. The O’Malleys adopted Sid a couple months after I had started working for him, which was a little surprising since Sid is not overwhelmingly fond of children. But Mae’s kids adore him and he’s very close to them.

“We’ve got a couple vacant cabins,” said Mama. “We’ll give one to Mae and Neil, and the kids can camp out in the living room. They always think that’s such a treat. I just hope y’all can stay. The kids’ll be so thrilled to see you. Of course, I do hope all that trouble is cleared up by then.”

“I think we can stick around even if it is,” said Sid.

“That’s perfect. Now, come on, Lisle. Let the poor man get changed in peace so we can go to lunch.”

Sid showed up in record time wearing a shirt, sweater, and tight designer jeans. Mama piled us into the jeep as Daddy gazed thoughtfully at the fenders.

“Althea, didn’t you take this to the car wash before we left?” he asked, puzzled.

“I sure did, Bill. What’s the matter?”

“There’s mud all over the fenders.”

I swallowed. “Didn’t you drive the jeep to church this morning?”

Daddy shook his head. “Weren’t anyplace to get mud on it then.”

“It must’ve happened on the way back from the car wash,” said Mama. “That’s right. I stopped at Raley’s to pick up some Tylenol and it was raining when I got out.”

Daddy didn’t seem convinced, but let it go.

“There’s a new little Mexican place we’re going to,” said Mama. “It’s really nice, and your Daddy loves it ’cause they have those jalapeno peppers and those nasty little serrano things.”

“Really?” Sid’s interest was definitely piqued. So was mine. We both love spicy food, the hotter the better.

It had come as a bit of a surprise to us since Sid’s system is pretty touchy and while I’ll eat almost anything, I don’t really come across as someone who would enjoy eating fire. But earlier that July, we found a bag of different chiles on our doorstep. It turned out one of Sid’s girlfriends had brought it over as a joke. She plants chiles to keep pests out of her garden, but can’t stand the product. She figured Sid would laugh, then throw them away. Sid and I arm wrestled each other for the last serrano.

At the restaurant, the waiter brought us a bowl of raw jalapenos and serranos right away. Daddy helped himself, but Sid hesitated.

“What’s up?” I asked him.

“Party tonight,” he said quietly.

“Oh.” I knew what the problem was. “I’ve got the Alka Seltzer in my purse. It should be out of your system in time.”

Sid took a couple jalapenos while I munched on a serrano. Daddy had already broken a sweat.

“Landsakes, Lisle,” said Mama. “The things you got in your purse. Why are you carrying Alka-Seltzer?”

I laughed and swallowed some water. “It’s from last week. Sid took me for Indian food. I swear, Daddy, you would have loved it. We were swimming in sweat by the time we were done.”

Daddy’s eyes narrowed. “Are you two dating?”

“I take Lisa specifically because we are not,” said Sid, his voice getting that angry edge to it. “The after effects of such a meal not exactly being conducive to romance.”

“You can say that again,” I replied laughing. “Between the two of us, it’s worse than the campfire scene in Blazing Saddles.”

Sid glared at me. Little beads of perspiration had popped out all over his forehead.

“Sorry,” I said quickly.

“Lisle, ’tisn’t nice,” said Mama.

“Well, it’s not that big a deal,” I said, eating a jalapeno.

Sid chuckled in spite of himself. “It is when I’m stuck in a closed car with you.”

“You’re no bundle of roses yourself, pal,” I replied, wiping my forehead. “At least I give you some warning. Those SBD’s of yours are beyond description.”

“I’ve about had enough of this,” growled Daddy.

The waiter brought us killer salsa, made with fresh chiles and tequila, and took our orders. I scarfed, Sid ate more than usual, and Daddy glowered.

“Bill, y’all planning on going in to the store tomorrow?” Mama asked as we finished eating.

“Oh, my god,” I gasped. “Daddy, we’ve got a problem.”

“What’s the matter?” he asked, glancing at Sid.

“It’s Murray,” I said. “He’s disappeared. I went by the store yesterday at eleven and it was closed. I went ahead and opened and called around, but no one knows where he is.”

“Any cash missing?”

“No, and the night deposit bag was still there. I checked it, and the deposit balanced with the register tape. Are those gambling rumors true?”

Daddy stifled a belch then nodded. “‘Fraid so. He weren’t too bad about it, but he did have a problem. I told him the first time any money’s missing, he was out the door.”

“But the money was all there, and the police said his car was at his apartment. They even broke in, just in case he was hurt or something, but he wasn’t there.”

Daddy shook his head. “I guess I’ll have to go down and take over. He sure picked a lousy time to run off, with winter changeover on the doorstep.”

I grinned. “I already started that yesterday. Sid helped. We got a lot done.”

“That was real nice of you, Sid,” said Mama. “I hope Lisa didn’t push you into it.”

“He volunteered, Mama,” I said quickly. “I even told him not to.”

“Well, that was really sweet,” said Mama. “Wasn’t that, Bill?”

Daddy reluctantly nodded.

“Listen, Daddy,” I said. “Why don’t I just keep running things down there while I’m here, or you can find Murray or someone else.”

“If you don’t mind, Lisle,” he replied. “I’d just as soon have you as anyone else.”

Sid, on the other hand, would just as soon have had someone else. But he didn’t say anything. He quietly pressed the back of his hand to his lips. I got out the Alka Seltzer.

“It’s time for the toast,” I said, opening the box. “Daddy, you want some?”

Chuckling, Sid placed his water glass in front of me. Daddy hesitated but added his glass. I fished out the ice, then dropped the tablets in. We waited a moment for the tablets to dissolve, then Sid and I each took our glasses and clinked them together.

“Cheers,” I said.

“Bottoms up,” he said.

“Daddy?” I asked.

He just clinked my glass, and the three of us drank and grimaced.

“Man, this stuff tastes aw-” I didn’t get any further because this horrendous belch took over.

“Lisle!” gasped Mama.

Sid sat back and laughed quietly. Daddy laughed loud and hard.

“It was an accident,” I groaned, beet red.

“Of course it was, honey,” said Daddy, wiping his eyes.

“Let’s just be thankful for open cars,” said Sid.

We looked at each other and laughed. Daddy’s eyes narrowed and he glared at Sid even harder.

Back at the house, Mama coaxed Sid into playing the piano. Daddy disappeared. I started to go after him, but Mama stopped me.

“He just needs to be left alone,” she said.

She and Sid spent the afternoon chatting, while I fretted. But there wasn’t much I could do. Daddy showed up for dinner and was less than enthused when he found Sid had been helping Mama. He disappeared again right after eating. Sid and I cleaned up while Mama went to talk to him. She came back, shaking her head.

“Well?” I asked.

“He’s as stubborn as they come,” sighed Mama. “Just pay him no mind, Sid. He’s always been this way about anyone who comes near Lisa, and he figures you’re closer than most.”

“We’re just good friends, Althea,” said Sid.

“Of course you are, honey.” She patted his arm. “That’s the best way to be. Lisle, you gonna wear what you got on to that party tonight?”

“What party?” I asked.

“The one you and Sid are going to.”

“I’m not going,” I said quickly before Sid could. “I’d really rather visit with you and Daddy.”

“Now, honey, you got all week.”

“Mama, trust me. I’d rather visit.”

Mama frowned, puzzled. “I’m happy to have you, sweetheart, but… Sid, are you alright with that?”

“Perfectly alright.” He smiled warmly, then checked his watch. “I’d better get going.”

“I’ll walk you out,” I said.

We were silent until we hit the porch.

“You’re welcome to come if you want,” said Sid, mischief in his eyes as always.

I smiled. “I might except for one thing.”


“When you say party, it generally translates orgy to the rest of us.”

Sid chuckled. “Group sex can be a lot of fun.”

“It doesn’t sound like it.” I grimaced.

“Actually, I’d almost rather be visiting here, myself.”

“Even with Daddy around?”

It was Sid’s turn to grimace. “He does put a cramp in what would be an otherwise very pleasant evening.” He looked at me fondly for a moment. “That’s kind of why I’m taking off. Tonight should afford me an opportunity to satiate myself for a while.”

“Is that even possible?” I smirked.

“Good question.” Sid’s hot little smile slipped out. I swallowed. Sid dropped the smile and picked up my hand. “I would like to give your father as little room to carp as possible, if only for your sake.”

“Thanks,” I said softly.

“But I would like to know why he got so teed off by all those gas jokes at lunch.”

“Oh, that.” I laughed. “Passing gas is kind of an old family joke. That’s why Mama was so uptight. You just don’t talk about things like that in front of people who aren’t your family. Then there’s Daddy’s Aunt Aggie. Back in the Twenties, she ran away to New York City and became a Bohemian. That’s why Daddy went to New York to college. Anyway, Aunt Aggie was into free love and very earthy, and she always used to say that the best lovers were the ones you could blow a fart around because then you could be totally honest with them and still be friends.”

Sid nodded. “There’s some truth in that.”

“There’s a lot of truth in that. Daddy said all you had to do was substitute the word spouse for lover, and Aunt Aggie was right on the mark.” I looked at Sid and shrugged. “He gets jealous of you for some reason.”


“I haven’t the faintest. I mean, it’s not like you’re going to take me away from him.”

“But I could stain his precious little lamb.”

I laughed. “You’d like to think. However, even the ones with the purest of motives have caught hell from him. You’re not in bad company, Sid, and the last laugh is on him because I don’t want to get married.”

Sid smiled warmly and squeezed my hand. “Well, it’s time for me to take off. Would you mind doing me a favor while I’m in San Francisco and stay out of Nevada?”

“I wasn’t planning on going,” I grumbled sourly.

“Lisa, I know you can take care of yourself. But I still worry. It’s only because I care about you.”

“I know.” I smiled softly at him. “I care about you, too. You be careful tonight, and if I don’t talk to you tomorrow, you watch out in San Francisco.”

“I will.” He reached over and kissed my forehead. “I’ll meet you at the store, or come here if you’re not there.”


He left, and I watched while he backed the Mercedes out of the driveway and drove off.

“I’m going to take a walk down to the horse barns, Mama,” I called into the house, then took off myself.

Behind the barn, Daddy was stacking bales of hay onto a rack of pallets under a shelter and cursing to himself about that snake.

“Daddy?” I asked, pretty sure which snake he meant.

“Oh, Lisle.” Sullenly, he dumped the last bale.

“What are you so upset about?”

“I’m just worried is all.” He sighed. “Honey, why are you so thick with that man?”

“We’re friends, Daddy. That’s all. Close friends, yes, but nothing more.”

Daddy snorted. “He can hurt you so bad. You’ve had enough man trouble in your life.”

“I haven’t had hardly any,” I said, laughing. I went over and hugged him. “I may have lots of men friends, but there’s nobody like you and never will be. Okay?”

“Oh, Lisle.” Daddy hugged me back. “You just don’t understand, honey.”

“I love you, Daddy.”

“I love you too, honey.” He squeezed me, then let go. “Why don’t you help me get the tarp over this hay. We might get some rain tonight.”

“Sure. Think we can talk Mama into playing Monopoly with us?”

Smiling, Daddy nodded. “That sounds like fun.”

And for the moment, all was right with my world. Who cared about spies and jerk investigators and mysterious packages of cocaine? My Daddy loved me and wanted to play Monopoly with me and that was all that mattered.


Skirting the Design with a Single Seam

So I’d had this piece of fabric in my stash that looked like rip-stop nylon, but wasn’t, for a very long time. It was 60 inches wide but less than a yard long. There was a time when I could have made a pair of shorts from that piece – and such was my intent. Alas, no more.

But the piece wrapped around my backside with plenty of room to spare and it was long enough for a skirt, with some extra for pockets. I could have made a pencil skirt, but the extra space for contours might not have fit on the piece. Plus there was something even easier – just sew up the back seam and add an elasticized waistband, with some patch pockets, and hem.

Which is what I did.

Lesson # 1

It doesn’t matter how much it looks like there’s no difference between the right side and the wrong side, there’s a difference between the right side of a fabric and the wrong side. It doesn’t matter which side you choose as your right side. Just make sure that you lay out, cut and sew with everything facing the right way. Like this pocket didn’t. Sigh.

Lesson # 2

When measuring or cutting elastic for a waistband, make it way tighter than you think you’ll need. It’s a real PITA to overlock on the elastic, stitch the fold-over, then put on the skirt and realize that the skirt is going to fall off your backside the second you take your first step. 

Using the overlock (aka serger) to stretch and sew on your elastic, then folding over the waistband and stitching it down is a massive time saver. Unless you cut the elastic too big. Hence all the threads in the photo. The skirt is still a little loose, but otherwise, it came out pretty nice.